The Alpha’s Curvy Cinderella - Chapter 96: Chapter 96

Trigger warning: This episode may prove triggering to some as it mentions attempted suicide. Please don’t read if it may prove triggering to you.
Jordan POV
The pain, I couldn’t even begin to describe it. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced before in my life. As I’d convulsed, my bones breaking, cracking, moving, Blaze’s voice in the background, his touch soothing me, the voice inside my head had spoken trying to comfort me, encouraging me through the process and apologetic about the whole thing. Not that it was her fault or anything. I didn’t blame her for this. It was inevitable. But by god, there could have been a far better time for it to happen!
Jordan it’s Lilith your wolf. I know it hurts like a son of a b***h, but you can get through this. You just need to breathe, deep breaths. Focus on your mate and the child you’re carrying. Remember that this isn’t going to harm the baby. You’re merely shifting into your wolf form. Keep as calm as you can, it will help with the pain.
It hurts. Why now? Why am I shifting now?
Well, your mate decided to mark you which inexplicably hastened the process although it was unintentional. It made you stronger and me, hence the shifting. It was going to happen eventually; this just hastened it.
Why didn’t you just let me shift on my eighteenth birthday? Like everybody else? Why did you make me wait until now? Even though I didn’t mean to, my voice was filled with hurt and a slight tinge of anger.
It was too dangerous. Your father would have beaten you more, weakened you more if I had. It was safer to let him think you didn’t have a wolf back than to let him see you. What do you think he would have done if he had seen you had a rare wolf? How would your pack have reacted if they discovered that you were in fact superior to their own wolves? Do you think they would have reacted positively to something they would have perceived as a threat?
I had no answers for that. Lilith was right. Father would have taken full advantage of the fact I was a rare wolf and done whatever it took to keep it a secret from the pack while he tried to sell me. I screamed myself hoarse as my body continued to shift, wishing the pain would fade away. Lilith was apologetic about the whole thing, as though this was somehow her fault.
I’m sorry about the pain but it’s only for the first time and then after that, it’s a lot better, I promise.
I hope so because I’m about to pass out. I can’t take much more of this Lilith. How does everyone go through this pain the first time and survive?
I’m trying to take as much pain as I can from you. Just hold on a little longer Jordan and then you’ll see, just how beautiful a wolf we really are.
You mean to tell me it would have been more painful if you weren’t! Lilith!
Yes. Just one more minute and you’ll be done Jordan. Just hold on! You can do this. We’re almost home free.
A minute doesn’t seem very long but when you’re in excruciating pain it seems like a lifetime. Blaze had already had to back away and I missed his touch and the warmth it had produced when his skin touched mine. Suddenly it felt like my entire body rippled and then I was looking at my paws, with awe and wonder in my eyes. Lilith spoke to me sounding pleased. Her voice was filled with excitement.
You did it. See how pure white our fur is? We are a white wolf, the rarest wolf of them all. You’ve always thought you were a weakling but you are strong Jordan. I had to hide your abilities and make it appear that you weren’t like the other shifters. We’re fast, robust, and agile and we make our mate stronger too. Let’s go for a run, but if you don’t mind, I’d like to take control. Show you the world through a wolf’s eyes. Please. It’s been so long for me she pleaded, her voice full of excitement and longing.
I didn’t have the heart to refuse her and I was intrigued by the notion of letting her take control, the concept a little strange to me but no stranger than shifting into a wolf.
How do I do that exactly Lilith?
Picture yourself in the back of your mind, like a passenger in a car seat. It’s really simple. Just don’t overthink it she encouraged me. I took deep breaths and did just that, finding myself on the inside of my mind, looking through my eyes, like a passenger as Lilith took control over our wolf form and took charge.
I watched as she led Blaze downstairs and out onto the grounds before he shifted into his large wolf, Lucifer taking control, the two of them heading into the forest, frolicking and playing, racing with each other, hunting down small critters and roughhousing with each other. I blushed profusely as a highly aroused Lilith allowed an equally aroused and turned-on Lucifer to mount us, both of them going at it until they collapsed next to each other, Lucifer’s head on top of her body as they snuggled next to each other. As we fell asleep, I felt Lilith gently give me back control, darkness surrounding me. I felt tired, drained, and exhausted. Shifting had really taken it out of me, not to mention the running and everything else that Lilith had done on top of that.
I awoke, disorientated, and slightly cold, my body shivering as I glanced around at the forest, slightly confused, sitting upright as I took in the view of my mate, also naked, bolting upright in shock, before his eyes focussed on me and a small smile curved on his lips.
“Blaze” I whispered and flung myself into his arms, almost causing him to fall backwards on his back.
I had never been so glad to be back to my human form and feel like myself again, even though being a wolf was exciting as well. Right now I wanted to feel my mate’s arms around me.
His arms gripped me tightly. “Jordan” he breathed, rubbing my arms and kissing me on the forehead “Are you alright? No pain?” he asked quickly, looking me up and down.
I shook my head as he stood up, quickly offering his hand and helping me to stand. “No pain,” I said “unless you count the sore back from sleeping on the ground,” I said drily.
Just look at our mate and that delicious package of his poking upright. Sure you don’t want to take advantage of his state right now? I’m certain you guys could find a way to have some fun of your very own Lilith purred in my mind.
