Same But Different - Chapter 43: Chapter 43

The Second Thing
“I’m calling your mom” Jason took out his phone as he pulled out another tissue and gave it to me.
“No don’t –“was all I managed to say.
I knew that I had fallen and I knew that I was on the verge of being fully unconscious. But what I didn’t know was how much my body was giving up.
“Jason” I whispered huskily while my eyes lay shut. It felt like all the energy from my body was being drained. I wasn’t unconscious, not just yet.
“Yeah yeah, I am right here. I can’t reach Mrs. Williams” Jason spoke holding my fingers tightly.
“Good, don’t tell her” I couldn’t feel blood flowing down my nose anymore, but I felt the lack of enthusiasm in my body. Even in that moment, all I could think about was Yuri. What if I switched to her? How confused was she going to be? How can I cure this?
Jason lifted me up with his bare arms and made me lie on his shoulders. I rested, while taking deep breaths, feeling as if I was losing each one of them. I still couldn’t open my eyes, but for now it was okay.
“Sasha?”
“Hmm”
“Alright good, you’re still there.” Jason whispered quietly. He was scared, and so was I. He rocked me back and forth slowly in his arms, until I began to gain a little more strength to open my eyes a bit. I could see a faint figure standing in front of the door. I breathed heavily, wishing it not to be Mrs. Williams. I really did not want Yuri’s mom to find out about her illness. Not yet.
“Sasha, are you alright? Come on Jason get her up” Belle’s voice spoke softly. I felt myself being lifted up and then being carried outside. Although I didn’t want to go outside of the house, I wasn’t in a position to protest,.
“Get her in the car, I’ll drive” Belle replied and I felt Jason nod. Part of me knew what was happening but then again I didn’t. I felt like a girl who’d been drugged heavily.
“How much did she bleed?” I heard Belle ask.
“Pretty much. I think she has fever” Jason replied back. His fingers patted on my back slowly, trying to make me feel better. But it was getting worse, I felt a headache coming up and I knew it wasn’t going to go away. I groaned when Belle pulled over.
“Hold on a bit longer love” Belle replied. I couldn’t move, nor could I open my eyes fully. For the first time I couldn’t even help myself. Jason got me out of the car, and I could feel my head pounding when he ran past the doors.
“Nick, you have to help her, she – she . . .” Even though I couldn’t see Belle, I knew from her voice that she was crying. My body felt lifeless, and I felt paralyzed and I hoped in that moment, to let me make it through the day.
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Coming back was a challenge. You see, I thought I had nearly died today but opening my eyes and finding me back in my room all in one piece made me feel different. Every day when I wake up, I feel grateful, like every second and every minute now matters.
“What happened?” I asked trying to sit up on the bed.
“Oh thank god” Belle wrapped her arms around me. And Jason just smiled. They must’ve gone through hell and back to make me okay. Although I was confused I decided not to ask any questions. I was grateful to have friends who’d help.
“Nick helped you out; he said your body was a little weak today. He shot you some IV fluids and sent you back”
“I see . . .”
“And the nose bleed was also due to that.”
“Ah huh. Did he give any medication?” I asked Belle with some hope. Every medicine counts at this point. I’d swallow pile of pills if that’d get me out of this illness.
“No . . . he . . err . . . There’s just nothing he can do” Belle’s eyes filled with tears. She busted out crying a few seconds after. Her fingers touched my face, and I let her for as long as she wished.
“I love you Sasha, I still do. I’ll always do” Belle looked at me and our eyes gazed into one another. I knew she still wanted me but right now, I’d rather have her lie to my face than tell me the truth. And also I didn’t want to hurt her feelings so I touched her face and said the only truth that I can reply to her.
“I know”
Our conversation had come to an end when Jason blurted out what he had been thinking.
“I think I should tell Mrs. Williams about this”
“I don’t want her to know yet” I tried to convince Jason.
“She’s Yuri’s mother she has every right, Sasha. Come on, maybe she’d spend more time with Yuri after she learns about the disease”
“I am gonna have to agree with Jason on this one” Belle nodded.
“Fine, but after I tell Yuri. I have to tell Yuri about this and to do that I need you both to help me” The last time I talked to Yuri was when I was unconscious. And if I needed to talk to her again, I’d have to use the same method. I gulped and looked at both of them who looked like they were willing to help me out.
Ah here goes nothing.
“You both need to help me get unconscious” I mumbled out the crazy words. Its surprising how many crazy things I’ve told them in the past week.
“I’m sorry, you’re gonna have to repeat what you said. I don’t understand” Jason winced a bit as he asked. I knew this was going to be hard for me to explain but what hasn’t been hard, this whole entire journey has been nothing but hard.
“Look, the last time I fainted, I met Yuri in my head. We talked. I could see her and she could see me and we both remember the incident afterwards” I confessed.
“How on earth can you do that?” Belle gasped.
“I don’t know, every brain is different, it has mysteries. Maybe I am Yuri’s brains mystery, the one she isn’t able solve” I let out a sigh as I spoke.
“So how exactly do you want us to make you unconscious?” Jason folded his arms.
“I don’t know, pick that vase over there and hit me hard on the head” I suggested what came at the top of my head.
“Internally and externally damage your brain a bit more? No thanks!” Jason shot back. It was true, that was dumb of me to say. I noticed the concern Jason had; maybe I was putting too much pressure on both of them.
