Shattered Dreams [EDITING] - Chapter 27: Chapter 27

NADIA'S POV:
Yet again I have been woken up far too early and the first thing to greet me when I wake up is too much noise. I hear a phone vibrating constantly with a string of text messages and some rustling in the background.
I sigh because I really don't want to have to look through Corey's phone like I did with Maddy as I'm scared as to what I may find. I kind of forgot Corey was even here until a couple of seconds ago. I look up to find him by the end of my bed, pacing back and forth.
"Are you going to answer that?" I ask him and he simply shakes his head, continuing with his pacing. "Why?"
"Because I really don't want to leave." Is all he says and he puts his phone on silent, the buzzing thankfully stopping now.
As I stay seated, looking at Corey I see that he is very tense and it can't be all boiled down to the fact he doesn't want to leave. He knows he has to leave anyway as Willem will be back soon and we can't be caught in the same room together. We can be in the same room together of course but Willem will ask questions that neither Corey and I can answer.
"That's not all it is, tell me." I ask, about to move myself out of bed but he puts his hand over my ankle to stop me, knowing I am in too much pain to be moving.
He is still always only looking out for me instead of himself when he is the one very clearly in need. I am used to the pain at this point, I can sit through it for a couple of minutes to be there for Corey as he clearly needs someone.
"Penny for your thoughts. Just imagine I do actually have a penny." I speak softly, offering him an imaginary coin. I'm only using this tactic as it works on me everytime he uses it so I hope it'll work on him too.
"My mum has had a fall and she needs me to help her" He vocalises what all the text messages were.
I'm half wondering why he is still here instead of on his way back home and I'm half wondering what is happening with his mum because this sort of stuff happens with her a lot according to Willem.
"Can your dad not help her, or does his leg not allow him too?" I ask, hoping I'm not sticking my nose too far into his business. Corey is very private about his family life, even Willem doesn't know what goes on with the Meloche family and he's always around there.
All I really know about Corey's family is that his dad was an ex-star hockey player but his career was cut short before it even really took off, due to an injury. I know his dad is a drunk, anyone who looks his way whenever he is at Corey's hockey games can see that. He always has a full beer in his hands and spends most of the matches walking to and from the bar, instead of watching his son's performance.
I don't know much about his mum either but me and her have always gotten along well. She has always been nice to me, which I can't say the same about his dad. She doesn't go to many of Corey's games though, so maybe she is not supportive of his hockey career as she saw first hand what happened to her husband because of hockey.
I can sympathise with Corey's dad; the thing he worked towards was destroyed right in front of him, but the difference between him and I is that I would never let it consume me. He turned to alcohol for comfort, I'm turning to Corey.
I know that it's not healthy either to rely on one person, but Corey seems like a good bet. I didn't do it on purpose, it happened subconsciously. He has the type of eyes you get lost in, and I suppose I did.
"I'm not talking about this with you." Corey raises his voice ever so slightly, stopping his pacing to face me.
"Why not? Because you think it will make you seem weak?" I assume and he stays still, not uttering a word. "I hate to break it to you Corey, but you will not be weak for talking about your feelings."
"It's nothing to do with you so keep out of it," he says, getting defensive now. He picks up his phone off the bed as it lights up again and he sighs. "Look, I really have to go."
"That's rich coming from you. All you have done the past month is insert yourself into my life, making me talk about things I don't want to discuss out loud." I counter, his jaw tensing.
All he does as a reply is sigh and gathers his things and his thoughts and walks towards the door but he soon stops his steps when I speak again. "You can't be here for everyone and not expect the same in return."
Corey helped me to realise that it's nice to talk about what's going in your life sometimes. He brought out the side of me that was content with opening up to people; opening up to him. He tells me that I need to not wallow in my own thoughts, yet he is doing the exact same thing.
"I will speak about it with you when I'm ready, please don't push me on this." He almost begs, clutching onto his hoodie.
I know that we are wasting time and Willem can be back any minute now but I need him to know I'm here. Although, what he has just said has really pissed me off. I respect his choice in not wanting to talk about it and I will not beg him for answers. What I do not respect though is him thinking it's okay to do the exact same thing to me, but not taking no for an answer.
Corey Meloche is a fucking hypocrite.
"Do you know how hard it is for me to tell you to stay, when all you do is push me away?" I voice, tears building in my eyes as I'm exhausted and hurt by his sudden distance towards me.
He rushes towards where I'm sitting on my bed and drops his hoodie on the duvet, taking my hands into his. "Nadia, the way I am acting right now has nothing to do with you."
"Then please stop taking it out on me, I can't handle you hating me too." I whisper, refusing to look him in the eyes.
"I could never hate you. You are mon coeur." He says, turning my head towards him so I have no choice but to look him in the eyes.
I try my hardest to ignore the nickname he's given me and the way it's made butterflies settle inside of my stomach. "Okay."
"Okay?" He counters and I nod, feeling more confident about his feelings towards me again.
I'm insecure, I need someone to tell me the same thing over and over again until I believe it. Although, most of the time I'll never believe it at all, I'll only pretend. I'm very good at putting a mask on my own life lately.
I can hide all of my problems behind something as simple as a smile. When you look at someone smiling you assume they are happy, not that they feel like a collapsing star.
"You, Nadia, are so used to getting in your own head that you can never enjoy where you are." He says, giving me a kiss on the side of my mouth before picking up his hoodie again and walking out of my bedroom door.
I get out of bed as I need to go to the bathroom and lean on the bannister, watching him as he walks down the stairs. He's been in this house numerous times to sleep around, yet today was the first time he stayed here because of me.
I hate what I'm going through with a passion, but I'm glad it's brought me closer to Corey.
