Shattered Dreams [EDITING] - Chapter 55: Chapter 55

COREY'S POV:
I don't remember falling asleep, nor do I even remember watching any of the movie but I have an empty bowl in front of me, meaning that I did end up finishing my food unless someone else stole it, which seems to be the one with the highest chance of being right.
I have no idea what time it is but this is the second time I have been woken up tonight so I hope my sleep schedule isn't affected by this too much. Everyone else is asleep on the sofa, Lily looking comfortable under her duvet with her legs resting on mine and my brother has Will tucked into his side and they are both snoring away.
At least they both snore so they can't complain at one another.
I didn't mean to fall asleep with them downstairs because I wanted to at least check in on Nadia before I did fall asleep. I always feel sleepy in her presence, even when she isn't in the same room as me, I can sense she is there and it brings me so much comfort that I can't explain. It helps me feel young again and I feel content. I did want to leave her alone because that is what she wanted but I didn't mean for it to be for that long, just long enough for her to think through everything going on inside her head. I also know that she hates being seen when she's in pain so I had to make myself scarce.
I hear a lot of commotion going on upstairs and I grow worried as it will either be my mother or Nadia. I move my sister's legs from on mine and rush upstairs to try and find the route of this noise. It's coming from the main bathroom that all three of us share as their parents have their own so it can't be my mum.
I try the door and see that it's unlocked so I make my way inside, not caring about if I will be invading her privacy or not. I see Nadia hunched over the toilet seat with her head practically in the bowl and I grow panicked at the sight of her.
"Woah, are you okay?" I rush out my words as I run over to her and she jumps at my voice, not expecting me there.
"Yeah, I'm sorry for waking you." Is all she says and her voice is deep and rough, as if she has just thrown up a lot
"I'm sorry for leaving you alone," I admit, gathering her hair in my hands to hold it out of her face just in case she throws up again. When I gather the hair that's in her face, I feel that her skin is burning up and is soaking wet and the hair I'm trying to remove is physically sticking to her sweaty forehead. "How long have you been like this?"
"I'm not sure," She begins and then she throws up into the toilet again and it's like she practically chokes on it as there is so much of it. "I'm so sorry about this."
"Shh,' I coo whilst stroking her head with my free hand in an attempt to comfort her as being sick is the worst feeling in the world, especially when it doesn't seem to ever want to stop.
"No, I'm sorry." She says again before throwing up once more. The thing with being sick is that when you think it's over more just keeps on coming.
"Nads," I begin, making sure she doesn't start puking again before I continue. "Just shut up."
She nods and then lets out a large breath as she flushes the toilet and moves so she is sat with her back against the wall. "I think that's the last of it."
"Thank fuck for that." I chime, sitting down next to her on the floor, copying the way she is sitting and cross my legs with my back leaned against the wall.
"Go away, Corey," She practically begs me as she starts pushing me away from sitting next to her. 'I don't want you catching this if it is infectious."
"I'm sure I'll survive, Nads." I remind her that my immune system isn't as bad as hers.
"No, you won't. You have competitions coming up and I want you to be in full health so that winning can be your main focus." She speaks to me like she is my mother.
"Winning is always my main focus." I lie because whenever I am on the ice these days, I don't think about what it'll feel like to win, I'm thinking of Nadia and how she is feeling and what she is doing when she isn't in the stands watching me.
"Good, as it should be," She responds and I go to rest my head on her shoulder but she jumps at the action, causing me to lift my head up and look at her in bewilderment. "Get off me."
"Why? Did I hurt you?" I ask her, a ball of panic rising in my throat.
"No, I just don't want you catching this if it is something contagious is all," She explains to me and I relax and then begin to laugh. "What's so funny?"
"I think we are a little bit past me catching it when I was holding your hair back as you were kissing the toilet." I spell it out to her and she says silent, knowing I made a fair point and she has no argument for it.
"Fair point well made. I hope it is contagious so you feel absolutely horrible with it." She smiles at me and I want to kiss her but I hold myself back because she has just been throwing up and although I love the girl that is one thing I am not willing to do for her.
I smile back and think of our memories over the last few days and how well she has done and then I am reminded that we slept together so panic strikes within me once more. I feel my throat go dry and I attempt to swallow but it is a pathetic effort as there is no saliva in my mouth to swallow.
"Why have you gone so pale? You're not catching this already are you?" Nadia asks me, putting her hand on my forehead to check my temperature but I still stay frozen in shock.
"No, no it's not that," I reassure her but my voice doesn't sound too convincing.
"Right..." She looks utterly confused and I'm shocked it's taking her this long to piece together what I have. "Is it my vomit breath? Is it really that bad?" She puts her hands over her mouth as she speaks so her words come out muffled but I can still make out what she is saying just about.
"If I'm being honest, I can't say I really noticed," I tell her and she narrows her eyes at me and her hands fall back into her lap.
"Then what the fuck is up with you?" She questions me again, growing even more worried at my silent nature. I stay in this stare for a while and Nadia is growing more and more panicked when every one of her questions stays unanswered. I can tell the constant talking is exhausting her and that she is in massive amounts of pain so I don't even think before I tell her what's going through my head.
"We need to get you a pregnancy test." I blurt out and her face morphs into shock before turning confused and then amusement fills up her face.
"And why would I need a pregnancy test, Corey?" She asks me and it's as if she's trying to torture me by making me speak out loud.
"You know," I start and she nods her head and motions with her hand for me to keep going. "Just like why everyone else takes pregnancy tests, Nadia."
