This Love We Have - jikook ff - Chapter 50: Chapter 50

Jin's POV
I tried asking him how it happened, how he ended up getting Jisoo pregnant. I wanted to be mad at him for hurting Jimin and for not believing that Jimin would never cheat on him. Plus, now he got someone pregnant. I wanted to ask why he let that happened. I wanted to ask how could he even do that unacceptable thing. But when he broke down in tears, my heart eventually aches, seeing him so vulnerable and weak. Just by looking at his eyes, I know he never meant anything of this to happen. He explained to me that he never wished any of this. He told me he was in a bar that day when he can hardly see Jisoo clearly.
"Jisoo kept on saying words that convinced me that Jimin really did cheat on me. She's saying such things like, if Jimin is really innocent, he should've told me sooner. She added that Jimin is guilty of the blame that's why he chose to hide it from me. I kept on ordering hard drinks from the bartender as she kept on saying words that's breaking my heart more. I know I shouldn't have let that happened but I'm broken-hearted, hyung. Everything she said fits perfectly at what I saw from those pictures. It really looked like they just had sex. There were also lovebites on his neck and that fucking hurts me, hyung. My heart continued to shatter into pieces as I continue on drinking while hearing the words she kept on saying. I know I'm such a weakling. But I just can't forgive myself that someone dirtied him just like that. The worst part is it was Taemin, fucking Taemin, who used to be one of Jimin's childhood friends. I know I should've not let Jisoo manipulate my mind but it already happened. And I regretted everything so much. After I took more shots of hard drinks, I didn't remember anything that happened next. I just woke up with a hard headache at my condo. I decided to listen to Jimin's explanation because I'm already dying inside, trying to think of everything. But when I looked at my side, I saw a naked girl beside me. My eyes widened even more when I realized it was Jisoo. I quickly looked at my body and saw myself with nothing but boxers. I swear hyung, I didn't mean for it to happen. I tried to push Jimin away more when I knew I just had sex with someone who used to be so obsessed with me. I don't know what to do, hyung. I tried to get away from all of this so I tried to hurt Jimin verbally so he would give up on me because I'm such an asshole. What I did is unforgiving and I don't deserve Jimin's love because I'm a weak guy who just let someone manipulate me and in result, I got her pregnant. Jimin tried to talk to me again but I ended up saying hurtful words that I don't mean. I know Jimin tried to surprise me on our 3rd year anniversary. I decided to just break up with him that moment so he would be less hurt but I didn't expect that Jisoo would reveal everything to him. When he confronted me, I wanted to give in and just say that I never meant any of this to happen but I chose not to. I chose to be silent while he's asking me. I don't want him to be hurt even more so I confirmed it. Well, that's the truth. When I saw him how he cried on me and pleaded me to say that it's all just a lie, I wanted to break down. I kept on saying sorry because I can't do that. I can't fool him anymore. He don't deserve a fucked up guy like me. I don't deserve an angel like him. When he was hospitalized after that, I can't help but feel guilty. It is all my fault that he's in that situation. I hurt him so much. I'm sorry, hyung. I'm really sorry." Jungkook revealed, making my heart shatters, too. I can feel that he still loves Jimin so much.
"Jungkook, everything will be okay. Jimin will be okay. He will heal eventually." My anger at him suddenly disappeared. I know this is hurting him so much. He clearly need someone to hold on to because anytime, he could break down and explode and that is not a good thing. He's such a fragile boy so I tried to be always there for him as possible.
When we found out from his parents weeks after that Jimin left for good, we all were saddened, especially Jungkook. He kept on blaming himself for causing all of this. I tried to comfort him but it was not enough. I would always find him unconscious anywhere. And as the eldest hyung, it is hurting me seeing him like this. So, even after I was married to Namjoon, I still tried to take care of Jungkook. Namjoon didn't mind. What Jungkook needs for the meantime is someone who'll always be there for him, so it was my mission to be that guy.
The others became mad at him first. But along the way, they started to understand Jungkook's side. They realized they have to support Jungkook, too, as his friends and as his brothers. Everyday, we kept on missing Jimin, hoping that he'll heal up sooner and come back.
After everything, we were not quite convinced if Jisoo was even telling the truth. We suddenly got intrigued when Jungkook said he woke up with boxers. His parents were not convinced, too, so they suggested a DNA test just to be certain that it is indeed Jungkook's son. A week after the test, we were all mentally praying that it's all just a lie. We still hope Jungkook and Jimin could be together again. But we were wrong. When the result came and confirmed it's true, our hearts broke into pieces, especially Jungkook. After that, Jungkook became even worse and that alarmed me. The times when he just fell unconscious anytime anywhere became countless. So, I told his parents about this. They immediately took Jungkook to a doctor. I was with them all the time. I didn't tell the others as requested by his parents. The doctor said that Jungkook's heart became weak due to so much stress he's having. His body became weak that's why he's always fainting. He suggested for us to help Jungkook free his mind from the things that's stressing him before worse things happen. He recommended a psychiatrist who could help him along the way. I, as a brother, helped him, too. That's why I became so protective over him. I don't want him to experience those things again. I always know Jimin is his weakness.
After two years of visiting his psychiatrist, we finally saw an improvement. He can smile and laugh now. Though he says Jimin's name from time to time, it's not the same as before. He don't faint much now. I'm so happy that he's finally getting well again. He even married Jisoo and faced his responsibility to his son. After two years, Jungkook opened and established his own entertainment company with my husband. I can't be more happy that he's finally achieving his greatest dream, though it used to be his and Jimin's dream. I'm so proud that he's now rising up and is smiling more often.
