The Guard To My Sanctuary - Chapter 46: Chapter 46

Ozias
The feel of the hot water running down my spine eased the tight muscles that built up from the strenuous workout I had done earlier in the day. Every drop of hot water was like some sort of magic elixir releasing built up tension that I couldn't fix with simple stretching. I grabbed my loofa that was coated in soap from my Sandalwood body wash and squeezed it to push out the soap bubbles. I used the fluffy ball to cleanse my skin of the dirt and grime of practice. I had taken a shower before Ma picked Maddox and me up but the water pressure in the locker room showers was less than great so I wanted to make sure I didn't smell like musk and grass which Ma pointed it out at the dinner table. The water from the mobile shower head which was set on the massage feature beat the scent into my skin and washed the excess suds down the drain. I loved the sound of water running down a drain it was comforting for some reason. I checked my hands noticing the burning sensation and saw that I had broken the skin over my knuckle open just a little when I punched Steven who made the grave mistake of trying to hurt my brother.
It was an unspoken household rule that Call was treated more like our sister than a brother at times. We took up his battles because physically he was built smaller than everyone even Ma who was maybe an inch taller than Call. When I saw the guy I could tell he had slept with Calloway immediately. Just the look in his eyes told me the story. Even when I was fighting I was receiving that same look from Tanya, Stacy, and Mrs. Olsen who had to pretend to not like me in order to not stir up any suspicion that we had fucked during the summer in her car while her husband was on a business trip. Calloway was secretive about relationship information but I knew that Steven wasn't his first and probably wasn't even anything bigger than a one night stand. Something told me he had someone special in his life. I didn't like that he kept the guy a secret but knew that confronting him was a poor choice since he like Ma could out-argue everyone else in the house without much difficulty.
I turned the shower water off knowing that Ma would say that jerking off is a safe and natural thing but to conserve water since California is always on water watch. It was embarrassing how he would talk to all of us so openly about sex. That was the main reason I hid it from him. I hated discussions where he'd go all psychological on me and make me deal with my bull shit. I liked sex and I didn't want him to make me dig deep to figure out why I like it so much. Stepping out of the shower I grabbed my fluffy towel and wiped the water off of me and coated myself in a layer of cocoa butter. I looked in the mirror and smiled at my appearance. I hated when attractive people pretended that they didn't know they were attractive. I walked to the sink and brushed my teeth while checking my phone to see what the time was. It was 1:38 am so I knew I was more than likely the only person awake in the house. Everyone tended to go to bed early on weekdays but become vampires on the weekend. My brother's and I would pull back to back all-nighters during the summer just watching movies or going for midnight swims. I loved the summer and warm weather not that California got cold.
I looked around and found my basketball shorts and pulled them on negating underwear which I hated wearing period. I gathered my dirty laundry and my phone then left out of the bathroom. I could hear my parents television still on in their room and could make out the sounds of an infomercial. I walked over to their door which was always unlocked unless they were having sex. I opened the door and saw Ma snuggled in Dad's arms resting his head on dad's chest right next to the tattoos he had of all of our names. I smiled at them and walked over to the side of the bed where the remote was resting. Ma and dad smelled like flowers and citrus which was always comforting like a hug through my nose. I clicked the power button and tiptoed out of their room not wanting to disturb their peace. I liked seeing how in love they were with each other but at the same time, I didn't see myself ever falling in love with someone.b
I walked past Calloway's room. Where his door was closed and I could hear the sound of a fan and space heater competing for dominance of the room. I rolled my eyes and continued walking to my room adjacent to Calloway's. In the hallway, I could hear soft moans of a woman and knew it was coming from Maddox's room and was more than likely porn. Wylder wasn't the type to have sex really early in a relationship and was making him wait for it. I rolled my eyes again and opened my room door where it was completely dark inside. My room was decorated like an average guy my ages room. There were posters of music groups, rappers, ball players and women taped to the walls that were painted blue I even had a television on the wall where my play station was connected. I flipped on the second switch that worked to cut on my laps instead of my ceiling fan which was blowing cold air onto my shirtless body. I smiled when I saw the little Filipino boy laying down on top of the covers dozed off. I quickly shut my door and locked it then used my towel and dirty clothes to plug the space underneath my door. I hit the light switch cutting the lights off and walked over to my bed. I used my phone light to look around and reached for Beo's foot and shook it. He jumped up a little startled but smiled when he saw me.
"Hey daddy what took you so long," he asked in his feminine voice that immediately started to make my 9.5 inches rise in my shorts and it was evident. Beo's eyes went directly to it and he licked his lips. He looked good fresh-faced or all done up I preferred either or. Beo and I had been hooking up for a little over a year. I was the first person he ever did anything sexual with. At most he sucked my dick and I'd eat his ass and jerk him till he got off but most of the time he was content with jerking me and cuddling for a while.
