This Love We Have - jikook ff - Chapter 1: Chapter 1

5 years ago
"How could you do this to me?! Am I not enough?! Or maybe you never love me at all, right? Answer me! Please!" He cried and fell down on his knees.
I hurt him. I hate seeing him cry like this because it's breaking my heart. As much as I wanted to explain myself, no words dared come out of my mouth. I can't move any part of my body. I wanted to hug him, but my body's not coordinating with me so instead, I cried silently.
"Please answer me, Jungkook. Please tell me it's not true. Please, love. Look at me." Still crying, he stood up then cupped my face. He lifted it so that I'm facing him. I can feel his hands are shaking. I can see tears all over his face. I still couldn't say even a single word.
"You know what, Jungkook?! I hate you! I hate you for hurting me. I love you so much that it hurts. Don't you trust me? Did you love me at all?" He let go of his hands on my face and turned his back from me.
I gathered all of my strength to stop him from walking away and held his wrist.
"I-I love you, Jimin. S-So much." I cried while back hugging him.
I heard his sobs and I can tell they're full of pain and sadness. This is because of me. I hurt him.
"T-Then why?! Why did you fall for her?! Why did you let her break us apart?!"
"No, Jimin. I don't love her. It's you who I love. I'm sorry, love. Please don't cry for me anymore. Please."
He didn't say anything but instead he removed my hands off his waist and started walking away from me.
Why? Why did it happen to us? Why did I let it happen? Just why, Jungkook?!
"I'm really sorry, Jimin. Please find someone who will make you happy, who will never hurt you the way I did. But, please remember that I truly love you so much. I hope one day you'll forgive me. I love you, Jimin. Always and forever."
I cried while saying this to him. I know he heard me. I can't blame him for leaving me because it's all my fault. I failed to trust him and instead, I took revenge for the thing he never did. I regret everything. I should have trusted his love for me.
'Ughh! You're so stupid, Jungkook!' I told myself. I grabbed my hair and my knees collapsed. Now, it's too late. He left me already. What's done is done. I already hurt the man I love.
If I could just turn back time, I'll become the man he deserves. The man who will love him, only him. The man who will never hurt him. The man who will listen and trust his words only.
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Present
Jungkook's POV
"YA!!! Jungkook! Wake up! Get your ass up from that bed or I swear you will never set your foot on my house again!"  Namjoon shouted.
"Hyung! It's still early. Give me 10 minutes more." I went back to sleep. I thought he already stopped nagging me but I'm wrong. I heard a loud banging sound near my ears. And I swear to God, my ear drums just broke. What the hell?!
"What the hell, Namjoon?!" I yelled.
"YA!!! Don't you dare curse at me! I'm still your hyung!" Namjoon yelled back.
"Tss. Whatever. And did you forget, I am your boss?! " I raised my voice.
"And did you also forget I'm your business partner?!" He yelled then I went back to my senses.
Oh yeah. I forgot. Lol.
"Okay, chill hyung. I'm up." I laughed in sarcastic tone. My bad.
"My goodness, Jungkook. You are already messing up my day." He said while massaging his temples.
"I'm sorry, hyung." I said while acting cute but I failed.
"Cute doesn't suit you." He said sarcastically.
"Fyi, hyung. It suits me. Jimin always tells me---" I stopped because I remembered him again. I looked at Namjoon hyung. He didn't say anything. An awkward silence passed by us. Then...
"J-Jungkook. Go back to your house now. Your wife and your son must be waiting for you since you didn't come home last night." He reminded me.
Yes, I have a wife and a son. That is what I did to Jimin 5 years ago. I've hurt him. I've hurt the one I love.
"Okay, hyung." I said, my head facing the ground.
"I just want to remind you. You have a family to support now. Please accept the consequences from what you did in the past. Love them especially your son. He needs a father, Jungkook." Namjoon gently told me while his hands are patting my shoulder.
I want to cry. I want to run away from all of this. I want Jimin back in my life.
"Bro, always remember, I am here for you. We are all here for you. We got your back. Now please, go home first. You stink already. I don't want Jin to scold me again for tolerating you. And, don't forget about the reunion party for all BigHit former artists, okay? Everyone will be present except him, of course. The whole entertainment company is expecting you, especially Bang PD-nim. Don't disappoint him. He just called and told me he misses us already and the golden maknae."
"That old man, really. So clingy. Haha. Okay. I'll go home now. Thanks, hyung."
"Haha. Goodbye for now, Jungkook and see you later at the party. You can bring your family."
I just nodded and went my way to our house.
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Meanwhile at the airport
"It's good to be back. I missed this place."