The Rejected Female Wolf - Chapter 20: Chapter 20

"Jenna!" I heard a yell from behind me.
'Just a little more,' Crystal whispered softly, but I could hear the pain in her voice. I pushed my legs to go faster and ignored the burning sensation. I took a glance back and saw that I had lost Luke way behind.
I quickly shifted and ran into the woods. Hopefully, no one will see my wolf form or else I'm screwed. No one can know that I'm different.
It would create chaos. Their would be war to fight over me. I can either be used for evil or good and I decided that I want to be good.
I sped up my pace and ran as fast as I could towards the pack house where the guys and I had been staying at for awhile now. Just before I enter, I shift back human with clothes and run up to my room.
I shut the door and slide down it trying to catch my breath. Stupid school, stupid wolf, stupid Luke.
Everything is stupid. Why did I have to be the mate to the man who once hated me and was set to make my life hell and now he wants me back? It doesn't make sense.
Is he using me? Now that I'm pretty, does he want me?
'He loves us. We are his mate and maybe he was embarrassed because of us, but he is an Alpha and he needs a strong Alpha female. This was supposed to happen. It's fate,' Crystal tried to explain.
'Well, fate is a bitch,' I muttered.
'Just give him a chance, please. We're going to war soon and you may never see him again. Don't you want to at least spend time with him until all chaos happens?'
I thought about what Crystal asked. Did I want to give Luke a second chance? Yes, I do, but so far all he has been giving me is lust. That's it. If he wants a second chance then he needs to work for it. He needs to cause me to feel what a mate should feel shocked, awed, surprised, lust and most of all feel loved.
If he wants me he needs to work for it. I'm not just going to be easy and the first nice thing he does to me, be like "You're forgiven," that's not right.
"Jenna?" A voice behind the door asked slowly. I knew who it was right away.
I sighed softly. If he wanted to make it up to me, I was going to have to give him a chance first. I cautiously opened the door and saw Luke standing there with his hands in his pockets.
"What?" I asked trying my best to not sound rude.
"I-I'm sorry," he stuttered out looking at the floor.
"It's alright," I say softly not daring to look at him. It was quiet for awhile but I know that the reaction he saw wasn't what he was expecting. I could feel his penetrating gaze on me, but I continued to ignore him.
"That's not what I meant to say," he said in a strong, confident voice. I turned my gaze at him to see that his eyes were darker and he looked a bit mad, but not at me but of himself.
He stepped closer and I instinctively took one back. He had made me walk back enough to shut the door behind me and lock it. Uh...
"Luke what do you want?" I asked in a cold tone. He ignored my question and walked closer to me. I was already pressed against the wall.
He stopped when our chests were touching. "Let me tell you something, Jenna. I want to tell you the truth.Will you let me?" He asked with a pleading tone. I stared into his dark eyes and nodded my head hesitantly.
He ran a hand through his hair and started to talk. "Do you know why I rejected you?" I was about to move away when he put both his hands on either side of my head,"I was embarrassed because my mate was the one no one liked. I hated you. The day I found out you were mate, I looked at you different. Instead of seeing a murderer who everyone despises, I saw a broken girl. I wanted to take you in my arms and tell you that everything was alright, but I knew that if I did that then no one would talk to me. My reputation would plummet. You would be bullied even more and I didn't want that. Yes, I was sort of embarrassed you were my mate, but I knew I had to reject you if I wanted to spare you from getting killed by other packs and getting further bullied. I- I also," he stopped talking.
He removed one of his hands from the wall and placed it on my cheek. He wiped his thumb and pulled it back, showing a glistening tear. I hadn't realized I was crying.
He was no longer staring at me but the tear. "I also didn't know if you would reject me. I would be the joke stock if you rejected me. I would be absolutely humiliated. My parents would be disappointed, your brother would fight me, my pack would laugh at me and you would hate me. So I did what I thought back then was right. I rejected you before you did it to me," he spoke softly.