“Look, I just need to be unconscious for a few minutes. Then you can sprinkle a little water on my face and I’ll wake right up”
“But what if you don’t!?” Jason asked. He was a few feet away from me, it sadden me how tough of a situation I had put them through.
“I will wake up, I promise!” I tried to assure him but he blocked out my words. Jason was serious and upset. He was being overprotective and I understood why. But I needed to meet Yuri, and I needed to tell her what was going to happen to her. She’d feel better if the new came from me rather than someone else.
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“This is a bad idea” Belle murmured again as we walked inside Nick’s Private Practice. Jason was waiting for us outside in the car, because of course he had to be the rescuer.
“Do you know what you need to get?” I whispered.
“You need Ketamine in your system to be unconscious, I’ll go look for that, while you distract my brother” Belle suggested. It should’ve been vice versa because Belle could be an easier distraction. But since Belle knew little more about medicines than I did, we figured this was the only way. I could see Nick from the other side of the hall.
“Dr. Nick” I called out. As soon as he saw me, I had his full attention. I could feel his worry, and concerns. Instead of acting to keep him busy I figured I’d ask him questions that had been bothering me.
“Are you feeling better?” He asked.
“I think you and I both know the answer to that.” I replied forcing a smile.
“Is the tumor growing?” I asked curiously.
“I’m afraid so”
“There seems to be no other options, is there? It’s not like I can even apply for a brand new brain on a transplant list” I chuckled at my own joke but Dr. Nick didn’t.
“We could try to operate but it won’t work, the risks are too high” Dr. Nick sighed. I knew how he felt, he felt helpless and I was feeling it too.
“Oh there you are” Belle made her appearance; she wrapped her fingers around my arms and then looked at her brother.
“She wanted to ask you something, so I bought her here” Belle tried to explain to her brother even though he didn’t even ask.
“Well next time, just give me a call. I wouldn’t recommend you moving on about, you need plenty rest” Dr. Nick replied to me ignoring Belle. We walked outside the clinic and I could still see the disapproval on Jason’s face. I knew he was worried and so was I but I needed to do this right. I had to do this right!
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“Okay I’m going to inject you now” Belle said again for the fifth time. She manages to hold the injection but fails to inject it. I groaned silently at her hesitant state. It was taking forever to be unconscious, although never in my life I had ever thought I’d use that sentence.
“Just give it to me, I’ll do it” Jason took it from Belle’s hand and I hear a silent ‘thank god’ that escapes her mouth. Jason doesn’t hesitate; he injects it to my arm immediately. I was expecting immediate response but darkness surrounded me in no time.
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But this time it was almost as if I had closed then opened my eyes, I was still in my room. Yuri’s Pink Room. But Belle and Jason weren’t there anymore. I noticed Yuri sitting on the corner of her bed looking at me.
“You’re unconscious again!” She stood up from her bed with much concern. Her eyes green eyes glimmered and I stared at it as if I was seeing it for the first time. I couldn’t say anything for a second, because I was rather quite taken back by her beauty.
“Sasha, why are you unconscious again? What’s going on?” She asked. Her fingers intervened through mine.
“I purposely drugged myself unconscious so I could see you” It was probably the most romantic thing I had ever said.
“What?” Yuri was now fully confused. I stepped forward, making myself closely to Yuri. She didn’t move at all, I knew she wanted me close to her. I wanted to hug and tell her the truth but for some reason I just couldn’t tell her.
“Can I kiss you?” My words made myself more confused than she. I didn’t just want to give her a bad memory and it’s not every day you get to see your host girlfriend. I may have been making excuses myself but I couldn’t ignore how much I had wanted to kiss her ever since the last time. Maybe with all of the stuffs going on I hadn’t allowed the thought to process in my brain yet, but then again my brain is too busy growing a tumor. Excuses, excuses and excuses. I couldn’t deny our chemistry, I felt my feelings heightened as Yuri blushes.
I’ll take that as a yes.
I leaned in and kissed her lips, moving my tongue into her mouth. She bit my lower lips softly making me quietly moan. I was kissing Yuri and it felt incredible. My left hand crawled down her thighs, while my right hand pulled her hair roughly so I could have access to her neck. She moans as I kiss her neck, I could feel her hands pulling me closer. I needed her even closer, I wanted her. I pulled back then grabbed her again locking my lips into hers. We kissed and kissed and kissed, and when I finally began to realize why I had made myself unconscious in the first place, I stopped.
“I have two things to tell you, Yuri” I panted as I spoke. Our hands wouldn’t stop touching each other. We were as close as we could ever be. Yuri rested her head over my shoulder as I hugged her. I found myself debating whether to tell her or not, but I knew I had to.
“What is it?” Her voice was calm. She placed little kisses on my neck making me cringe before I could speak again.
“I am starting to fall in love with you” I gave in to my feelings. I couldn’t bottle them up any more, I couldn’t run away from them anymore. I knew but chose not to acknowledge it. I waited for Yuri to say something in return but she didn’t. Instead she hugged me a little tighter.
“How bad is the second thing?” Yuri whispered.
I wondered how I was going to answer that, I wondered how I could make this go away. But I knew I had to answer her question. I knew it was time for her to know. I pulled away from her to face her. I looked into her hopeful eyes, while every nerve in my body screamed not to ruin this moment.
“Is it that bad?” Yuri whispered again.
I nodded.
“Then don’t tell me” Yuri took me by surprise when she said that. “I don’t want to know, as long as I know you love me too; I don’t want to know the second thing”