I became worried about Jungkook again when Jimin suddenly came back after 5 years and surprised us all in the reunion party. I know this will affect something eventually. So, I tried to look out for Jungkook again. And at the party, I saw how Jungkook reacted to it. I was right so I followed him to the rooftop that night. I tried to comfort him while he's crying. I don't want him to suffer the same things again. So everytime, I tried to check and observe him.
When Bang PD-nim prepared the vacation, I felt that something will happen. My guts were right when Jungkook fell unconscious again just on our first night at Jeju. I became worried again. The same thing is happening again and I wanted to stop it right away but I don't know how to. We immediately rushed him to the small hospital here in Jeju. I was a little bit confused when I saw how Jimin cried seeing Jungkook on the bed.
A day passed effortlessly when the doctor said he could be discharged already. So the next day, he was discharged for real. When we got back at the beachhouse, they suggested another chill party again. As much as I'm against it, I can't win over them so in the end, we had the chill party again by the beach. I noticed Jimin's sudden change of behavior when he left grabbing another bottle after just finishing a beer straight. I noticed in a while that Jungkook was gone, too. I wanted to look for him but Namjoon's not letting me go. He wrapped his hands on my waist tightly while kissing my neck. I can't get away so I just stayed like that.
After a few minutes, we saw Jungkook, who's carrying Jimin on his back,  on his way back to the house. Everyone noticed it so we all stood up and followed him inside. We stopped in the living room when he just came out of Jimin's room. I asked him what happened but he just said Jimin suddenly got drunk. He excused himself to get a washbin to clean Jimin but he was stopped by Taehyung. I can feel the tense between them. What's up with them? I volunteered to just be the one to clean Jimin instead before they get into a fight. I took the washbin and went upstairs to Jimin. As I was about to change his clothes into a comfortable one, he muttered something which I didn't clearly hear. I leaned in a lttle bit more so I could hear it clearly. My eyes eventually widened when I got to hear what he's saying.
He kept on saying, "I love you, Jungkook."
When I finished cleaning him up, I went down and talked to Jungkook. I was surprised when he said that Jimin kissed him suddenly. I, too, was curious about everything. Now that I also heard from Jimin that he still loves Jungkook unknowingly, I don't know what to do.
And then, the accident happened where Jimin and Jungkook got hurt. I'm glad that Jungkook has just minor injuries but we're all heart-broken when we got to hear Jimin's condition. I brought Jungkook to Jimin and took Min Joon with me on the cafeteria. But when Jungkook fainted again, that's when I'm triggered. You can't blame me for being so overprotective over Jungkook. Not that I'm saying Jimin is bad for Jungkook, it's just he becomes so weak when it comes to Jimin. So, as the one who witnessed every hardships Jungkook faced, I wanted the best for him. I wanted Jungkook to be physically okay again before he goes to Jimin. But, I didn't know I was hurting him already and I'm really sorry for that. Everything that my husband explained to me made me realize everything.
I'm sorry, Jungkook for hurting you emotionally. Those are the words I wanted to say to Jungkook but I'm too scared. I know he's still mad at me.
Two days passed but I haven't talked to him yet. But just yesterday, Jimin had a cardiac arrest. We couldn't find enough blood bags. Each one of us volunteered but we were all not compatible. Our only last hope is Jungkook, who has the same blood type with Jimin. I volunteered to be the one to tell him about Jimin's condition. I'm really scared but I had to. Jimin's also important to me.
I was walking with Namjoon to Jungkook's room. My legs kept on shaking. When we arrived, my hands can't hold the door. Namjoon noticed that so he opened it instead.
"I'll be here with you. Don't worry." A tear escaped from my eyes on what he said. When we got inside, I saw Jungkook's emotionless eyes.
"Jungkook, your Jin hyung will say something to you. Please try to be calm, okay?" Namjoon said then Jungkook nodded.
"J-Jungkook, I'm s-sorry for everything, for not trying to understand you more. I'm really sorry." I said to him before I hugged him. I didn't hesitate crying when he hugged me back. I was too overwhelmed when I broke away from the hug and gathered all the confidence inside of me.
"J-Jungkook, I'm sorry if this is coming from me but Jimin..." I tried to breathe because my throat suddenly dried up.
"What about Jimin?" His brows furrowed. I looked at Namjoon and he nodded.
"J-Jimin had a cardiac arrest yesterday..." I paused for a moment when he closed his eyes and clenched his fist.
"Go o-on. Tell me everything honestly." He stuttered, his eyes still close.
"His doctor said his condition is getting worse. His body is taking too long on replacing the red blood cells needed for his recovery. He started having complications internally. The doctor added that more cardiac arrests could happen in the next days if he don't receive blood transfusions right away. It could grow to an even worse situation so the blood transfusion is needed asap." I stopped for a while because I noticed he's crying already.
"We were all tested if we're compatible but none of us is." I added that made him cry even more. I am crying, too.
"You are the last hope, Jungkook. You have the same blood type with him." I said, my voice breaking. He cried and cried and cried. I am literally broken inside seeing him react like this. Who would not though?
Hiccups can be heard between his sobs. After a few minutes, he tried to calm himself.
"Bring me to his doctor, hyung. I will give my blood. Even if you take all of it, I don't care. I want to see him, please."