"And when did we have sleep together?" She asks me and I'm genuinely taken aback by this question because she has to remember it surely.
"The other night." I remind her and all she does is stare at me blankly, blinking at me slowly and I suddenly feel self-conscious as if this was all something I dreamt happened.
"You're an idiot." She starts laughing now and then coughs, holding her side due to pain.
"Are you okay?" I ask her, getting worried again and she puts her hand up to stop me from asking questions.
"Yeah, I'm fine but fucking hell Corey you can be an idiot sometimes." She coughs between laughing.
"Why? Because I want you to take a test?" I query and she looks like she's about to laugh again so she makes sure to speak before she does so she doesn't get another burst of pain again.
"Yes." She deadpans and I can tell she is still finding this funny but the humour from her is dying down as mor pain enters her body.
"Why?" I ask her and she sighs before tapping her hand on my lap repeatedly.
"We had sex two nights ago," She starts, stopping her tapping on my leg. "I wouldn't even be implanted yet, let alone be experiencing symptoms."
My face drops as I realise that I am exactly what she called me, an idiot.
"Jesus fucking christ," I laugh, putting my face in my hands and shaking my head as relief floods through me. "I wonder what's wrong with you then."
"I don't have a clue, C, but the pain in my side is getting so much worse," She opens up to me and I don't know what to do. "I don't think this is anything like my usual pain, I can't tell."
I'm about to reply but before I manage to even open my mouth she cries out in pain and it almost sounds like a scream. She attempts to stand up so I get up quickly, putting my hands under her arms to pull her up with me. She cries out and then I notice a streak of blood falling down her leg.
"That doesn't look good." I comment out loud, not really meaning for it to come out. I know that when women have periods they can bleed a lot and it is agonising for them but this doesn't look like it coud be that. I have also seen Nadia on her period before and she has never had this happen when I have seen her, or at all really.
"No shit." She bites back angrily, which I did deserve as I'm doing nothing to help the situation. I hope that the noises coming out of Nadia's mouth won't wake anyone up because she doesn't need to be seen in this state.
"I'm going to take you to A&E okay?" I ask her and she nods, making no protest to go so she must really feel like shit. She hates the hospitals and being a burden, so she would never willingly go unless she truly felt like it was a matter of life and death.
I grab a towel and wipe it up and down her leg, trying to erase as much of the blood as I can, not caring that it'll stain the white towel. She holds my shoulders as I remove as much of it as I can and when I'm done I'm half tempted to pick her up but I am not sure if she will refuse or not.
"Do you want me to carry you to the car?" I decide to ask her instead of just doing it.
"Please." She breathes out heavily due to the pain.
I lift her up bridal style in one swift motion and I hear her cry at the action. It was better to do it quickly rather than slowly as I didn't want to put her through vigorous amounts of pain for a longer duration of time. I walk her downstairs and grab one of the blankets that's on the railings and drape it over her so she isn't too cold when we go outside. I have no idea how she wasn't freezing to death when she was sat in the road for god knows how long last night but the girl never fails to surprise me.
Nadia is shivering in my arms, even with the heating on full blast and a blanket around her when we reach the living room and It's times like these where I hate the layout of my house. Whenever I used to have girls over it would be impossible for me to sneak them out because the staircase lead right into the living room so whenever someone tried to leave in the morning they would be on show to my whole family, which always lead to fun conversations.
Lily is the only one downstairs when we get there and she is wide awake, chewing at her nails in worry as she heard everything that's going on. "Where's Ed and Will?" I ask her and she shrugs her shoulders. They must've been woken up by Nadia as well and went to bed, not wanting to disturb her, which I appreciate. "Can you grab the door for me? And my car keys?"
Lily gets my keys from the bowl and then opens the front door for me , unlocking the car door from where she stands before putting the keys in the pocket of my shorts.
"What's wrong with her?" She asks me, slipping on a pair of Ed's old shoes so she can open the car door for me. I have to laugh at the sight of her in then because they are overly large on her.
lI'm not sure. I'm going to take her to hospital," I explain, putting Nadia in the passenger seat. Thankfully my car is high up so I don't have to bend down too much to get her in and out of it.
"Wait." Lily announces before rushing back into the house and coming back out only moments later with the bear Nadia got me for Christmas in her hands. My heart swells over the thought she had to get this bear from inside. I stretch my arm out for Lily to pass me the bear but she ignores me, going straight to the passenger side and placing the bear on Nadia's lap.
"Feel better soon, Nads." Lily whispers to her, giving her a kiss on her hair and I stare at the interaction with an unfamiliar feeling of love and family. I haven't felt like a proper famly since everything happened with Natalie so it was nice to experience the feeling again because of my sister.
I wave goodbye to my sister and make my way to the hospital, worried about what the outcome may be as Nadia can't handle anything else being thrown her way. "I can't handle anymore pain, Corey." Nadia sniffles next to me, almost as if she could read the thoughts in my head.
"I know, sweetheart." I move my hand from the wheel and onto her lap, massaging it lightly to offer her some of my touch as comfort as that's all I can give her right now. She places her hand on top of mine and I almost flinch at how warm and filled with sweat it is. I move my hand on-top of hers and guide it to my mouth to plant a kiss on it, before placing both our hands back on her lap.
"I just want to be able to sleep." She cries, resting her head on the window and looking up at the sky through her tearfilled eyes.
"Just let all of the stars in the sky guide you there." I tell her softly and she nods, sniffling before she closes her eyes.