Same But Different - Chapter 54: Chapter 54

Yuri’s POV
I think I just saw the light at the end of the tunnel. My head’s filled with noises and my eye sight seems to be a blur. I was back in my room, I noticed. The pink curtains and furniture assured me that I was back in my room. But I felt so light headed, and almost as if I was in a dream. I sat on the bed an wiggled my toes. Trying to put back the pieces of how I got back into my room, I lay back on the bed and tried to close my eyes. The sound of the door creaking open however got me up.
I stood up on the bed and just watched the door open in its slowest form. It took forever to open and then I saw that light again. I covered my eyes to not get the strength of the light hurt it. What was happening? I couldn’t say it out loud because fear had grown within me.
“Yuri?” Her voice echoed within the room. I still had my hands covering my face but my eyes opened up as soon as I heard her voice. Slowly taking a huge breath I took my time and decided to face who was standing right in front of me.
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Sasha’s POV
Her eyes widen with shock and she just stared at me, she looked scared, she looked terrified to see me. I tried to reach out to her but instead she pulled away. Hurt, I stood there with my eyes locked in with hers. “Yuri, it’s me . . .” My words came off as a whisper.
Her eyes didn’t move but they were filling in with tears. She was still a foot away from me, she wouldn’t let me touch her or comfort her.
“You’re not real.” Yuri muttered out to my face angrily. I felt my heart ache with pain as soon as she said it. Why would she say that? “You’re not real” She said it again trying to look away.
“What do you mean, not real?” I sat down on my knees, so that I could face her. Meanwhile one of her hands reached for my face. The tips of her finger barely touching my face, she whispered again. “You’re not real” Her eyes pierced through mine, waiting for a response.
“Oh! You mean not real as in you think you’re dreaming. And to think I was offended a minute ago” Realization took place later than I thought, she was in denial of the situation. I grabbed her hand and held onto it with a smirk on my face. She looked down at her hand and then back at me. I could still tell she wasn’t convinced.
“Who gave you permission to kiss Whitney?” I asked with a small frown. I watched Yuri’s eyes widen again but this time her other hand touched my face. She then ignored my question and just stared at me. Her eyes blended into my soul, my frown turned into a giant smile as I watched her leaning towards me. Her lips puckered in slow motion when she gave me a small peck on the cheek.
“You did, the minute you left me here to rot alone” Her reply was harsh and it broke my heart a little as she pulled herself further away from me.
“Yuri . . .”
“You’re not real. This is a dream, a very vivid one I may add. You. Are. Not. Real” Yuri laid back on the pillow with her eyes watering. I didn’t know what else to do, or say. As I laid next to her, I wondered how wounded she was deep inside. I knew that I had broken her. I wasn’t sure of how to make things better or make her believe that everything will be alright now.
“I am real. I came back Yuri, for you. Look at me, look me in the eyes and you’ll see that” I moved myself on top of her, with my two hands on the bed supporting myself trying not to crush Yuri down with my weight. My eyes were locked into hers, but beneath Yuri’s long stares all I saw was hatred and pain. “Do you not want me anymore?” I fought tears as soon as I asked.
“You tore me apart Sasha.” Her voice was so silent now. I was inches away from her face, from her lips.
“Did you miss me?” The second I whispered, she gave me a look. It was more like a ‘you think?’ frown. I came closer so she could feel my hot breath on her face. “Did you miss this?” I buried my face in her neck and gave her a slow kiss. I could feel her holding her breath. I held her fingers tangled with mine onto the bed, as I gave her hot trail of kisses around her neck.
“This is not . . .” Yuri began to say but I interrupted her. It was clear that she was going to say that it wasn’t real. The moments she’d dreamt about seeing me in her dreams must’ve been a lot, so now mentally she was making herself prepare.
“Enough?” I changed the subject. Now my hands were touching the hem of her skirt, crawling underneath her thighs. She didn’t stop me; instead she just stared at me, her eyes filled with lust and denial. The two things that didn’t go well with each other.
“Kiss me” Yuri gasped under her breath looking like she was giving in to me. I didn’t have to come to her, she lifted herself tilting her head and crashed her lips into mine. I was finally kissing her; I finally have her in my arms. She kissed me as if it was her last day with me, her hands held me tighter. In that moment I wished I knew what was going through her mind. I felt a drop of tear rolling down her face, which immediately made me break the kiss.
I looked at her confused face. “Hey, no more crying. No more tears, I am back. I promise you Yuri, when you wake up you’ll know for sure. This isn’t some illusion or a dream, I am real. I am back” For a second when I called out for Yuri, I thought I was going to switch to her but this time, it opened a place for us. And by it, I meant our brain which was strangely wired in a weird way. But I wasn’t complaining, I had her, and that’s all I wanted. I placed her hand over my chest in means of making her feel my heartbeat. She stared at me again for a very long time, until her hand suddenly did something unexpected like fondle my left breast. I stared back at her out of shock and relief and lust.
“I thought you were gone” Yuri muttered out tucking back my hair.
“I was never gone; I was actually evaluating what you were doing behind my back. And you, have been a very naughty girl” I said with a chuckle.
“Maybe I was acting naughty to see if you’ll come out of your hiding to punish me” Yuri grinned this time.
“Oh is that so?”
“Not really. You have no clue as to what I have been through without you” She kissed me lightly. Things were okay between us, but I knew I had to take things slow. Yuri was still trying to process me being back.
“I get it, I wouldn’t possibly understand what you went through, but I am here now and I am not leaving Yuri” I assured her.
“I can’t believe that you’re back. How is it that you’re back? There are so many questions I want to ask you but I – “I put my finger on Yuri’s lip interrupting her.
“Watch the video update I prepared for you, all your answers are there. But right now I don’t want to waste any more minute answering you when, I’d rather kiss you” I leaned down again.
