The Guard To My Sanctuary - Chapter 18: Chapter 18

Marco
It was our two month anniversary and Elm had decided to come to my house for dinner and a movie. It wasn't his first time at my apartment; he had been here three times before when his dad had to stay overnight at work. He felt it was safer for him to be alone in my apartment then the house where the reporters might pop up again at any time. I decided to take a day of leave for the vacation so we could spend the day together.
"Honey do you mind peppers in your omelet," I asked making breakfast for dinner since it was the food I was best at making according to Elm.
"Yeah that's fine," he responded in his soft voice that was hard to hear with the oil popping. I started calling him honey after we watched the I Love Lucy movie. He walked into the room and over to me in his pajamas and got on his tippy toes to kiss my cheek. I smiled and flipped the omelet placing it onto a plate and handing it to him then grabbed mine so we could sit on the couch to play Madden while Elm ate his food and played a game on his phone. I wanted to take him out for the anniversary but all he wanted was an omelet and to spend the day with me in the house. With him being a homebody he preferred quiet nights indoors watching television or movies and eating good food. I didn't care what we were doing as long as we were side by side. My game was interrupted by the sound of my home phone ringing and a message popping up on the screen. I saw that it was my Commander so I rushed to pick it up and paused the game.
"Sir," I answered in my serious military voice.
"Sorry to bother you on your day of leave but we need you to come in to fill some paperwork out in order for your students to graduate on time. Just come down as soon as possible so the clerk can send the form in," he said.
"I'll be right down," I said getting g up and hanging up the phone.
"Honey I'm going in really quickly to fill a few forms out and I'll be right back you think you'll be okay here alone," I asked walking to my room which was really basic nothing to brag about but it was better than living in the dorms like I used to have to do.
I quickly threw on my uniform and made my way out the door making sure to kiss him goodbye. I ran to my car and made my way all the way to the base which was only fifteen minutes away and made my way into my Commanders office to start signing the forms needed. It took me about thirty-five minutes. I knew he'd probably be asleep since it was eleven at night and he was not a night person. I cut my car off and walked towards the building taking each step one at a time in order for me to not make noise that would disturb my neighbors in the building. I made it to my door and pulled out the key using it to unlock the door and the deadbolt and walked inside. The house was cleaned and I even saw vacuum patterns on the carpet it also smelled like lavender and slightly of bleach. Slowly I took my jacket and hat off sitting it on the dining table and walked into the living room where the TV was still on. I almost walked past it till I saw a scene from some movie I had never seen before.
The movie started some young white guy and seemed to be filmed in the nineties based on the poor camera quality and the sound is a little grainy. He seemed to be in some sandy dusty war zone in an unnamed part of Africa. For some reason, I sat down and focused on a screen that seemed too close to a reality I had lived through. In the movie the main character who was walking in a bombed house where light sporadically filled and evacuated the room multiple times in just a few seconds. He waved his rifle in every direction as the sounds of gunfire played in the background as a soundtrack to the actor's situation. Then there it was, out of nowhere a child popped up from behind him and the soldier looked at the child then fellow soldiers holding their weapons ready to fire. The man tried to reason with the child in Arabic but the child wouldn't respond. Then the child made one false twitch with his finger and the soldier lets off a round of bullets killing the child and falling to his knees in sorrow soon afterward. It was like looking at my own story told on film. I was in a building split up from the squad leader with just two of my companions. I was using all of my tactical field training just to survive and hopefully save some civilian lives along the way. We searched the home for insurgents but found nothing until six children popped up with guns drawn. I tried to reason with them but they wouldn't respond I later found out that they had plugged in their ears to keep them from communicating with any soldiers. What looked like the leader of the child group moved his finger towards the trigger and I made the decision to fire my weapon in order to protect my group.
I felt tears start to fall down my face but I kept watching the movie. When they had a funeral for the kids I started shaking and unfortunately, Elm decided to see what was going on and tapped me from behind. I out of reflex, since I was in a flashback state jumped over the couch and pushed Elm on the floor and sat on his chest and raised my fist to strike them.
"Marco it's me Elm, stop please," he yelled and I snapped out of my phase quickly getting off him. He looked up at me horrified tears streaming down his face and crawled until he could stand up and run towards my room and I heard a door slam.
