TAMING THE PLAYBOY ALPHA - Chapter 138: Chapter 138
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: MY MATE
Freya's POV
I wince from the sharp pain throbbing in my head once I'm finally able to seat up without the help of anyone.
The pain is way less than it had been few days ago however, so I know my injury is healing faster than anticipated, which is a good thing. Usually I'd stay bed ridden for a week from this kind of injury.
I reach out for the bowl of soup left on my bed side with my good hand and bring it closer to myself while I begin eating.
Today is more quiet than other days, especially since Xena's left for school. She had been with me nonstop since the argument, fretting over every single thing I did and also keeping me company and now that's she's absent it all just feels so lonely, being left with my haunting thoughts.
I' grateful that she's offered a place for me to stay for as long as I can and I wish I could do that, but stay here would be similar to hiding away from the world which is not the life I had envisioned for myself.
Not that I've fallen to rock bottom I'd much rather find something to do with myself than eternally be a burden to anyone else.
I have to leave eventually to somewhere far.
Farther than where ever Silas would be because i can't show my face around him. if he doesn't eventually reject me being his mate, the people around him would never accept me with open hearts.
I had made my peace with the situation of things, perhaps if I had made my peace with being an Omega none of this would have happened, even meeting Silas
Maybe that would have been a good thing on his behalf. He'd have successfully mate Elena and whatever bond we should have made would have fizzled out of existence.
The simple thought of having never met him break me physically... the mate bond does no help for me at all, only intensifying the feeling of longing and sadness.
There's a slight knock on the door, three knocks followed by a lagging fourth to let me know it's Xena just before she pushes the door open.
"Hey," she greets walking over to my bed.
I'm surprised that she's back from school so early and immediately conclude that she had been too worried about me to attend a full school, feeling guilty for ruin her performance in school.
ore
I can't even worry about myself because I can even return back to school again.
"Xena... I'm fine, you didn't need to return from school so early. I won't combust into flames the moment you look away." I comment just as she drops on the bed right by my side.
She smiles by my comment but it's a sad and exhausted one, not her usual bright playful grin.
I know instantly that something is wrong and frown.
"You can't blame me for being so worried, it's my fault you're in bandages." She says avoiding my eyes.
"For the hundredth time, you didn't know it was me." I repeat. But I know she still won't take that narrative and give up on arguing further on this
"What happened?" I ask
She finally looks me in the eyes with hers filled with worry and potential bad news.
I gulp.
I wonder what other potential bad news she could offer that could make my situation much more worse.
"Promise me you won't freak out." She says finally. "Well when you lead with that it's impossible not to freak out."
There's no lie there.
"Someone leaked the act that you're an Omega to the entire school."
My entire body grows cold and still as my eyes widen and my breath hooks in my throat.
Everything I had feared happen begins to occur by itself one by one, without a moment's rest.
I'm suddenly hyperventilating to get air into my lungs but they don't even go past my neck
"What? How did they...?"
"I don't know yet, but I promise we will find who did this."
My eyes widen thinking of the only other person who had known and stormed out angrily.
"Do you think Silas..." I can't even say it, I don't want to believe or consider he would
Thank fully she shakes her head and I feel a bit more calmed again
"No, it wasn't him. He was a first suspect but after speaking with him I realize it wasn't."
"Y-you spoke to Silas?" just hearing about him brings this excitement in my heart.
She averts her eyes from me again biting on her lower lips
"Yeah... about that; not only did I speak to Silas but he's here."
"What?"
Just before I can ask what she means, I feel him.
I feel him through this invisible and fuzzy channel in my brain tickling my senses. It's faint and not strong enough to pick it up perfectly mauve because we had not yet even begun to solidify out bond as mates but I can still sense him.
I look up at the door speechless for a while and in a few seconds he walks into view standing by the door frame.
My heart beats faster different than it had from the bad news I had received, happier, fuller. My wolf skips excitedly within me and tells me she can feel just how excited his wolf is to see us again.
His wolf might be happy but I know Silas might not be. From the lack of smile on his face and his hardened stoic expression I imagine he's just as pissed off as he was nights ago.
"I'll leave you two alone." Xena says finally pleading with her eyes for me to forgive her for telling him where I am while walking away.
Once she steps out and Silas steps in the door shuts behind him and a long awkward stretch of silence follows.
I'm torn, heavily torn with being happy to see him, ashamed of still being in his way and peeved that he had searched for me.
Or is he here to give his rejection up front?
Finally he does something.
Walking up to my bed side and sitting there slowly.
I avert my face away, unable to look at him like a coward. I can't even face him properly after all I had done or apologize anymore.
Instead of rejection though he slowly holds my chin and turns my head to face him again and I don't resist his touch. I can't.