Corey is about to reach the front door but is cut short when he notices my mum is in the living room."Morning, Mrs M." Corey says, acting like his usual self.
"You stayed?" My mum says, with a smile in her voice, happy that she was right about something I'm sure.
I feel like my insides are constantly moving about when I think of Corey and I don't like it as I've never really felt like this before. When I was with Jasper, he made me happy but it was nothing like this. Whenever Jasper stayed around mine, it would always end with us doing something sexual. We never enjoyed each other's company, unless it was during or after sex. We would get in from one of his hockey marches and then he would be taking my clothes off and then when we had finished we would cuddle.
I enjoyed it at the time because a relationship filled with sex is all I've ever known, but now I'm spending more time with Corey I realise that quality time is the biggest form of love.
It's beautiful to find someone who wants nothing more than your company.
Sex does help build relationships, but waiting for it makes it all seem worth it in my opinion. I'm not saying I want to sleep with Corey though, that's disgusting.
"Yeah, I was waiting for Willem to get back. He's still not here but my mum needs me." He shrugs, telling my mum a half lie.
"Hm. There's some breakfast in the kitchen if you want to take some with you." My mum offers, being motherly to him like usual.
"Thank you, Samantha, but I really better be going. I'm already late." Corey declines, heading out the front door.
I laugh quietly at his need to get out of here as that was an awkward conversation and my mum looks up towards the noise. I feel my cheeks go bright red but she simply just smirks at me slightly, knowing full way what's occurring between Corey and I.
I don't think I'm a fan of the mother's instinct, how do they always know these things?
My mum makes her way upstairs and I hobble as fast as I can to the bathroom so I can piss, but also so I can hide from her as I know she is about to ask a handful of questions I don't want to answer. I'm not even sure I will have the answer to any of them, I don't know what is happening between Corey and I.
I manage to lock myself in the bathroom just before my mum gets to the door and
hiss at the pain in my legs as I moved too much, too quickly.
"Where's dad?" I shout towards the door. I am trying to distract her from asking me questions, but as she is my mum and doesn't understand privacy the stalling doesn't last for very long.
"He is out for a work lunch," She responds, not giving me enough time to ask another question before she speaks again, "Where did Corey sleep last night?"
"On my floor." I lie, and she makes a funny noise, as if to say I'm full of shit.
"Why didn't he go home?" She asks yet another question.
"You literally had this conversation with him no more than five minutes ago." I groan.
I love my mum and how close I am with her but sometimes she needs to realise that I want some things to be kept private. I understand that she is worried about me, especially now but I still need my privacy like any normal, healthy teenager. I'm also scared about her opening her big mouth and Willem finding out because he won't be happy with it whatsoever and I really can't afford to lose him.
I'm doing whatever this is with Corey because I want too and I feel like it'll be a nice breather for me. Yet, I feel incredibly guilty because in order to do this one thing for myself I have to hide it from the people I love most in the world.
I have no clue how long whatever this is will last but I don't want to think about that. I want to live in the moment and have as much fun as I can with him. My life has been so depressing lately, so being with Corey in secret without any boundaries and rules is refreshing.
Sometimes you catch feelings for the most unexpected person.
"He obviously wasn't being truthful with me, much like you aren't right now." She replies as I flush.
She carries on talking and I turn on the tap to drown out whatever she is saying. I have an idea of what it is though, she will be saying something along the lines of, "I was right, I have seen this blossoming from the start but you all called me a fool for thinking it."
I finish washing my hands and she is still speaking, I open the door and give her a look to tell her that I didn't hear a word of that and she just sighs.
"I trust you know what you're doing," My mum says and I give her a puzzled look. "Being safe. I know you weren't always with Jasper."
"Mum, I want you to stop talking now," I plead, my cheeks growing hot. No parent should be asking about their child's sex life, especially when she has known the guy practically since he was a child. "Besides, it's not like that."
"Is it not?" She asks me suspiciously, and I walk slowly back to my room with her following behind me like a lost puppy.
"No mum, not yet." I say, wanting her to leave this conversation alone.
"Not yet?" She squeaks. I get into my room and close the door on her and she tries to fight me on the handle. I'm losing energy pretty quickly so I can't keep this up for longer, so I let go, causing my mum to lose her balance a little.
"Go away!" I giggle as she bursts into my room once she has regained her balance.
"Tell me," She begs, acting more like my friend than my mum right now.
Of course Willem chooses this moment to come back home so when I turn my head to the side to try and get away from my mum, Willem is standing there watching everything with furrowed eyebrows.
"What the fuck are you two doing?" He asks, puzzled.
I know when my brother has been up all night and it certainly looks like he has been. The night at Logan's couldn't have been that exciting so he must've been with a girl. My mum must notice this too as she asks, "And where have you been?"
Willem sighs, looking between the two of us as we cross our arms in an authoritative manner. "You know where I was. Now tell me what the fuck I just walked in on."
"Watch your language." My mum warns him, causing him to roll his eyes.
"You didn't walk in on anything." I tell him and he just stares at me, not believing me.
"She found my vibrator." Mum blurts out, then slaps her hands over her mouth. Willem and I both groan because seriously, what the fuck?
Mum looks at me, pleading at me with her eyes but I can't help but chuckle. She has said it now so there is no going back. Willem thinking I found my mum's vibrator is better than him knowing the truth, although he may not see it like that.
I'm thankful that she is keeping this from Willem without me even needing to ask her too, so I should probably help her get out of this situation, but it's just too funny.
Willem composes himself, but his face quickly goes back to his previous state of disgust. "It's too early for this." He announces, before leaving to go back to his own room. He doesn't even question if Corey was here or not, I think he is too traumatised to care.
When we hear Willem's door slam closed, mum and I turn to each other and let out the biggest laugh I've had in months.