"DAMN IT, FUCK," I said realizing I may have just ruined us. I ran to the room and couldn't find him until I saw my bathroom door was closed I went to it and turned the knob that resisted opening meaning that it had been locked from the other side of the door by Elm.
"Elm please open the door it was an accident I promise I don't want to hurt you," I begged as a knocked on the door.
"Leave me alone," he said I could hear him sobbing.
"Honey please open the door," I said but didn't get any response. I knocked over and over again not too aggressively because that was what caused the situation. "Honey please, I'm so sorry for attacking you I had a flashback of what happened to me watching the movie. I should have turned it off but it was like an out of body experience. It took me back to that place where I had to defend my group at the expense of children who didn't know any better," I told him for the first time. I had told him I'd been in a firefight but never the real reason. I hoped it didn't push him away but all I had was the truth for him. I was crying as I spilled out every detail trying to get him to understand every raw detail so he could understand just how deep my condition went.
"Elm I couldn't hurt you on purpose. I feel that you are everything to me and everything I could ever hope for. I don't want to ever push you away or make you feel less than the great man that you are. Please forgive me I promise you I'll make sure you know just how sorry I am with every day, hour, minute, and second that passes. I love you Elm and I want you to still care for me," I said crying as I confessed just how deeply I cared for him. It was silent for a heartbreakingly long time. I sat on my bed with my head in my hands just thinking about how bad I had just fucked things up till I heard his soft voice say.
"I love you too."
"What," I asked not sure if my ears were deceiving me.
"I love you too," he said again this time clearer. I looked up to see him standing just outside the bathroom door that I didn't hear open. He had red eyes and a red nose from crying hard and looked at me in-between softly and inquisitively. I jumped up and rushed him wrapping my arms around him and rocking him back and forth. After a while, he hugged me back and I pulled away.
"I'm so sorry," I said and kissed his forehead over and over again apologizing and telling him that I love him over and over again until he pulled away.
"I forgive you," he said standing up to his tippy toes hopping up to hook his arms around my neck and bring my face down to mine and kissed me then pulled away.
"That can never happen again," he said then kissed me again tears still streaming down his face. I place my hands on his waist and lifted him off the ground into my arms.
"If I have to take six pills a day to keep it from happening then so be it. I never want to put that look of fear on your face again I said giving him another kiss than putting him down but he hung onto me and pulled me into another kiss which was deeper and hotter than the others. I started kissing back and he relinquished the control to me without putting up much of a fight.
"I love you," he said after pulling away and letting his hands roam up my shirt.
"Elm what are you doing," I said breathlessly
"I want to have sex with the man I love and the man who loves me," he said pulling away and pulling his shirt off revealing his bare upper body to me. He was blushing under my gaze and I was growing harder by the second.
"I can't, I just almost hit you, your dad is going to kill me and you know about my past. I just..."
"I know all of that stuff is important but I want you right now. It isn't the perfect time but I want you right now because there never will be a perfect time. I've never gotten to choose when or who I had sex with but I want this time to be with you," he said and looked me in my eyes, my red tear drained eyes. I gave in and lifted him up to me and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my neck and his legs around my waist and I walked us over to the wall and pressed my lips against his again. He immediately opened his mouth letting my tongue explore into his mouth. My hands grazed his face and his shirtless body. Our lips slid over each other as our moans and gasps filled the small room.
Elm leaned back on the wall to keep himself up and wrestled with my shirt to pull it over my head. Once the clothing item was on the floor he hesitantly let his arms roamed my decently hairy chest. I started working on his neck that smelled of jasmine and his natural scent that drove me wild. I sucked on the soft skin leaving my mark for anyone to see. He moaned out in ecstasy his head rising upward and his grip on me like iron. I held onto him and moved to the bed gently putting him down on his back and leaning on top of him. I began to plant kisses along his chest. I kissed, licked and sucked on his cute little nipples before nibbling on them making sure to pay both an equal amount of attention. He let out heavy moans as he started to feel more comfortable with me. I was taking things slow since the last time he was in a position like this it was forced. I wanted to remain in control but I also wanted him to be comfortable. I made my way to his naval I circled it with the tip of my warm tongue a few times and he let out the cutest giggles I've ever heard and whatever he used to shower with made his skin taste so fragrant.
"I'm going to take these off," I told Elm while pulling at the shorts he was wearing from the bottom. He lifted up for me to be able to and I pulled them down along with his briefs and saw his dick which he immediately covered and crossed his legs.
