Shattered - Chapter 2: Chapter 2

Seven months has gone by, my stomach is way bigger then before and I am working at this diner to make money for myself. I had my car stolen a few months ago, no money at all, no family to turn to, the only thing I had was a crappy car that I bought with most of my savings. The unfortunate part is that I could only drive to work sometimes because there wasn't enough money to spare for gas.
My pregnancy has been a crazy one, there was no income for me after my face was all over news articles because of the scandal. No one wanted to hire me. My nutrition was horrible, I barely gained the average weight from pregnancy which was horrible, I only gained twenty pounds, but my goal was to try and keep myself going for this little baby boy and to love him with all my heart. I live in this crappy rental room on the worst street ever that is so sketchy. All this stress is wearing on me heavily and I don't know what to do... So much stress is on me. I can't even take maternity leave because I need the money and the diner won't cover the cost for me... it was this situation or worse, which left me no choice but to continue on.
Finally my shift was finished and I arrived home after walking a bunch, my feet were so sore and in pain that I needed to push through. There was no time for me to whine, cry or complain. I've got what I always wanted, well half of it. I wanted a child with my husband being there to watch my stomach grow and kiss it or god, even talk to the baby. To let me know that everything was going to be okay and I wasn't alone.
My plan was to work till labour came because I can't afford to not work. I forgot that I had some old food in my car that I can indulge on and hopefully sustain me for four days till I get paid again. Right when arriving in front of my car a sharp pain hits me in the stomach which causes my breathing to be harsher. I am gripping onto my car so I wouldn't fall, something is wrong with my baby, I don't know what to do and I really wish Nathan was here to comfort me.
Tears start to stream down my face while I pull out my phone to call an ambulance because I don't know what I can do. Thank god I decided to get a phone plan this month just in case, even though it was only sixty minutes of calling, it was still something. The pain was unbearable as my fist clench. "Hello, what is you emergency?" A woman's voice asks.
"I'm seven months pregnant and I'm getting severe pain in my stomach," my voice is filled with worry.
"Okay where are you ma'am?" The woman asks.
"I'm on eight willow street," I tell her.
"Is there anyone around that can assist you while the ambulance is on their way?" She asks.
"I-I-I don't..." my voice slows down and before I know it everything blacks out.
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I flutter my eyes open and I see myself in a room hooked up to a machine, a young doctor comes in after a nurse notified them that I am awake.
"Hi Alina, my name is Dr. Lenington and I have to inform you that you were in distress..." she continues, but I tune out everything.
"Where am I?" I ask after Dr. Lenington finishes talking.
"You are in a hospital. We have to go for an emergency c-section right now, is there any family member or friend that we can call? Or your phone is right beside you on the table. We can give you a few minutes." She asks.
"Can I make a quick call?" I ask.
"Of course, I'll be right back because we will need to bring you in for the operation immediately."
The only person I can call is Nathan, no one else ever answered my calls and I needed him more then ever right now. I am going through this all by myself with no one to support me. Quickly dialling his number, he actually picked up the phone. Nathan picked up the phone my eyes welled up with tears, "hello?" I ask sheepishly.
"Nathan, I really need you right now babe. I just need you this once and I'll be gone, if that's what you want. Please just help me, I don't know what to do anymore and I miss you so much. Im in a hospital right now. I'm not asking for anything of yours, all I want is for you to be with me right now... I am in a hospital and I'm so-" a familiar voice cuts me off as I ramble on and fear filled every inch of my body.
Why does Sarah have his phone? Are... they together..? "He wants nothing to do with you, Nathan said that there was a time where he loved you with all his heart, but you it into a million pieces when you decided to pursue Luc."
"Sarah please, let me talk to him," I plead. "Let me explain to him." In the background there were a bunch of people laughing and chatting. Nathan was probably having the time of his life right now...
"No he doesn't want to talk to you, now don't call him again and forget his number he said." Sarah hangs up the phone before I even got the chance to explain.
Tears run down my face, he really didn't actually care for me and saw me as a fucking whore. I hate myself, I wish I could die right now. No no no, stop saying that Alina. You're strong. You've got this.I need to stay focused on this baby and love him with all of my heart. I don't need Nathan, I am a strong women. I've got this. I mentally say to try and convince myself I will get through this. Dr. Lenington walks back inside.
"All set? Did you call your family member?"
"Yes, they won't be coming." I say while tears slowly make their way down my cheeks and her expression on her face changes quickly, although she can't say anything, instead she grabs ahold of my hand.
"You're not doing this alone, I'm here, you've got my support." She tells me to reassure me I am not alone.
"Thank you." I say and a group of nurses push me on the bed to the surgery room.
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Five years has passed ever since that terrifying year had happen sometimes it still pains me to think that I ever went through that situation. I now live with my four year old son Leo, he is the cutest kid in the world and he looks so much like his father that it makes me upset. I love him to the moon and back don't get me wrong but he constantly reminds me of him who betrayed me.
Here is a brief summary, after my c-section I stayed in contact with Dr. Lenington and she helped me prevent post partum depression after birth, it was free labour but she was more then happy to offer. Nathan's lawyer and me met up so I could sign the divorce papers. With all the money I saved up from working at the diner, I was able to move a little farther from that part of town to avoid any coincidental seeings of Nathan. I moved somewhere where you wouldn't see him often, basically the town that I grew up in.
I had a small apartment with a babysitter that watched Leo while I worked at a new law firm that was recruiting and didn't really care about my past after the news died down. My income grew and soon I was able to afford my own house and sustain a good income to provide for Leo and me. Soon there were many promotions that came my way and I manage the law firm now.
Our neighbourhood had many kids and a huge main park. My life was finally starting to fall into place, it all played out well and that is why you are finding my in the front town of Leo's school's concert. At the end of the show every one clapped, everyone happy with there child's performance, my baby always made me proud.
All the time other mom's looked at me weirdly because Leo's father wasn't in the picture. He attended a high class school without the perfect family like other families. It always got on my nerves and made me upset. After Nathan... I don't think I'm ready to open up to anyone else. There was one of the mom's that I had gotten close with, her name is Raelyn and her son Zayn is Leo's best friend. I waited outside for Leo to come meet me to go home, Leo runs out to me with arms wide open and I crouch down to accept his hug."Mommy did you see me! I was singing on the stage!" Leo exclaims with pure joy that makes my heart melt.
"I did baby, you were fantastic! How about we go get some ice cream?" I ask him already knowing his answer, he loved ice cream, it was what we ate the majority of time while we were bonding together.
"Yay! Let's go get ice cream!" He expresses himself.
"Okay, let's go then." I smile.