This Is Us - Chapter 46: Chapter 46
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LUCA POV
"Matthias, can you say something...please,"
I begged as Thomas and I sat outside one of the private bathrooms in our suite where the shower had been running for the past four hours and my fiance had locked himself in with no intentions of coming out.
He had gone in with the simple task of washing up and taking the blood off his skin and while it had taken me a few minutes, Matthias was refusing to come out.
"Matty, say something or I'm going to break down the mother fucking door with my bare hands!" Thomas aggressively threatens and I look at him confused.
My other fiance wore a strong glare on his face that was so intense, I was sure he was going to start firing lasers out of his eyes at any minute.
"Thomas, he just lost someone who was obviously very close to him, there's no need to be angry," I mentioned but he just grunted.
"Yeah someone who was apparently "of no importance" just killed himself and now Matty is devastated. You don't act like this for some nobody," He said and even though I didn't agree with the anger he was displaying, I had to admit he had a point.
Matthias lied to us.
The door suddenly clicks and both of turn our attention to the doorway where Matthias was now standing. A long white cotton bathrobe draped around his wet body as he hugged himself. His hair dripping wet as he kept his head tilted downwards in some form of shame.
"I loved him," He said quietly and Thomas instantly got defensive.
"You what?" Thomas gritted his teeth and I felt the need to come in the middle but Matty just walks over to the bed which the three off us shared and laid down, curling up his legs to his chest as he closed his eyes.
"I said, I loved him," Matthias repeats himself and Thomas stood frozen in place.
"What do you mean you loved him? Did you love him more than you loved me, than you love us?" Thomas asked and now I looked down at the plush carpeted floor.
"No, of fucking course not,"Matthias groaned and Thomas laughed hysterically.
"Well how do I know that? You already broke one rule, why not break the rest? Are those babies even-"
Matthias' eyes suddenly shot open when Thomas almost finished his question.
"Thomas, they are all yours. I would never break that rule unless I wanted to end our marriage," He says in his defense but Thomas shakes his head.
"I don't even know if I believe you anymore," Thomas says, with so much pain straining in his voice that it hurt me deeply.
"Don't be like that, not now," Matthias sighs and although I had remained quiet for most of the argument, I think the ring on my finger now gives me the right to come in.
"Matthias has a point Thomas, why are you so upset?" I asked him and Thomas now focused his anger on me.
"We had three rules. You can sleep with whoever you want as long as you top, you can keep it to yourself or tell me I don't care but you can't fall in love with anyone else," Thomas states more to Matthias than to me and turns on his heel, walking away from the situation.
"Where are you going!" Matthias called out only to the hotel door slamming shut instead. I'm thankful that Jaydean was out with her aunt so she didn't have to see the mess her fathers were in.
Matthias fell back onto the pillow and went back to his fetal position where his heartbreak was so clear that it hurt me to see him this way.
"Are you going to leave me too?" He asked but I shook my head, taking the blanket and tucking him in.
"No hon, I'm not going anywhere and neither is Thomas, I think he just needs some air is all," I told him honestly and he nodded as I joined him in bed, taking in his fresh scent as I wrapped my arms around him.
That's when he turned towards me and started sobbing in my arms.
"Matthias, can you say something...please,"
I begged as Thomas and I sat outside one of the private bathrooms in our suite where the shower had been running for the past four hours and my fiance had locked himself in with no intentions of coming out.
He had gone in with the simple task of washing up and taking the blood off his skin and while it had taken me a few minutes, Matthias was refusing to come out.
"Matty, say something or I'm going to break down the mother fucking door with my bare hands!" Thomas aggressively threatens and I look at him confused.
My other fiance wore a strong glare on his face that was so intense, I was sure he was going to start firing lasers out of his eyes at any minute.
"Thomas, he just lost someone who was obviously very close to him, there's no need to be angry," I mentioned but he just grunted.
"Yeah someone who was apparently "of no importance" just killed himself and now Matty is devastated. You don't act like this for some nobody," He said and even though I didn't agree with the anger he was displaying, I had to admit he had a point.
Matthias lied to us.
The door suddenly clicks and both of turn our attention to the doorway where Matthias was now standing. A long white cotton bathrobe draped around his wet body as he hugged himself. His hair dripping wet as he kept his head tilted downwards in some form of shame.
"I loved him," He said quietly and Thomas instantly got defensive.
"You what?" Thomas gritted his teeth and I felt the need to come in the middle but Matty just walks over to the bed which the three off us shared and laid down, curling up his legs to his chest as he closed his eyes.
"I said, I loved him," Matthias repeats himself and Thomas stood frozen in place.
"What do you mean you loved him? Did you love him more than you loved me, than you love us?" Thomas asked and now I looked down at the plush carpeted floor.
"No, of fucking course not,"Matthias groaned and Thomas laughed hysterically.
"Well how do I know that? You already broke one rule, why not break the rest? Are those babies even-"
Matthias' eyes suddenly shot open when Thomas almost finished his question.
"Thomas, they are all yours. I would never break that rule unless I wanted to end our marriage," He says in his defense but Thomas shakes his head.
"I don't even know if I believe you anymore," Thomas says, with so much pain straining in his voice that it hurt me deeply.
"Don't be like that, not now," Matthias sighs and although I had remained quiet for most of the argument, I think the ring on my finger now gives me the right to come in.
"Matthias has a point Thomas, why are you so upset?" I asked him and Thomas now focused his anger on me.
"We had three rules. You can sleep with whoever you want as long as you top, you can keep it to yourself or tell me I don't care but you can't fall in love with anyone else," Thomas states more to Matthias than to me and turns on his heel, walking away from the situation.
"Where are you going!" Matthias called out only to the hotel door slamming shut instead. I'm thankful that Jaydean was out with her aunt so she didn't have to see the mess her fathers were in.
Matthias fell back onto the pillow and went back to his fetal position where his heartbreak was so clear that it hurt me to see him this way.
"Are you going to leave me too?" He asked but I shook my head, taking the blanket and tucking him in.
"No hon, I'm not going anywhere and neither is Thomas, I think he just needs some air is all," I told him honestly and he nodded as I joined him in bed, taking in his fresh scent as I wrapped my arms around him.
That's when he turned towards me and started sobbing in my arms.
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