"Sorry B I didn't mean to keep you waiting but you know the drill," I said low as to not wake anyone. I flopped down on my bed and pulled my shorts off revealing my dick. Beo's lips immediately enveloped my rod as he kissed the tip and licked on the slit trying to taste any juices that might come up.
"Take it in, no teeth," I said to him and grabbed a handful of his hair and used it to control his head. He did his best not to gag knowing that's what I liked to hear; it was a game for us that we played every now and again when he'd sneak into my room while Calloway slept. I knew Call would be pissed if he ever found out but so far it had been working well between us.
I felt Beo's small hands start to play with my balls which he knew I liked during head. He was on a mission to get me to nut since he probably was tired. I didn't complain since I was tired as well. He went all the way down to the base and started humming. The next thing I knew I was releasing my kids down his throat a few moments later he pulled off gasping for air.
"Damn you were going to drown me," he said laying back.
"Sorry," I chucked at him spent. He climbed over to me in his pink short shorts and matching crop top and laid his head on my chest and kicked and leg over me.
"How's ISS," he asked as I palmed his small but toned ass.
"Fine this girl Amiyah is in there too and I think she might give me a chance," I said to him thinking about the caramel-skinned girl I had spent the vast majority of my school day with.
"Oh," he said in a hushed tone. We started there in silence for a minute before he got up.
"I think this should be the last time we do this. Calloway was right about you DL guys, I'm just wasting my time with you. It's obvious you don't care about me," Beo said standing up to walk away. I knew how he felt about me but I just couldn't return those feelings even though he was my type. I had been with a few guys in the last two years since I started having sex but Beo was the only guy I had done anything with more than once. I could admit I liked him but I also was wrestling with the fact that I wasn't completely gay or bisexual. I reached over and grabbed his hand just before he was out of reach and pulled him back down and lifted myself up despite my muscles starting to feel sore.
"Calm down with all that," I said to him not ready for him to leave just yet.
"No Zi I'm getting tired of just being the guy who sucks you off. I know you know that I want a relationship but you won't even consider it. You're not even willing to admit that you are gay," he said sternly to me but his hand was gripping my forearm tenderly.
"Beo I can't admit to being something that I'm not, I've only been with three guys in my short ass life. I'm not even attracted to most guys. What we have is good for right now," I said placing a kiss on the side of his face.
"Is it, though, I mean I want you all to myself and you won't have me that way or even consider it," he said sounding on the brink of tears. I hated seeing people cry especially if I was the reason for the tears.
"I feel like a dumb bitch I'd cuss out on reality television for sticking with a guy who doesn't want her. I get that this is all fun and games for you but my feelings are being stomped on every time I see you with some bitch from school or wherever and you toss them in my face," he said I couldn't tell if he was crying due to him hiding his face from the light my phone was generating. I laid back down feeling genuinely bad for him and like an asshole for dragging him along. He had so much going on with his family and I wasn't helping at all but at the same time, I didn't want to let him go.
"Come here," I said to him pulling him down to me. He tried to fight it but eventually, he ended up laying on my chest.
"I'm sorry I'll try to do better," I said knowing that it was a fuckboy thing to say but it was genuine. Beo was a good person and I knew he deserved better. Now if I was able to step up to the plate was the question.
"Yeah right," he said clearly not believing me. I could smell the perfume he wore as he shook his hair and rolled his eyes at me.
"I mean it," I said kissing his cheek then his nose. I was never the most affectionate with him so I knew the small gesture would mean something to him. He looked up at me and a soft smile spread along his lips and he leaned up to kiss me on my cheek.
"Do you really mean what you say," he asked me while crawling on top of me. I smiled at him and pulled his head down. Our lips crashed together and my hands roamed to his ass. I slipped my fingers into his shorts and gripped onto him. He moaned out as my tongue explored his mouth. There was no fight since he knew he wouldn't win. I pulled away from the kiss and he lay on top of me gasping for air. I leaned over and hit my remote turning my television on to mask the sounds that were about to be coming out of Beo's mouth. I flipped us over so that I was on top of him and grabbed at his shirt pulling it off of him and did the same for his shorts revealing his nude skinny body. He blushed looking up at me and I gave him a quick smirk as I parted his legs and leaned down to kiss him. His lips tasted like cherries which I couldn't get enough of and were soft and velvety. When I finally pulled away I moved my lips to his neck and began to kiss and suck gently on his skin. We both wouldn't want evidence for Calloway to find so I didn't leave hickeys. My callused fingers reached to his side and rubbed up and down his skin. I slowly began trailing kisses down to his nipples where I sucked on the hard little buds causing Beo to moan out in ecstasy. Just as he was starting to precum from the kisses to the sensitive skin I moved my kiss downward all the way to his dick. It was average in size and clean shaven like the rest of his body. I took the hard meat into my mouth causing Beo to gasp from surprise. I had never sucked a dick before and he wasn't expecting me to but after what I had been putting him through I figured he deserved some sort of reward. I sucked on the tip imitating how I liked mine sucked. The erotic noises Beo was making caused my own to leak. The idea of getting caught only made me more excited. I soon took his meat out of my mouth now glistening with spit and got in-between his legs. I pushed them back a little exposing his clean tight pink asshole. I wet my lips before placing a kiss on the puckering flesh then I started licking him aggressively. He jumped and tried to move away but I held him in place. I could hear him moaning into one of my pillows and that fueled me to continue. He tasted good as he had just taken a bath which was true. He smelled like strawberries, my favorite fruit. He sounded like a female in the way he was moaning which was how I liked it. I had realized over that last few months that I was attracted to femininity I didn't care if it was a found in a girl or a dude, it was what I craved. I smacked his cheeks and proceeded to push my tongue deeper into him. I had been eating his ass for about fifteen minutes and saw that it was all wet and a deeper shade of pink than when I started. I put my middle finger in my mouth and wet it before pressing it into him. He squirmed a little but allowed my finger to enter him.