Are you serious right now? Didn’t you get enough last night I demanded incredulously, the image of her and Lucifer going at it, still fresh in my mind.
I’m always up for a good time when it involves our mate and Lucifer she smirked.
Great my wolf was a horn bag. I put a hand on my back and winced. Geez, I was probably bruised. Blaze wrapped a protective arm around me. At his touch, my body instantly warmed and I inhaled gratefully, the fresh air seeping into my lungs.
“So um, Lucifer and your wolf Lilith had a good time last night,” he said carefully, smirking down at me as we slowly turned towards the pack house.
I swatted at him playfully “Don’t remind me” I growled even though it was somewhat amusing “She’s ready to go another round already” I complained, narrowing my eyes at him.
He laughed “I think I love your wolf” he teased waggling his eyebrows as I giggled “You know we are out in the woods already” he mused, eyeing me hungrily “and there’s no one else around” he continued with a thoughtful expression on his face.
“Don’t even think about it” I said tiredly sensing where he was heading “All I want right now is a nice hot shower and to get clean.” Not to mention some clothes.
His eyes lit up and sparkled. “I can work with that,” he said and I swatted him again laughing.
Oh, I definitely like where his mind is heading. Lots of things you can do in the shower. How about I show you? For inspiration’s sake. You never know when this type of stuff could prove useful Lilith said gleefully.
Dirty images of various s****l positions that could be achieved in the shower flooded my mind. I cursed as Lilith’s laughter filled my mind. Damn. Part of me was impressed while another part of me scolded her for too much information. She was definitely overstepping her boundaries.
“Pass,” I said quickly, biting my lip.
He sighed. “Fine,” he said grouchily “but you don’t know what you’re missing,” he said sadly, shaking his head.
“I think I’ll live,” I told him with a grin, fighting back a tinge of disappointment, uncertain if it came from me or from Lilith. We made it out onto the grounds, pack members staring openly at us as we walked. I blushed, very aware of our naked state. Blaze seemed oblivious. Either that or he wasn’t self-conscious like I was. I rushed my footsteps, and we made it into the pack house. I was ready to run up the stairs, wishing vehemently for some clothes. We had barely made it into our room and I had stepped foot into the bathroom when there was a heavy knock on the bathroom door. I frowned. It sounded urgent. But then why hadn’t they mind-linked us?
she promised
s**t Lilith swore Lucifer and I put a block up while you guys slept, and I bet he forgot to put it down like I did. We thought that you guys could use a good rest for a couple of hours and we kept a careful ear out for anything bad guiltily.
Lilith, you know how important it is that we keep our mind-link open. What if something happened?
I know, I know. It was a bad error in judgment. We just wanted you guys to get some well-needed rest. We knew you were tired, especially after shifting. Besides, it’s not like Thomas wasn’t there in case anything went pear-shaped.
Still, I chided next time ask before you do it okay?
I heard Blaze hastily put on some clothes, before crossing the room to open the door, myself opening the bathroom door open a crack, my eyes scanning the bedroom as Thomas appeared in the doorway of the bedroom a grim expression on his face.
“Thomas” Blaze said casually, giving a sigh “to what do I owe this pleasure? I should have let you know where I was and I’m well aware the mind link was cut off due to a certain wolf that will remain nameless,” he said with a glower.
Yep, Lucifer had forgotten to lower the block as well I surmised.
Thomas didn’t even crack a smile. Instead, he looked frustrated and ran a hand through his hair, not meeting Blaze’s eyes. Something was wrong. I wrapped a towel around myself and came out of the bathroom, standing beside Blaze. It was unusual for Thomas to look so upset. He was such an easy going soul.
“Thomas,” I said softly, my heart sinking “What’s wrong?”
He looked grim. His face contorted. He cleared his throat several times. We waited patiently for him to speak, Blaze bewildered as to what had his Beta so fearful.
“It’s your sister” he finally spoke, his eyes meeting Blaze’s directly as my mate stiffened, “last night, well last night she” he choked “she tried to kill herself. She’s in the hospital, under supervision. We got to her in time but, she almost died. I’m sorry Alpha Blaze, I failed you” he whispered hanging his head as Blaze and I turned to each other, Blaze’s face filled with shock and panic.
“She did what” he roared.
“She slit her wrists with some glass last night in her room. Luckily, I smelt the blood as I was walking by and found her in time. I got her straight to the hospital and she’s recovering but it was a close call. I just never anticipated she would do anything like this” he murmured regretfully, his head bowed down in shame.
I instantly put a hand on Blaze’s arm. “Nobody could Thomas. Don’t blame yourself. Blaze” I said softly, his body still stiff, his eyes blazing “Go and see her. I’ll catch up later. I can see you’re worried” I told him, feeling anxious myself.
I knew he had to be hurting at the news his sister had tried to do something so devastating to herself.
He nodded tightly, then turned and kissed me lovingly on the lips. “I love you” he whispered and then turned to Thomas ”
Take me to her,” he said gruffly “I need to see this for myself. God knows what the stupid i***t was thinking, to try and take her own life like that. I’m a terrible brother, for not seeing that she needed help” he growled, and I watched, with a heavy heart, feeling wretched and awful about the whole situation as he and Thomas silently left, the bedroom door shutting with a decisive click behind them.