This Love We Have - jikook ff - Chapter 71: Chapter 71

Jungkook's POV
"Wherever Jimin is now, he'll be okay."
Everything has ended. But, losing a very important person instead is much more painful. Namjoon hyung died. He was a great brother and a great friend to me. He helped me through a lot. He was my inspiration. He was my role model. He was my idol. I looked up to him so much for his passion on things he loved to do. Everyone can prove to that. Namjoon hyung will never be forgotten.
Just looking at his name written on this marble slab, I still can't process everything. It seems like yesterday, we were all still together. But now, he's gone. He already left us. When he dodged the bullet that was supposed for Jimin, I can only blame myself for everything. It should've been me because I'm the very cause of all of this. Namjoon hyung didn't deserve to die.
Seeing Jin hyung crying so much right now, breaks me. Because of me, he lost his everything. He lost his husband. He lost the man he loves.
"I'm sorry, hyung." Having this heavy weight in my heart is all too much for me. I can only cry more.
"Jungkook, I told you. It's not your fault or anyone's. Namjoon hyung may have left us, but he'll always be here with us. He'll forever be in our hearts. In my heart. He will never be forgotten." I can only hug Jin hyung back. I feel him burying his face on my shoulders and crying his heart out. As the one witnessing this, I can only cry along with him while trying to comfort him by giving circular motions on his back.
"Jungkook, I know you miss him so much now. Jimin will come back. He will come back to you." I hear Jin hyung say through the hug that makes me cry even more.
"I...I miss him so much, hyung...Because of me, he's in that situation once again. When will I ever stop hurting him?" Jimin was sent to another country for a series of medication for the multiple injuries that he got from the abduction. Critical is the right word to describe everything. His parents didn't tell anyone about where it's gonna be. Well, I can understand them. They must be so mad at me. Seeing their son in the same dreadful situation again, they must hate me so much now. No, they must loathe me now. I'm such a pain to everyone. I'm such a curse to everyone.
"You're still blaming yourself on everything, aren't you? Aish, what should I do with you? Jungkook, please listen to me. All of this is not your fault. And I know Jimin's parents don't hate you. Yes, they might be hurt but they're not mad at you. Trust me. They are not so please stop blaming yourself already and smile now. I miss that bunny teeth of yours that never fails to make us smile. Come on. Please smile. Hmm?" Jin hyung pulls away from the hug, resting his hands on the side of my shoulders. But I couldn't still look at him right in the eyes. I'm still a crying mess here.
"Smile now. Come on. You know Jimin won't like it if he sees you like this." Hearing his name again makes me finally lift my head up. Once I did that, I see Jin hyung's smiling face right away. How could he still be so good to me? I don't deserve his kindness.
I feel him placing his fingers on my lips and forming them into a smile. So, I give in right away.
"Thank you, hyung. Thank you for everything. I feel like I don't deserve this but thank you for being the best hyung I could ever have. I know Namjoon hyung felt the same way. Even though he's with God now, I know he'll always love you."
"Aish. You're making me cry again, Jeon. Aish. Yeah, and I will always love him, too." We both look at his marble slab and give a bittersweet smile. Thank you, hyung.
"Come on, let's go now. You're still coming with me somewhere, remember?" Jin hyung tells me.
"Babe, I will now get our precious daughter. And, Jungkook will be coming with me. I hope she grows up like you. When she's old enough, I'll bring her to you. I love you so much, Namjoon. Don't forget that. Look out for us from there, okay? Take care, my love." What Jin hyung said makes me smile and tear up at the same time. I can see that they really love each other. Out of nowhere, a warm breeze hugs both of us. We both smile with eyes glistening, knowing that it's Namjoon hyung.
Namjoon hyung, again thank you so much for everything. I know what you did was for us. I will treasure what you did for me. This time, I will do it right. I won't hurt and I won't let go of Jimin again.
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A year passed
I'm standing here in our place. The beautiful lake where I used to take him on special dates. Roaming my eyes around this beautiful place gives me a lot of emotions. I can still remember our memories here.
I can remember when we used to play tag like kids.
I can remember how we kissed under that beautiful tree.
I can remember when Jimin fell on the water, pulling me to the water instead when I was trying to pull him out.
