This Love We Have - jikook ff - Chapter 45: Chapter 45

Third Person's POV
Yoongi and Taehyung decided to visit Jimin to know what is happening there, leaving the others in Jungkook's room. Just as they entered the room, they saw Hee Yeon beside Jimin holding his hands while Jimin's mom is sitting on the couch with her youngest son.
"Hello, Mrs. Park. Can we come in?" Taehyung spoke that made the mother looked at them. As the mother stand up, they immediately bowed to show respect.
"Of course, come in. You can sit down." The mother tried to show a smile. You can see her bloodshot eyes which only means she just recovered from crying so much.
They smiled back and walked towards Jimin's bed. Hee Yeon noticed the two approaching so she made her way to the couch, giving them the access.
"Hello, bestfriend. How are you now? Don't you think it's time to wake up now? It's been a weak already. We miss you so much. Can you open your eyes now, hmm? Come back to us please." He said and leaned down to Jimin's ears and...
"Come back to Jungkook, please. He needs you. If you can hear me, please help him because he's already breaking inside so you must wake up now please. I know you don't want him to be like this, right?" He said almost a whisper because his tears are taking over. Once he finished, he moved his head back to Jimin's face and forced a smile. He can't take seeing his bestfriend suffering like this. His hand moved to Jimin's hair and caressed it suddenly. Just as he was about to close his eyes to calm himself, he caught something that moves that made him open his eyes immediately.
"Jimin?" He swear he saw Jimin's eyes moved from his eyelids.
"Jimin?" He called out again, hoping he's right on what he just saw, that he's not hallucinating.
"J-Jimin...?" He said, making Yoongi confused. As he was about to call Jimin again, his eyes widened when he saw Jimin's eyes moved again from his eyelids. Tears of happiness started to form at the corner of his eyes. The man lying in front suddenly opened his eyes that made Taehyung and Yoongi's jaws dropped.
"Oh my God! Jimin, you're awake!" Yoongi hyung exclaimed and held the younger's leg. This made the others jumped in shock. They all surrounded the bed and cried just as they say Jimin's eyes really are opened.
"Call the doctor!" Jimin's mom yelled. Yoongi and Taehyung hurried outside. They almost tripped because of rushing too hard. Their hearts beat so fast as smiles are visible on their faces with little tears streaming down. Yoongi went to call the doctor while Taehyung aimed for Jungkook's room to tell the others about the great news.
Third Person's POV
Everyone is in chaos. You can hear murmurs all over the room. Everyone is very shocked at what Jungkook revealed. Jin who was the most shocked froze from his position, with his two hands covering his mouth.
"Are you sure of what you saw, Jungkook?! Did his finger really move?" Hoseok, who almost fell from his seat when he heard the shocking news, spoke up.
"I am sure, hyung. I clearly saw it with my own eyes. I tried to reach for the signal button but my world was already spinning that time. But as I soon as I pressed it, I collapsed and I don't remember anything more." Jungkook revealed while struggling to get a comfortable sitting position.
"Oh my God! Namjoon! Go to Jimin's room and tell his parents about this!" Everyone can't be more shocked. When Namjoon heard it, he quickly made his way to the door. But, just as he's about to open it, he was stopped by a panting Taehyung.
"Jimin is awake!" The panting guy shouted. He grabbed his knees, hoping to catch his breath. Dahyun immediately approached her boyfriend, silently asking 'Are you okay?' The question was answered by a 'Yes, I'm okay, baby.'
Hearing the sudden news, everyone freaked out. They all became restless and went all over the place. Jungkook eventually cried hearing it. Mix of happiness and excitement is what he's feeling right now. He let his tears come out from his eyes. He don't care if he looks so ugly right now. All he knows is he's so happy and badly want to see the man who he loves so much. As he was about to get up, he was stopped by his wife, Jisoo. His eyes are begging when he looked at her. Jisoo was about to be defeated by those begging eyes, but she needs to stop him before he collapses again. He's still weak. Dr. Han suggested to refrain Jungkook from any stressful activities; both physical and emotional.
"Jisoo, please. I need to see him. Please, let me see him. I want to see him. Please." He grabbed her arms and tried to show his begging eyes again but Jisoo looked away.
"No, Jungkook. You have to rest first, please. Before you collapse again. Please listen to me. You have to be strong first hmm? I can't afford having to see you unconscious again." She looks at Jungkook this time and held his face while caressing it. She is indeed crying also seeing Jungkook behaving like this. It is breaking her from the inside.
"She's right, Jungkook. Please, listen to us. This is what's best for you for the meantime. You are still weak. Look at you. You're at your worst. Please, be strong enough for Jimin. You wouldn't want him to see you collapse, right?" Jin did his best to explain what could happen. They can't afford to witness the same 'being unconscious' thing again. Jin hoped Jungkook could get the message he wants to deliver.
"Hyung...please...let me see him." Jungkook pleaded trying to get up again but stopped by Namjoon.
"Jungkook, try to listen to us. Please. This is for your own good. We will tell you everything after we visit Jimin, okay? All you could do for now is rest and have more strength." Namjoon hoped Jungkook will finally listen to them. But, the response was different.
"You're all so unfair! I hate all of you! Is it really that bad just to see Jimin?! You don't know what I'm feeling inside. It's killing me and wrecking me piece by piece. I guess you really don't know. I thought you already knew me, Jin hyung? But why?! Why are you stopping me from seeing him? This is so unfair. You are all being unfair. Do you even know?! Of course you don't know. No one understands me at all. I know all of you still has grudge against me. After all, I'm the guy who ruined everything. You know what?? I think you all never understand what you are making me feel at this moment. It's like you're saying I'm not good for him. That I don't even deserve to see him because I'm the one who ruined him!" Jungkook finally let his vulnerable side shows to everyone. He just can't take it anymore. It hurts so much. He blurted out all the thoughts of pain and self-hatred that he's been keeping all his life since the day he hurt Jimin, since the day he cheated on Jimin. He can't help but to think that he is the worst guy in the world. That he is useless.
"No, Jungkook. We don't mean any of that. You're still weak so-..." Jin tried to explain but was cutted.
"JUST GET OUT! All of you!" Jungkook exclaimed and covered himself with his blanket. He needs time to fix his breaking heart right now because his hyungs kept on showing him how worst, useless, and undeserving he is. He can't help but to pity himself and cried his heart out under the blanket. Though he badly wants to go and see Jimin, he can't and that's why he began thinking maybe he should've died that time instead just so he won't feel this random emotions.
"Jungkook..." Jin called out but the latter didn't even respond. He bursted in tears, covered his mouth from making any noise. Seeing Jungkook exploded all of a sudden hurts him so much as the oldest hyung. He never realized that Jungkook has been keeping all of this all his life. Jungkook is precious to him. He always treat Jungkook as his own brother to protect. He wanted to comfort the broken younger in front of him but chose not to. Jungkook needs to be alone. So, he turned around while still silently crying and gestured the others to leave the room with him. Just as he expected, everyone is also crying, with bloodshot eyes, red noses and swollen lips.