"You sure you want to do this," I asked him adding a second finger inside of him, "if I take it I won't be able to give it back," I said referring to his virginity.
He took a moment to respond but when he did it was only to pull away and turn. I was disappointed but I understood him not wanting to go further with me. Just as I was about to lay down he got on his stomach and arched his back placing his head in my pillow and ass in the air. I immediately smiled and rubbed on his ass before leaning to my bedside drawer and getting a condom and lube that I had taken from Uncle Tyler when I was over at him and Uncle Pine's house. Despite me being wild with who I shared my genitals with I was always safe no matter what. It was no secret that my brothers and I weren't planned and I had a fear of winding up a teenaged Dad. Also, ma and dad explained in detail how they would thoroughly kick our asses from start to finish. I unwrapped the condom and rolled it on my length then coated my dick in lube and worked some into Beo who I could already tell was nervous. I placed a kiss on the base of his neck then followed down his spine before lifting up.
"I got you B just relax," I said to him placing my tip at his entrance. Slowly I worked myself inside of his tight hole. He groaning and gasping into the pillow every time I moved. Luckily the TV was playing some loud late night telenovela. It was a good twenty minutes f me working myself into Beo who was desperately trying to keep the arch in his back. I knew that I'd be skipping out of school since it was so late.
"Give me that tight ass," I told him as I started a rhythm. "That ass feels so good my nigga," I said while pushing into him. He moaned in-between pleasure and pain but didn't run from me. I started to pull almost all the way out of him and pushed back in causing a wet smacking sound to clap into the room. He moaned deep into the pillow and it fueled me to continue. Soon he was throwing his ass back on me while I sat back and watched in awe. We switched to a few positions over the course of thirty minutes till I had him on his hands and knees writhing in the delicate balance of pleasure and pain I had him in. I deep stroked him once making sure to hit his prostate and he lost it on me. I felt him tighten around me and knew he was cumming for the second time. The sensation of him pulsating on me caused my balls to tighten and I felt myself release into the condom. I hissed as I pulled out of him spent. I pulled the condom off of me and tied it up throwing it in my trashcan. I turned over looking at Beo who was holding his sweaty stomach trying to recover. I giggled and pulled him close to me placing a kiss on his lips.
"I have to get back to Calloway's room I guess," he said getting up slowly. I tried not to laugh as he scrunched up his face in pain.
"You can stay in here it's already three I'll set an alarm for five so you can get back to the room," I told him and noticed the relief on his face. I got up and grabbed my towel using it to wipe myself off. Beo used my shorts and climbed into my bed. I walked over and got behind him making sure an alarm for four thirty and wrapped my arms around him. He pushed back really close to me.
"Keep going and we're going to have round two," I whispered in his ears then turned to grab the remote to turn the TV off.
"Oh god no I can't go again, I'm going to be walking funny tomorrow. I'm going to have to pretend I hurt my leg or something all day," he said moving away from me a little. I laughed then closed my eyes not knowing how to feel about what we just did. I had been wanting to have sex with him for a while but we both wouldn't let ourselves push it that far knowing that we weren't healthy for each other, not that we ever expressed it verbally. The thoughts soon led me into a dream-like state...
I woke up feeling something wet and rough brushing across my face. I opened my eyes and saw Pixie our little munchkin cat in my face. I pushed her off wondering how she got in my room. She usually stayed around our pet Shiba Inu, Goliath. I looked up noticing light coming into the room. I liked my room dark so the shutters were pulled down and the curtains were drawn. There was no light from the television due to it being off. I looked at my door and saw it cracked open and someone standing in front of it. I could see someone short and thin standing looking at the scene. I cursed myself knowing that I had probably only half turned the lock which was a bad habit of mine.
"So that's why Beo disappeared to," Calloway said in his irritated high pitched voice then shut the door and walked away.