Warmth and feeling of completeness turns me into this attention hungry slut just like that.
I look at him, I watch him watch me. Taking in the bandages wrapped round my head and my broken hand helps up. The bruises on my skin.
"Did I do this?" He finally speaks and it's not what
I'm expecting.
"What?"
"All of these. It's my fault, right?"
"How did you..."
"I pushed you away and you got injured because of my negligence."
The look in his eyes is far from the anger I had imagined. Its only pain and regret staring back at me the pain seeps into his voice as he whispers harshly.
"Silas... you didn't do anything, I got into an accident."
"Yes, because I left you alone."
"Which you had every right to... I broke your trust, I lied to you for so long while acting high and mighty." "How can you say that when I'm not a saint either"
He finally looks angry but for all the wrong reasons. "Listen... if you're here to reject me..."
"I also wonder where you get the crazy idea that I'm going to reject you from as well." He glares at me giving me mixed signals
Is he sad or is he angry?! "I'm an Omega." I state firmly.
He should already know the implications of this alone already. "You're my mate." He counteracts.
"Oh, so you're simply doing this because we're mates? If I wasn't you'd discard me? I thought you didn't fancy the idea of mates."
"Clearly you're too thick headed and set in your ways to listen to me to the point that I feel you're the one that wants to reject me to preserve your flawed sense of right and wrong."
"Excuse me?" just what the hell is going on here Are we arguing now?
"I am here regardless of if you're a goat or my mate. I am here because I love you. I don't know if that feeling itself is right or wrong Freya, but I sure as hell don't care about what anyone else thinks about it and if I mean anything to you you should think that way too." He state firmly now
I remain silent unable to come up with a good enough comeback to justify my need to run away anymore. He's right, and now I feel guilty about everything. Ever doubting him without giving our relationship a chance, running away from everyone because I didn't want to be abandoned first just as my family had done to me.
Hot tears begin gathering in my eyes immediately and I begin sobbing uncontrollable. He leaps forward engulfing me into a hug that isn't so hard that I can't breathe or my lungs are crushed, but is firm and soft enough to feel safe and protect in his embrace.
"I'm sorry Silas, I'm so sorry for lying to you and being so harsh and running away on my own. I love you, I really do."
He pats on my back while I let every icky and nasty form or emotion from my eyes and nostrils stain his shirt, never flinching away once, making me feel completely accepted by him. "Shhh, it's okay, I know you do." He cooes me gently.
"I know you do."
Freya's POV
I wince from the sharp pain throbbing in my head once I'm finally able to seat up without the help of anyone.
The pain is way less than it had been few days ago however, so I know my injury is healing faster than anticipated, which is a good thing. Usually I'd stay bed ridden for a week from this kind of injury.
I reach out for the bowl of soup left on my bed side with my good hand and bring it closer to myself while I begin eating.
Today is more quiet than other days, especially since Xena's left for school. She had been with me nonstop since the argument, fretting over every single thing I did and also keeping me company and now that's she's absent it all just feels so lonely, being left with my haunting thoughts.
I' grateful that she's offered a place for me to stay for as long as I can and I wish I could do that, but stay here would be similar to hiding away from the world which is not the life I had envisioned for myself.
Not that I've fallen to rock bottom I'd much rather find something to do with myself than eternally be a burden to anyone else.
I have to leave eventually to somewhere far.
Farther than where ever Silas would be because i can't show my face around him. if he doesn't eventually reject me being his mate, the people around him would never accept me with open hearts.
I had made my peace with the situation of things, perhaps if I had made my peace with being an Omega none of this would have happened, even meeting Silas
Maybe that would have been a good thing on his behalf. He'd have successfully mate Elena and whatever bond we should have made would have fizzled out of existence.
The simple thought of having never met him break me physically... the mate bond does no help for me at all, only intensifying the feeling of longing and sadness.
There's a slight knock on the door, three knocks followed by a lagging fourth to let me know it's Xena just before she pushes the door open.
"Hey," she greets walking over to my bed.
I'm surprised that she's back from school so early and immediately conclude that she had been too worried about me to attend a full school, feeling guilty for ruin her performance in school.
ore
I can't even worry about myself because I can even return back to school again.
"Xena... I'm fine, you didn't need to return from school so early. I won't combust into flames the moment you look away." I comment just as she drops on the bed right by my side.
She smiles by my comment but it's a sad and exhausted one, not her usual bright playful grin.
I know instantly that something is wrong and frown.
"You can't blame me for being so worried, it's my fault you're in bandages." She says avoiding my eyes.
"For the hundredth time, you didn't know it was me." I repeat. But I know she still won't take that narrative and give up on arguing further on this
"What happened?" I ask
She finally looks me in the eyes with hers filled with worry and potential bad news.
