TAMING THE PLAYBOY ALPHA - Chapter 97: Chapter 97

: NEW BEGINNINGS
The anxiety forces me to swerve back with urgency and I see him, standing by the cab and watching me with this small and distant smile on his lips.
"You're not coming?" I ask, not wanting to feel the way I do.
I realize just how scared I am of the things brimming between the both of us. Just how far from ready I am for the next chapter in our lives.
"No, I have a lot of paper work and stuff to do back home. It would take a week before I'm done and return once school resumes."
I nod simply.
I guess this is good in it's own way.
I need time apart to realize what I really want, to stabilize my wavering emotions, my anxiety and the fact that I cannot look at him long enough without seeing the man who put me through this trauma.
I mean, I loved today, but it was just one of the good days.
There would be days my trauma would act up and things would be much more worse. I hate myself for how weak I am and it's ironic how
I've craved him for so long. Now, I want to stay away as long as possible to figure out my shit without growing clingy and toxic.
I know I need to be away from him to get better.
"That's fine." I add.
"Xena's waiting for you on the other side." He adds also.
I remember Xena. A moment's guilt for forgetting she's there passes briefly.
I miss her too. I could be vulnerable around her.
"So... I guess this is good bye." I say awkwardly. For some reason, he freezes for a moment, a foreign look on his face again. It lingers for a while before slowly fading into a smile again. A strained and tired smile.
My heart hurts again and my eyes sting. I hate this ominous feeling screaming from within me, begging me to grab on to his arm and never let him go.
But I can't do that.
I want to ask what's wrong again, but he comes in before I can.
"Yeah... goodbye."
SILAS' POV:
I look away before she walks through the gate and hop into the cab again. I can't bear to watch her leave.
If I do, I know I wouldn't leave.
I'd grab her by the hand and say everything I really want to say... that she's mine and no one else's.
We'd go somewhere far, no matter how treacherous it may be and stay far away from father's eyes.
But she doesn't deserve that.
She doesn't deserve to be on the run, constantly watching her back after she's been through so much because of me.
I wouldn't put her through that.
She deserves much more stability, and I can only give her that through this... I can't lay claim on her no matter how much I want to.
All this is for her.
"Where to?" The Cab driver asks, looking at me through the mirror.
I sigh now, tired exhausted...numb.
"The Alpha's royal estate." I say.
He raises a brow at me, clearly confused or curious as to why I would want to go there and such far distant at such a time.
I could have summoned a driver, but I really don't care right now.
"It's gonna cost ya." He says, starting the engine.
I say nothing else while the journey begins.
It's a long silent drive I desperately need while I relive every moment spent with Freya.
I replay the smile that danced on her lips, the rose tinted hue on her cheeks every time I teased her, the feel of her supple lips and the warmth of her smaller and frail body against mine.
She is perfect.
Maybe too perfect for my world. Either way, she shines like a rare abnormality with the most peculiar beauty and my wolf agrees with me.
He also agrees that we must do whatever possible it is to protect her. Even if it meant being mated with
Elena.
I know for a fact that even with the effects of a mate's bond binding our wolves to crave the other, a more larger part of myself would always want Freya.
More than an hour later, the car pulls up at the tall gates shielding the estate from intruders, stopping right there.
Security personnels immediately step forward to look in and see who's trying to get in with their flash lights.
As soon as they spot the driver, they begin their queries till he looks back at me and their eyes follow his stead, freezing upon making impact with mine.
They instantly bow their heads, letting us go through without a hassle.
Once we stop at the front door, I step out, signaling one of the guards to pay the man while I walk in.
Unlike the last time, there's no warm welcome. I assume Mother is still extremely upset that I had tried to unalive her mate and my father. Of course, I knew it wouldn't hurt the man.
On some other occasion, I would be affected by this, but not today.
Before I meet father, I change into official attire as per usual.
I walk up the grand stairwell and down the hall way till I approach the large double doors leading to his official office.
Before I can walk in, however, the door pulls open and my wolf grows hostile, growling immediately Lucas steps out.
Last we had seen was almost 24 hours ago.
I had only given him minimal damage compared to what I had initially intended due to Freya having a panic attack and passing out seconds later, so he was able to move around perfectly.
His right arm is held up with a sling and underneath that black jacket is the huge scar I had gifted him right on the chest, where he won't ever forget the consequences of his betrayal.
He goes still as ice once our eyes meet and then, he looks away quickly, giving a curt bow.
Just seeing him makes me furious again and worsens my already sour mood, but I force myself to ignore him.
He's no one to me right now and it'd remain that way.
He steps aside as I walk up to the door, grabbing on to the handle.
"Silas..."
I pause.
He still has the audacity to speak to me when what he did is still fresh. It's obvious I hadn't clawed him enough.
"I know you're mad and that's fine." He begins pathetically.
