TAMING THE PLAYBOY ALPHA - Chapter 37: Chapter 37

: I MISSED YOU
FREYA'S POV:
I don't know how long we run for, all I know is that its effects calm my raging heart and the fierce anxiety within me.
It's been more than a while since I have let my wolf out, being cautious and all. She's a small wolf and our cover would be blown if she's seen.
The entire school being focused on their activities made the best opportunity to let her out for a stretch, especially since I had just been threatened by King Darius to steer clear from his son.
I crawl into my shared dorm room butt naked.
In the process of transforming with all those overwhelming emotions, I had ripped through my gown, leaving it completely unwearable and lost in some field.
It stings but life goes on.
The room is pitch black with the lights still switched off. I assume that Xena hasn't returned yet, which is perfect.
I don't want to have to explain why I'm naked and crawling in through the back.
Just as I walk into the dark room, trying to get my bearing, footsteps and voices echo in the hallway from just outside my room and I immediately lunge for my blanket, wrapping it around myself before the door pulls open and the lights turn on.
A blushing Xena walks in talking to someone on the other end.
As soon as our eyes meet, she shrieks loudly, rushing in and slamming the door shut behind her.
Her eyes look over my naked form wrapped in fabric, then back to my face.
So much for not having to explain my predicament.
"Fuck!" I yell out, trying my hardest to cover my bits with the blanket
"What the hell are you doing here?"
"I should be asking you the same thing! You're supposed to be in the hall!"
"You're supposed to be chilling with the royal family."
"That's not important right now." I avoid her eyes now
"And why are you naked?"
"That's also not important right now."
I tighten the knot holding the blanket from dropping down my body.
I still don't know if I can tell her what happened without having to let out a bit of my secret or how to even let her know.
The whole situation was still new to me as well.
A knock echoes from the door now, reminding me that she was talking to someone before she stepped in.
I look at her with a raised brow.
"Who's at the door?"
"No one's at the door."
The knock echoes the second time, being more insistent.
I narrow my eyes into slits, staring suspiciously at her since it's more obvious she's hiding something.
"There's obviously someone at the door."
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"They literally just knocked."
She remains silent, pondering in deep thought for a moment before speaking again.
"Well, I'm here with you. How am I supposed to know who's at the door?"
The knock echoes the third time, louder than the first two.
"Uh... Xena, sorry to bother whatever it is you're doing in there, but you left me out here, so uhm... I'm still waiting."
It's obviously a male voice. The worst part is I clearly recognize it, especially after briefly speaking with him hours ago.
My eyes widen more, astonished more than ever and I turn back to her.
This time, she can't even deny it.
"Is that Lucas?"
She groans again, hiding her face behind her palm.
"Oh my fucking god! It's fucking Lucas. Were you planning to make out with him in our room?"
"It's not what you think, Freya. I swear, we were just going to talk."
She blushed, desperately pleading with me and dying from embarrassment.
It's all just tempting me to tease her horribly.
"With your bodies, right?"
She bites on her trembling lower lip now.
"You still haven't told me why you're butt naked."
She cleverly diverts the topic to me again.
Touché.
"Fine, you win. I won't pry if you don't."
"Deal." She agrees.
She steps out of the room to meet her guest again and
I wait till their footsteps are considerable at a good distance before I can relax.
Too much was just happening all in one night, leaving me both mentally and emotionally exhausted. Now that there's nothing but silence around me, my thoughts begin to haunt me. Memories of my recent encounter with King Darius.
I realize rumors about him being heartless and bloodthirsty were not close to accurate. He was much worse than I had feared.
I can't even say that I am safe seeing as he hadn't figured me out but he's obviously in the process of it.
I frantically pace around my room, trying to think up what to do now.
That was partially clear though.
Stay away from Silas for as long as possible. He was trouble from the start.
My heart tightens painfully in my chest though at the thought of never being able to go near him.
We had been at each other's neck for a while, at least in my perspective, and just when I discover this mysterious spark between... no, no matter what I think is wrong with me, he's with Elena.
He will always be with her.
I clench my fist at my side now. It's what I have to do for my own safety.
Unknown to me, the wrap around my torso slowly loosens, just when there's a tap at the balcony door and a head pokes into my room without waiting for a response to come in.
"Freya, you there?"
Just then, my drapes fall down to the ground.
I sit on my bed awkwardly, avoiding his eyes. I made sure to tie a triple knot around my torso and his jacket hangs from my shoulders, covering the rest of my skin.
Adam sits right in front of me on Xena's bed, head hung low from embarrassment, after all, he had walked in on me naked.
I don't know which is weirder though, the fact that
I'm too mentally exhausted to give enough shits that a guy has just had the honor of taking a glimpse at my birthday suit or how embarrassed he is right now.
I had thought he had seen his fair share of naked girls, yet I stand to be corrected.
"Maybe I should leave."
He stands up to leave suddenly, maybe overwhelmed by embarrassment.
"Wait," I call to him and he freezes at the spot, still not looking at me. "You haven't told me why you came here in the first place."
It feels like ages since I've last spoke to Adam, especially since the incident at the cafeteria when Silas had sent him away.
Maybe he began avoiding me for reasons unbeknownst to me and I felt bad for not even bothering to ask why he has stopped meeting in the hallways or chatting by the library all this time.
Low-key, I didn't bother asking because someone else had previously occupied my thoughts all this time
But, not anymore.
"Well, Silas was looking for you. He said you suddenly went missing and asked me to find you."
"And he couldn't search for me himself?"
"Uhm... He's kind of ... busy."
Of course, he was. Busy with his fiancé and his family that adores her like she's some princess.
More pain gnaws at my chest again, just thinking about him. He's bad for my health.
"Oh," I respond curtly.
"You okay?"
"Yeah, I am. It's fine." I try to force a smile but it's clear he's not buying it.
His concerned eyes never waver and he comes closer, sitting right next to me.
The awkwardness between us is long gone. And then he wraps his large heavy arms around me in this very warm and comforting side hug.
At first, I giggle at how weird and cheesy he's being and then, the lump in my chest just seems to keep growing and growing, then soon enough, hot tears spill out my eyes.
The emotions I was holding at bay poured out through me.
I feel so much pain and anguish and sadness for being weak and pathetic.
Everything only makes me hate him more.
What hurts worse is that I really can't make myself hate him the way I want to. Deep down, I know it's not possible.
Adam pats softly on my back, allowing me to just cry it all out.
I don't know what he thinks of me now but I choose to worry about all that later.
For now, my chest and head hurt and it's all because of Silas.
And his equally scary father.
"Hey, it's okay."
"How do you know it's okay? I haven't even told you why I'm like this." I sniffle, transferring a bit of aggression to him against my control.
How could he say it's okay when I felt so horrible?
"You don't have to. You're the girl that stared down at the Alpha prince on your first day in school when you knew no one and gave him a piece of your mind.
That alone makes me believe that you'll be fine no matter what."
Despite how ignorant he is of the real situation, his words soothe me still.
I didn't know how much I needed a hug and a cheesy pep talk.
Who knew I'd find it in the most unlikely places and situations.
Yes, I did have enough balls to constantly challenge the Alpha prince, smuggle myself illegally into a school for higher ranking wolves, and managed to come face to face with the Alpha king, still living to tell the tale.
I will be fine.
"Thanks, Adam." Really, I am grateful. "I kind of missed you."
He chuckles, an eccentric form of appreciation for his support.
It's a comforting sound and I lean into his side hug more, humming to myself.
"I kind of missed you too."