I gulp.
I wonder what other potential bad news she could offer that could make my situation much more worse.
"Promise me you won't freak out." She says finally. "Well when you lead with that it's impossible not to freak out."
There's no lie there.
"Someone leaked the act that you're an Omega to the entire school."
My entire body grows cold and still as my eyes widen and my breath hooks in my throat.
Everything I had feared happen begins to occur by itself one by one, without a moment's rest.
I'm suddenly hyperventilating to get air into my lungs but they don't even go past my neck
"What? How did they...?"
"I don't know yet, but I promise we will find who did this."
My eyes widen thinking of the only other person who had known and stormed out angrily.
"Do you think Silas..." I can't even say it, I don't want to believe or consider he would
Thank fully she shakes her head and I feel a bit more calmed again
"No, it wasn't him. He was a first suspect but after speaking with him I realize it wasn't."
"Y-you spoke to Silas?" just hearing about him brings this excitement in my heart.
She averts her eyes from me again biting on her lower lips
"Yeah... about that; not only did I speak to Silas but he's here."
"What?"
Just before I can ask what she means, I feel him.
I feel him through this invisible and fuzzy channel in my brain tickling my senses. It's faint and not strong enough to pick it up perfectly mauve because we had not yet even begun to solidify out bond as mates but I can still sense him.
I look up at the door speechless for a while and in a few seconds he walks into view standing by the door frame.
My heart beats faster different than it had from the bad news I had received, happier, fuller. My wolf skips excitedly within me and tells me she can feel just how excited his wolf is to see us again.
His wolf might be happy but I know Silas might not be. From the lack of smile on his face and his hardened stoic expression I imagine he's just as pissed off as he was nights ago.
"I'll leave you two alone." Xena says finally pleading with her eyes for me to forgive her for telling him where I am while walking away.
Once she steps out and Silas steps in the door shuts behind him and a long awkward stretch of silence follows.
I'm torn, heavily torn with being happy to see him, ashamed of still being in his way and peeved that he had searched for me.
Or is he here to give his rejection up front?
Finally he does something.
Walking up to my bed side and sitting there slowly.
I avert my face away, unable to look at him like a coward. I can't even face him properly after all I had done or apologize anymore.
Instead of rejection though he slowly holds my chin and turns my head to face him again and I don't resist his touch. I can't.
Warmth and feeling of completeness turns me into this attention hungry slut just like that.
I look at him, I watch him watch me. Taking in the bandages wrapped round my head and my broken hand helps up. The bruises on my skin.
"Did I do this?" He finally speaks and it's not what
I'm expecting.
"What?"
"All of these. It's my fault, right?"
"How did you..."
"I pushed you away and you got injured because of my negligence."
The look in his eyes is far from the anger I had imagined. Its only pain and regret staring back at me the pain seeps into his voice as he whispers harshly.
"Silas... you didn't do anything, I got into an accident."
"Yes, because I left you alone."
"Which you had every right to... I broke your trust, I lied to you for so long while acting high and mighty." "How can you say that when I'm not a saint either"
He finally looks angry but for all the wrong reasons. "Listen... if you're here to reject me..."
"I also wonder where you get the crazy idea that I'm going to reject you from as well." He glares at me giving me mixed signals
Is he sad or is he angry?! "I'm an Omega." I state firmly.
He should already know the implications of this alone already. "You're my mate." He counteracts.
"Oh, so you're simply doing this because we're mates? If I wasn't you'd discard me? I thought you didn't fancy the idea of mates."
"Clearly you're too thick headed and set in your ways to listen to me to the point that I feel you're the one that wants to reject me to preserve your flawed sense of right and wrong."
"Excuse me?" just what the hell is going on here Are we arguing now?
"I am here regardless of if you're a goat or my mate. I am here because I love you. I don't know if that feeling itself is right or wrong Freya, but I sure as hell don't care about what anyone else thinks about it and if I mean anything to you you should think that way too." He state firmly now
I remain silent unable to come up with a good enough comeback to justify my need to run away anymore. He's right, and now I feel guilty about everything. Ever doubting him without giving our relationship a chance, running away from everyone because I didn't want to be abandoned first just as my family had done to me.
Hot tears begin gathering in my eyes immediately and I begin sobbing uncontrollable. He leaps forward engulfing me into a hug that isn't so hard that I can't breathe or my lungs are crushed, but is firm and soft enough to feel safe and protect in his embrace.
"I'm sorry Silas, I'm so sorry for lying to you and being so harsh and running away on my own. I love you, I really do."
He pats on my back while I let every icky and nasty form or emotion from my eyes and nostrils stain his shirt, never flinching away once, making me feel completely accepted by him. "Shhh, it's okay, I know you do." He cooes me gently.
"I know you do."
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