This Love We Have - jikook ff - Chapter 7: Chapter 7

At the party
"Good evening, everyone. First, I want to thank everyone for joining us in this prestigious event. I'm glad to see all of my current and former trainees altogether here. I can't be more proud of you all. You are great treasures that I will forever cherish in my heart. Without you, BigHit can't be what BigHit is today. Thank you so much for making this possible. Years ago, I almost gave up my dream and this entertainment because we almost fall into bankruptcy. I don't know what to do anymore. I lost so much hope. I lost confidence and the passion in my heart. But thank God for these particular people who encouraged me so much. They told me not to give up easily and that I should hold on. Thank you boys for everything. Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung and Jeon Jungkook. I can never forget that time when all of you came to me and plead to me not to close the entertainment. There, you promised me that you will work harder and will give your all. And that, you proved to me. Even when we were out of budget to everything, you endured everything. Because of your dedication and your undying passion, look at what BigHit is now. Your hard works paid off. We rose up because of you. Your music has touched everyone. You brought so much recognition and honor to our country. I'm so proud of you. Thank you for everything. Now for the surprise, I planned this event in honor of these people whom I treat as my sons, how thankful I am to be their father in this industry. Everyone, may I introduce to you, The legendary Bangtan Sonyeondan with their special performances. Enjoy the rest of the evening."
1st Performance - 21st Century Girls)
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Jungkook's POV
Bang PD-nim's message is so meaningful. As he's saying every word, I can't help but cry. Yes, we've been through a lot. We almost disbanded after just our debut. We were out of budget for everything, that closing the entertainment is the only option we have.  But God made a way and we rose up from the bottom. We are so much thankful for the ARMYs who are the very reason to everything. They supported us until the end. We won't be who we are today if not because of both BigHit and ARMY.
Now for the performance, I'm so nervous, not because it's been years since we last performed, but because I'm performing with Jimin again. As to my surprise, I never thought the songs which have the biggest meanings in my life, are what we're gonna perform tonight. Is fate trying to play with us?
You all know, Jimin and I used to share moments from our '21st Century Girls' performances, right? I never thought that history would repeat itself again. I just know this will be awkward, atleast to me.
During the first performance, I'm so lost in my own questions like, 'What should I do? Should I smile at him? Should I hug him just like the old times? Or should I hold his hands?'
I don't know what to do. Ugh. Jimin is now approaching me. What now? What the hell should I do?!
I'm now walking towards his direction. I decided to hug him as that is what we do all the time. He won't mind, right? It's like our routine always.
I was about to hug him now when he just smiled and passed by me. I was so embarassed though so I quickly pulled back my arm and did a heart on top of my head and faced the audience. Great, Jungkook. You're so uggh...
Maybe he doesn't want us to be awkward so he didn't do the hug thingy with me. Yeah, that's it.
2nd performance - Spring Day
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This song has a deep meaning in my heart because I wrote this song for Jimin when we were still together. Each word came from my heart. As we're dancing to it, I can't help but remember our memories together.
When I first saw him, I fell in love with him. When I discovered that we are to be a group, I am the happiest guy. Months after, I decided to court him. But fear overcame me so I never did. Days passed, I'm becoming more and more jealous because he's being close to Tae hyung and Yoongi hyung. That's just Jimin. He is known to be a very sweet and loving guy. He's also sweet to me that's why I fell more for him. The time when I became so frustrated to myself came. I don't want to hide my feelings anymore. I want to tell him so bad because seeing him with someone else, it's killing me inside. So I decided to tell him. It's now or never. It was his 19th birthday when I confessed. At first, he thought I was just joking but I said I'm not. I'm dead serious.
'Jungkook, are you being serious?'
'Yes hyung. I fell for you from the first time I saw you.'
'You realized we are both guys, right?'
'Yes and I'm serious about my feelings for you. I don't care if we're both guys. Love knows no gender, right? Please, hyung. Let me court you.'
'....okay.'
'Really hyung?! Thank you so much!'
After 3 months of courting, you finally said yes to me. You don't how happy I am that time. That finally, you became officially mine. I was the happiest guy in the world. There are times when we almost revealed to the world about our relationship. It's all at my fault because I was a possessive boyfriend. I just love you too much.
As the performance comes to an end, I finally bursted into tears. Those precious moments are just memories now. Past. How I wish I could turn back time and change everything so that we could be together again. Everyday I would prove to you how much I love you.
But that's impossible, I know. Even if I could turn back time, it would still lead us to the same ending. Is this really the end of us?
The performance ended and here I am, a crying mess. I bowed my head just so no one would notice that I'm crying.
I'm about to leave the stage when someone grabbed my wrist. I didn't look at him as I don't want anyone seeing me like this.
"Kookie, are you okay? Are you crying?"