I turn to him red-eyed.
"I am not 'mad'. What I am is much more dangerous that being 'mad,' regardless of if it is fine or not. Do not speak to me again until you are spoken to, unless you have a death wish." I warn him, seething. "Of course." He nods, avoiding my eyes again. "But please, I just have one request."
I growl now, growing even more livid from this conversation, but I let him speak.
"Please, don't tell Xena I was involved. I don't want to break her heart even more than I already have." He says. He speaks so humbled. It's a side of Lucas I never thought I'd ever see. I had never wanted this for us. I know I can be an ass, but he was a friend and one I cherished.
I grow more tired from having to deal with all this with every passing second.
"For old time's sake, I won't... but only because she's going to hate you a whole lot more when she figures it out herself." I respond. "She might be slow, but she's not stupid."
Giving him this one last grace, I pull the door open, walking into the office and slamming it shut behind me.
As expected, father is at his desk, looking over files with confidential pack information.
His eyes look up and light with fireworks once he sees me by the door, which only makes more dread settle at the pit of my gut.
He's only ever this delighted when he has some new form of torture to subject me to.
Sure enough, he does, because I finally notice Elena sitting comfortably on the couch ahead of me. She shoots a glare my way, hoping for some sort of reaction from me but I look away, retuning my eyes back to him.
"Judging from the fact that you're here in my office, I take it that you've had your final farewells with that girl."
"Freya." I correct him curtly.
"Yes, yes. Her name isn't important anymore. It's best we forget it, right?" He says, throwing the obnoxiously wide smile my way.
It takes a lot out of me to remain still and show no shred of emotions, especially the surfacing anger boiling inside me.
Again, he wants something from me, some sort of rebellion to have an excuse to harm her again.
I won't give him that.
"Now that that's behind us, it's time for new beginnings. Seeing as you're the one who almost ruined what I've been working on for years, you're going to fix it, starting with going on a date with Miss Elena Crescent over here." He gestures to Elena. She flips her hair over her shoulder, striking a pose while smirking evilly at me. Both of them are just loving this right now, finally having their way. "I've already helped you just a bit by making necessary reservations at a high end restaurant that you will be escorting her to. You will ensure she has a good time and make up for all your past transgressions." He explains more coldly. I nod my head in agreement. Without being told, I walk up to where she sits. She's already dressed up in a black and gold sequin mini dress, I notice.
I offer my arm to her and without much reluctance, she takes it, rising to her feet and plastering a smile on her face that irks me so much.
I begin escorting her to the door. "Have fun, and don't worry about a curfew." He says just before we step out.
I pull away to close the door behind us before turning to Elena again and offering my hand to her, but she doesn't take it.
Her smile turns wicked and more of a smirk as her eyes gloss over me, like I'm an object. I maintain a stoic composure.
"You know, this isn't going to work out. You're going to have to do much more to make up for the embarrassment I went through because you chose that bitch over me."
I don't know what she's talking about but I remain silent, watching her with tired eyes. "Hold my bag." She stretches it out to me. My wolf gets ticked off instantly by the command, but I hold myself again, reminding myself of patience. I cannot act as freely as I want to anymore.
I reach out to take it from her but she drops it on the ground...purposely.
"Oops." She giggles, looking down at it. "My bad, it must have slipped from my fingers. Guess you have to bend low and pick it up." She says, looking at me. Her grin grows wide, trying to play this sick game with me. I clench my fist at my sides, holding myself from strangling her right now.
"Go on, Silas. Show me just how low you've fallen from the strong powerful Alpha wolf you once where. Show me that you're really nothing but a dog that cannot break free from it's chain." She taunts even more.
Her snicker turns into a maniac laughter that echoes only briefly against the walls of the hallway before she stops, watching me expectantly.
I lean down just like she wants me to. Her eyes grow wider in anticipation for the great amount of satisfaction she's about to receive. But I pause midway, grabbing onto her twig-like neck that I can most definitely snap if I'm pushed too far.
"You humor me, Elena." I say just when she begins choking at my hand.
I watch as her skin slowly begins turning red and her eyes water.
"You may have your Alpha finally... but do not forget that I will always be your enemy. So, while you sleep at night, leave one eye open, watch your back continuously."
She coughs, scratching at my hand to free her.
"I will make this mate bond your own personal hell on earth before I take you there myself. And this dog you see is not chained, but simply asleep." I continue.
I let go of her neck once her color begins to change to blue.
She staggers away from me, falling onto her butt, coughing and wheezing for air while clutching onto her bruised neck.
I watch her, feeling no shred of pity or any human emotion towards her.
While she struggles to fill her lungs with suitable amount of air, I walk ahead, deciding to wait for her by the car.
But then, stop, having one final message to send to her before we leave.
"Remember, Elena. Once father has what he wants from you, your death would mean nothing more than an insect losing its life."