Shattered - Chapter 8: Chapter 8

"You're being completely oblivious, it's actually unbelievable!" I say exasperatedly at the fact he was in denial. Always! What is with this man and his want to be right?
"Alina, I swear to god that I don't know what you're talking about. If you called me, I would of came no matter what, even if you were in the hospital." He said clearly, trying to get his point across.
"Don't lie to me. I'm done with thinking that you'll always be fucking around for me. Cut the crap, I don't want to hear your stupid excuse. Just go back home with your friends. I don't even think that things can work for us anymore, also tell Sarah that I'm glad she told me you never wanted to see or hear from me again. She saved me from worthless effort. If I kept trying to see you, I would of probably stayed with an inconsiderate, self-conceited, arrogant asshole and thank god she prevented that. Go run back and fuck her, maybe she will enjoy your bullshit." I snap at him keeping my voice low because Leo is sleeping upstairs.
"Are you jealous of Sarah?" He chuckles, "we've never had sex if that's what you're curious about, but wait... what did you say about Sarah telling you?" His facial expression changed so quickly.
"That's so fucking irrelevant right now!" I laugh irritated, "why do you need to know? You literally told her yourself that night. Cut your fucking bullshit."
"I didn't say shit to Sarah, what night Alina?" He said more sternly and serious.
"Now you want to bring up old nightmares do you? Well for your memory loss let me remind you, you little imbecile. I fucking called you when I was in labour due to maternal distress that was caused by all the articles that you made a statement in, I called and your phone picked up. I told you that I was in the hospital scared out of my fucking mind! You told Sarah to tell me that you didn't want anything to do with me anymore, she hung up and I was alone in a hospital bed waiting for your child to be brought out into this world. When I-I-I could of died and he would've grown up alone without me. Anything could've happened Nathan and you weren't there. What happened to 'for better, for worse'? Or 'in sickness and in health'? I regret everything with you honestly."
The look on Nathan's face was hurt, I really just hit him hard with my words. Then which surprised me was a tears that ran down his face, "I swear, I-I-I didn't even know you called Alina... I wanted to call you after a year, but then it said your number was unavailable and I assumed that you changed your number. I didn't even know you called." He clenches his jaw while clenching his fists and this was a rare vulnerable time that he actually cried in front of me.
"What do you mean you didn't know? You told Sarah that you wanted nothing to do with me. You were having the time of your life with family or friends and I was a loner in a hospital." I sob.
"I've never said anything, if I am correct, that night Sarah, Matt, Lana and some other friends were over just spending some time together. I was cooking a new dish for them because it reminded me of you, how you brought everyone together all the time, cooked and cared for them, I never even heard my phone ring, nor a notification."
"It's okay, you don't have to pretend to like me Nathan. I get it. I just wish that I was never to conceited with happiness to think that I was never going to be alone again. In the end, I ended up alone like always..."
"That's the thing Alina, I always liked you, for god sake I love you with all my heart. Ever since that day in that coffee shop. Never one day in my life has a day gone by where you didn't come into my thoughts. I would've went back to you within seconds, when you went off the radar I tried to look for you. Even I paid every person to help me but you just vanished, no social media, phone number changed, your last name changed and I forgot to even use your old last name because I was so used to Mrs. Peterson. You went back to being the Alina Carson like before... Sarah lied and it pains me. What was she thinking?" Nathan says angrily clenching his fists till his knuckles turned white.
"So you would've actually came?" I smiled and laughed with a broken voice through my sobs.
"Of course, I was just angry. But my love for you was undeniably strong. I felt so lost without you."
I hugged him tightly, tackling him onto the couch, which caught him off guard, "I love you so much, I've loved you this whole time. I'm sorry, I'm so fucking stupid to believe Sarah. It-it-it just burned my heart and I wasn't prepared to hear those words. I should've know as well because she was the one who implanted in you head that I even cheated on you." I know that this was probably the only chance that the possibility of us fixing things was still standing. In this moment I knew that I love him, that I longed for him and negative thoughts were all put aside.
Nathan put the puzzle pieces together, "she was the one who made us doubt each other this whole time, she took five fucking years from us! I missed my son's first steps and everything that I had the right to!" He says with anger rushing through him.
Out of nowhere he kisses me on the lips hungrily, "I love you so much Alina," which caught me completely off guard. In that moment he was mine again and I was his like nothing ever happened.
Wrapping my arms around his neck, he moves his hands to my waist so I am now straddling him. He moves his soft lips to my neck nibbling and showing affection all over my neck while his scruff rubs against me. I always thought it was hot... His hand roam my breasts and his other on my ass as I run my fingers through his hair. His touch, the one that I've been used to, still feels as amazing as the first time we've had sex. I felt a bulge underneath me in between my thighs, not caring too much about it he started to remove my shirt, kissing my breast tenderly as I removed his shirt. "How about we go upstairs instead?" He asks.
"Okay, we just have to be quiet."
"I can deal with that." We both grab our things, I lead him to the master bedroom which is on the other end of the hall from Leo's. Right when I close the door he lifts me up throwing me on my bed, "are you on any birth control?"
"I'm on the shot don't worry." I say and he smiles, he quickly moves to remove my pants leaving me in my undergarments. I quickly help him undress as well, and he was only in his black boxers with a huge bulge.
"I've missed you, five years is way too long. Your the only one who can get me so turned on..." he says hovering over me and kissing my breasts. As he kisses me, he removes my bra and I remove his boxers, both of us eager to feel each other's. While he kisses me I take ahold of his shaft slowly pumping him with my hand, in response he groans in pleasure. It makes me happy that he is enjoying this, how could I get so tired of this? He becomes more vicious when he kisses me going back to my neck and I moan in pleasure.
I just wanted him right now, instead he slowly reaches down pulling off my lace panties and starts to rub me slowly causing me to moan. He rubs me increasing the speed then inserts two to fingers into my opening. "Baby, you're so tight and wet for me..." Nathan was always so different in bed, he was a sex god and knew everything about me. I moan as he thrusts his fingers in me repeatedly making it really hard for me not to scream. All I could do is bite down on my lip, before I knew it he pulled his finger out cutting of our contact until he hovered over me.
"I want you Nathan," I tell him and he smiles.
"So do I," he starts to position himself over me aligning his shaft at my opening. "Are you ready baby? It's been so long..." all I did was nod in response because I was desperate for a physical connection. I bend my knees preparing myself for him because Nathan was much bigger then my tiny frame.
He slowly enters me causing me to wince a little, it's just been so long since I've had sex. "You okay?" He asked in a sweet concerned voice.
"Yes, I'm okay."
We start to move our bodies in sync with one another, he starts by thrusting into me slowly and I bite my lip to silent my moans that wanted to desperately to escape. My grip on Nathan's back became stronger and I even sort of started digging my nails into his back.
We were both trying to silence our moans, instead we let out soft moans. The feeling of him thrusting in me became quicker and he started to go deeper in me. "Oh... my... god... you feel amazing baby, I can't believe I made it five years with no sex with you."
Nathan's pace became quicker and we were quickly approaching our limit, he kept up his fast pace while I moaned and gripped onto him for dear life because it felt so good. A little bit longer, and I might be dead... He continued until we both cried out in pleasure, thank god Leo is a very deep sleeper but still. As he releases in me falling beside my body afterwards, both of us in a panting mess still regaining ourselves. "It's been awhile since I've felt this..." I tell him.
"I'm glad I'm not the only one," he smiles.
"Please don't leave me ever again."
"I promise that I am never leaving again."