"Don't cover yourself I don't want you hiding from me," I said while kicking off my boots and pulling my pants and underwear down letting my manhood spring free into the air. He gasped while looking at it transfixed on the pink head that was already leaking.
"Are you sure about this," I asked him and he nodded with his bottom lip secured in his top row of teeth. I leaned up and kissed his cheek before letting my hands make their way all the way to his hands that were still covering his what I estimated to be maybe six and a half to seven inches. I then took both of his feet and uncrossed his legs spreading his thighs apart and lifting them to his shoulders exposing his tight looking pink hole that was pulsating. I crouched down and took in the scent of Jasmine and then kissed it blowing hot air onto it which caused him to moan. He tasted almost sweet which I didn't expect since I always thought that's what people said in erotic stories to jazz things up but he actually did. Then I remembered him talking about his favorite sugar scrub and put two and two together. He moaned out as I took another lick over his hole and teased him with my tongue. I felt him grab my head pulling me in closer to him.
"Yes baby please more," he moaned out. I did what he asked and dug my long tongue deep into his tight hole causing him to squirm. I couldn't get enough of his moaning as I licked, kissed, and sucked his hole. I could feel him jacking his dick so I reached up and took over for him doing it slowly so he wouldn't climax too soon. I was painfully hard myself and my eleven inches begged for some attention as it pulsed each time he moaned. I felt him push my head away and looked up to see tears in his eyes I got scared for a moment that I may have pushed him too far but then he sat up with a smile and crawled over to me. When he got to me he pointed up and I looked at him confused.
"Stand up please," he asked so I did. The moment I was up his hands were on my dick softly stroking it. I moaned out in pleasure. I felt him start to suck on my thick tip and his tongue dance around it.
"Damn that feels good honey just like that," I said. Slowly the urges beat out being so gentle and I pushed his head further down my dick. He took me inside of his mouth about half way and pulled off and continued to do that going further down each time. After a while, I put a finger in my mouth wetting the digit then reached over Elm and slowly pushed into his hole just as he reached the base of my dick causing him to moan which felt great on my dick. I slowly moved my finger in and out of him until he stopped trying to get away from me then I added another finger doing the same until I added the third which caused him to squirm at first till his body stretched out enough to fit it in.
"Are you ready," I asked pulling my dick out of his mouth. He didn't answer he just laid on his back with his legs spread open his hole already red. He looked so sexy and fine laying there all bashfully and submissive. I did want to waste any time and went into my drawer and grabbed the bottle of lube pouring it over me and then rubbed enough on his hole. I got onto of him and placed myself at his entrance and slowly pushed into him really slowly. I wasn't going to rush this I was going to take my time and let him get used to my manhood being inside of him. He clawed at my back pulling me closer to him and I kissed him. I could see him tearing up and I stopped.
"You okay we can stop if it's too much," I said lifting up a little only for him to pull me back down with one arm and his other hand reached an ass cheek pulling me in deeper. I was halfway in when I started to pull out making a slow rhythm. I felt him bite down on my shoulder and groan. I feared I was hurting him but his groans slowly turned into these little higher pitched gasps that let me know I wasn't hurting him as much and that he was starting to feel pleasure. Incrementally I pushed deeper into him till he was taking all of me. I positioned myself inside of him aiming as I trusted which caused me to hit his spot. The sounds of his gasps, my grunts, and the wet slapping sound if skin meeting skin filled the room. I reached my hand in between us and started jerking him and leaned down to kiss him as I pounded into him. I felt I was getting close and he was too based on the pitch of his moans.
"I'm close Honey," I said knowing in just a few strokes I would explode deep inside him. He made this loud gasp and I felt his dick pulsate in my hands as I kept jerking him. The combination of him bucking from his release and his pulsating hole caused me to slam into him and release my seed deep inside of him while making a loud groan. By the time I was done I fell on top of him panting as he was breathing heavily. I pulled out and rolled off of him so my weight wouldn't crush him. He turned on his side to look at me. He looked like he was fighting to keep his eyes open.
"I love you," I said pulling him to me palming one of his cheeks with my large hands and pulled the covers over us which I would have to wash in the morning.
"I love you too," he said closing his eyes and started to snore. I kissed his forehead and apologized again to him in his sleep before closing my eyes.
"I feel like we forgot something," I thought just before I fell asleep.