The Unknown Lycan Princess - Chapter 93: Chapter 93

Beth’s POV
I had tears running down my face from Ethan’s memory. I stood up and wrapped Ethan in my arms and hugged him tight to comfort him. I could feel in the matebond that he was distressed, but I still don’t understand why this was causing him so much pain and distress now though. I noticed that Alexi was hovering behind Ethan wanting to comfort him too, but stopping himself.
‘It’s ok. You can comfort your other mate too, you know. I don’t mind.’ I said to Alexi in mindlink and sent him a little wink over Ethan’s shoulder while Ethan’s head was buried in the top of mine.
It didn’t take Alexi much longer than a second after I said that before he too wrapped his arms around Ethan. I felt Ethan relax even more in both of our embraces. It took Ethan a few more minutes to calm down. During that time I was talking with Harmony.
‘What do you think is bothering him about this now Harmony? Do you understand what is going on? Has Dex said anything to you?’ I asked my wolf.
Harmony whimpered before she said, ‘They are afraid we are going to leave them. Dex won’t tell me why though. He said that it is Ethan’s story to tell. He only said to help make sure you keep an open mind. I’m nervous Little one. I don’t like how mate is acting.’
I didn’t get a chance to reply to Harmony because Ethan pulled away from mine and Alexi’s embrace. “I told you that story because I wanted to give you a backstory of my Uncle Baxter. What he was capable of when I was just a young boy.” Ethan sighed and ran his hands down his face before he continued giving both Alexi and I a pained look and said, “I didn’t know it until now, but when Beth showed us her memories of the rape and her nightmare/premonition. I know the man that attacked you Beth.”
I gasped and took a step back from Ethan so that I could clearly see his face and the wince I saw him give from me stepping away from him didn’t go unnoticed by me, but I needed to look him in the eyes when he answered my question. I asked, “Wh..who… is he?”
I was terrified of the answer, but I needed to know. Ethan took a deep breath and released the name in a whisper along with his breath that I almost didn’t hear. If it weren’t for my heightened sense of hearing I wouldn’t have heard him. “My Uncle Baxter.”
I was shocked for a moment. I didn’t know what to say. My thoughts started to race though. I mean it makes sense why the blue moon pack has been getting targeted the most with the rogue attacks. Baxter is trying to get some revenge on Arthur and his family. But why? There was also the missing link on how he became the leader of the sect. Was he always in charge? Who gave him the responsibility of this if not. What was the motivation behind it all?
I was lost in thought for a time until Alexi’s voice pulled me out of it when he said, “Ethan you do know that it isn’t your fault right? You can’t control what other people say or do. He was your Uncle, your family. You were born into your family. You didn’t choose them. Your Uncles’ actions are no others than his own. Please don’t think that we feel you are responsible for what that monster has done. You are just as much a victim of his as Beth is.”
Oh. My. Goddess! I can’t believe he thought we would care that it was his Uncle. I mean I care, but in the way that Ethan is thinking. By the look on Ethan’s face Alexi was spot on in his assessment. So I thought I would add in my own thoughts and said, “Ethan? You didn’t think this would change how I felt about you did you?” When Ethan nodded I ran into his arms and wrapped my arms around him and continued saying into his chest, “Alexi is absolutely one hundred percent right. You are NOT responsible for what your Uncle did to me. It is not your fault and I will never fault you for what he did to me.” I could tell that what I said made Ethan feel better but there was still something behind his eyes. An age old pain that I was curious about. I don’t normally go into my mates’ minds to find out what they are thinking, but I think this is a time I need to use that ability with Ethan.
I was shocked to hear that he also blamed himself for his Uncle Felix’s death. Ethan thinks that if he had never called for his Uncles’ help he would still be alive. My poor poor mate. I squeezed Ethan tighter and said, “Felix’s death is also not your fault. You did nothing wrong. You saved him in a way. You saved him from being tied to his cheating mate into the afterlife. You saved him from having to spend eternity with her. Please baby, don’t blame yourself for something you had no control over. Baxter sounds like he was trying to hurt your family. He was and is a very sick individual. You have no responsibility for his actions. Those are his and his alone. I love you Ethan. Please don’t blame yourself.” I ended my speech in tears. I hugged him even more tightly if that was even possible.
Ethan broke down into uncontrollable sobs and Alexi and I just kept him wrapped in our embrace until he had calmed down enough. I could feel through the mate bond that he is feeling a little bit better.
Ethan pulled away from our embraces and wiped the tears off of his face and he gave us both a small smile and said, ” Thank you both for not blaming me for him. I understand how silly it must seem that I thought you would blame me for him. I just couldn’t help but think that he was my family, and he and I share the same bloodline. Thank you both for being so very understanding. I don’t know what I would have done if either of you didn’t want to be around me again or took our pups away from me. I couldn’t move my mind passed it and the thought just festered until you saw what happened.” The dusting of red on his cheeks let me know that he was embarrassed about how he reacted.
“Ethan, you don’t have to be embarrassed about man. We all think irrationally when we are hurting. You have carried the pain of what your Uncle Baxter did to your family with you for a long time. I am sure it was a complete shock to you to know that he is still alive after all this time though.” Alexi said, trying to help Ethan not feel embarrassed about what happened.
I took Ethan’s face in my hands and tilted his head down so that we were eye level and said, “I love you Ethan Smith. Don’t you ever forget that. No matter what, you will always have me and our pups.” Then I placed a soft kiss on his lips. The kiss was meant to be innocent, but it heated up quickly. Soon we were all naked and found comfort in each other. We all needed to feel that we were still ok. That no matter what we would always be us. I think we all needed this small time together after everything this morning. It wasn’t as long as our shower this morning, but it was still as intimate and mind blowing.
We were all finishing up redressing when Blaze walked into the room and took a look at our disheveled states and just shook his head and said, “Well now that you are all done with whatever this was, we are waiting for you downstairs to start questioning the witch.” He turned around and left the room, but not before adding, “By the way Beth. Your pants are on inside out and your shirt is backwards.” I was mortified as I checked my clothes and Blaze was indeed correct.
My face flushed a dark crimson red and I quickly fixed my clothing. Once we made sure we were all dressed appropriately and correctly we made our way to the dungeon so that we could start the interrogation of this witch. I was actually looking forward to this. Normally I am not a very violent person, but they messed with my pups and no one will ever get away with messing with my pups.