“I have no objections regarding that” Yuri smirked as she kissed me. We were in our little safe haven, it didn’t matter how we got there, or why it’s there. For us, now this time, and this place is sacred and it’s special. I love her, I knew that and I want her to know that every single day.
“Please . . .” Yuri whispered through our kisses.  “Just don’t leave me again”. It was probably the first time I’ve felt that attracted to her as she let out a small glimpse of her insecurities.
“I promise, I won’t” By all the power vested in me, I swore to her that I would leave her. It would’ve been so easier if I was just a normal girl who didn’t live inside her body but for now I could promise her and keep it.
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Jason’s POV
“Are you shitting me?” I cursed as I stared at my phone. I had given over a dozen voicemails to Belle and this was getting more infuriating by the minute. I wanted to give up and say ‘hey you know I’ve tried contacting you to let you know Sasha is back but since you didn’t pick up I figured I’d just let it slide’ but no, I couldn’t do that and that was killing me.
What has happened to me in over a year? I questioned myself out of the absolute curiosity.
Getting out of my car, I let out a huge sigh answering my own question in my mind. Ignoring my thoughts, I walked up to Dr. Nick’s house. He wasn’t home but I knew Belle was. I knocked on the door three times but no one answered. Feeling impatient I tried the door knob and to my luck the door was open. Again I stood in front of the house debating whether to just walk inside or wait a few more minutes until someone gets the door.
“Manners Jason, manners”
My mom’s words kept ringing in my ears but over the year I’ve been through, I wasn’t just going to stand there. Something could’ve happened to Belle, she could’ve collapsed unconscious on the floor while I stand outside respecting my mom’s words. Before I knew it, the quick kick of panic came over me and I was inside. There was no one in the sitting room and there was nothing but silence. I prayed for a second and hoped to let Belle be sleeping. I wanted to let the feeling of being all panicked go, but it lived within me.
I walked towards the room which was closest, and opened the door without any hesitation. I was right, Belle was on the floor but not unconscious because I don’t think unconscious people did what she was doing to Whitney.
“HOLYYY SHIIIIIIIIIIT” I screamed as my mind tried to process what I saw. I turned around and walked as quickly as I could. I could hear Belle and Whitney’s screams from outside the house.
Belle and Whitney??
No no, let me rephrase that, Naked Belle and Naked Whitney?????
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I waited outside instead of just driving away because I still had to tell Belle what I came to tell her. So I texted her that I was still waiting outside. I leaned back to my car and thought about that question I asked myself again. “What has happened to me in over a year?”
Surprisingly the answer was that lesbianism had taken over and I’ve just become a lesbian magnet.
“What the hell were you thinking to barge in on us like that?!” Belle’s scream interrupted my thoughts.
“I called, and texted and knocked, I did all the good things before I barged in while you were doing bad things to Whitney, the one who just got rejected by Yuri I may add” I rested my case.
“She needed comfort and a distraction, and I was giving her that and since when does Jason Haynes care about other’s feelings?” Belle folded her arms and gave me a glare.
“Ever since Jason Haynes got invaded by an army of lesbian girls” I stated back with a smile. I could see Belle urging not to smile back.
“Why are you here, Haynes?” But Belle wasn’t in the mood for chit chat and I could understand why.
“I have news to tell you”
“Did you finally realize that you are gay?” Belle asked coldly.
“I am not gay, and nor will I ever be. I have better news” Belle was still pissed I could tell, heck, I would be too if I was interrupted at such an intense mood. But this couldn’t wait.
“Are you going to say it or not?” Belle placed her arms on her hips this time which indicated that I better tell her before she eats my brain off.
“Sasha’s back” I smiled as I said it. And smiled wider as Belle’s mouth dropped wide open.
“Who the hell is Sasha? Yuri said the same thing to me when she rejected me so cold heartedly” Whitney’s voice came from behind. Such an eavesdropper.
“You knew she was back?” Belle questioned Whitney first and then turned to me. “How? When? I want to see her” Belle looked as if she was about to cry from happiness. Her emotions were somehow mixed.
“Yeah, you can see her but I guess it’s better to give this day to Yuri first” I replied slowly to which Belle nodded slowly.
“Okay who the fuck is Sasha?” Whitney questioned again making Belle irritated.
“Okay, that’s my cue to leave. I just wanted to tell you as soon as possible” I gave a small peck on Belle’s cheek to which she didn’t object. She was grateful I knew but too much of a bitch to say it. But I liked her, she’s cool when she’s not being a bitch. “And thank you”
“For what?” Her face was clueless as to why I said it.
“For letting me see real live lesbian porn, I could cross that off of my bucket list now” I smirked when she made a disgusted face at me.
“Just when I thought you changed for good, you prove me wrong, Haynes” Belle pointed out.
“See, I told you I am not gay” I winked at her before I got inside the car.
I rode off into the road with one thought in my mind, this past year had changed me in a way I couldn’t possible describe. Being popular wasn’t important anymore, having the right friends was. The life that I lived for so long has brought me nothing but emptiness. I wasn’t grateful for the days I’ve been living; I never acknowledged the hard work my parents had done for me. At the end of the day those popular jock players would never be that friend who’d rush at four am if I was having a mental breakdown.
I’ve learned to appreciate the little things. I’ve learned not to judge, I’ve learned to be responsible and take my life seriously. And most of all I’ve learned that love can be the strongest feeling in the world. No one can ignore it, or underestimate it.
So it was okay to wait, for the one you love. I tried to convince myself.
“She wants to wait till she’s married” I muttered it under my breath. Saying it out loud makes it even scarier, should I back out while I can? It was too late now, I liked her too much. I tried to convince myself again.
Have I really changed? I began to question myself.