I can remember how he smiled so beautifully in my arms.
I can remember the countless of times he kissed me when I was drying his hair off and how he giggled and how cute his sneezes are.
He's such an adorable cute little man, I swear. Just everything is so special to me. Every memory we shared together will always be in my heart.
I walk towards the lake. I saw it's beauty right before my eyes. It is the fall season. I look up to the sky as the light hit my eyes. A smile forms in between my lips, feeling the warm breeze through my skin. I return my eyes on the lake as little diamonds shine on its water. Then, I see the beautiful tree with leaves as much orange as they can be. Wow, God's creation is really perfect. My feet leads me to it unknowingly while I hum to the song I made just for him.
A year has passed but you're still not here, love.
Will you still come back to me?
Every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month hurts without you by my side. And now, a year has passed, I am missing you more and more each day.
But, I won't give up.
I still believe you'll come back someday.
You will, right?
I will wait for you even if it takes me forever.
Even if the world keeps saying I should stop already, I will still wait. Because waiting for you is worth it. I will trust on our love. Because the love we have is worth waiting for and worth fighting for.
I sit down, leaning on the tree. I take out my phone and look at the time. Wow, I didn't notice an hour passed already. I keep on brushing my hair as the breeze brushes them, too. I just continue singing our song with a big smile on my face. I close my eyes, feeling every word of the lyrics. It makes me more indulge to the feeling when birds start to sing in rhythm. Wow, I never felt so amazed at God's creation than right now. Really, everything is made so perfectly.
"Jungkook."
That beautiful voice of his. I'm quite blessed to hear his voice once again, even if it's just in my head.
"Love."
I love hearing him calling me by our endearment. It makes me certainly feel his love for me. Love is such a beautiful and strong word.
"Love. I'm here now."
I hear him say that sounds so real to my ears. Wait...
So I didn't hesitate and open my eyes right away. There I see from the other side, a figure of a man who looks so beautiful. The man who captured my heart right away. The man who gave me a random cycle of emotions. The man who I simply love and will always love with all of me.
It feels so unreal so I close my eyes once more. Maybe, I'm just hallucinating. Maybe, I'm just dreaming. A beautiful dream that I wouldn't trade for anything.
"Love, it's me. Your Jimin. Look at me, please." This time, it sounds more real so I open my eyes again while my heart is beating faster than ever. Could it be...?
"God, if this is a dream, then please make it real." I look up to the sky, trying to converse with God but I'm answered by a cute giggle instead. That giggle can only be his. So with my brows furrowed, I look back to the same figure again. My breath hitches as he starts to walk while looking at me with his beautiful smile. My heart keeps on beating fast as I still can't process everything. My eyes are too attached on the man who is as beautiful as how I can remember of him. I'm still sitting under this beautiful tree when he stops right infront of me. I'm still processing everything, still can't believe that I'm seeing his face right now.
I still feel like this is a dream until he places his soft hand on my face. My heart skips a beat while my throat suddenly goes dry.
"Love, it's really me. I'm back. For you. I missed you so much." I see him smile again, his eyes glistening that looks so beautiful as ever, and shows me that beautiful eye smile of his which never fails to melt my heart.
"L-Love? Is that really you?" I see him nod, smiling.
"Love!" I didn't waste any more time and hug him right away. I feel my tears want to come out now so I stop holding them back.
"Oh my God! You're real! You're back! Oh God! I missed you so much, love!" I pull him more in my embrace. I'm now sure he's real because I can smell his natural strawberry scent. God, how I miss him in my arms. I will never ever let go of him again. This guy right here will be the very death of me, I swear.
"Ya, Jungkook. I can't breathe."
"Oh. I'm sorry, love. I just missed you so fucking much." I kiss him right away and I smile when he kisses me back. This is the best feeling ever. We're sharing a kiss full of love and happiness.
I'm the first one to pull back for air. God, it seems like ages from when the last time we kissed. God knows how much I missed his lips on mine.
But, what can be more breathtaking than seeing him pouting at me right now? He's so fucking adorable.
"Did you seriously think I'm unreal?" He's still pouting. I can't. Aish. I can't help but give him a peck. Hehehe.
"Don't stop pouting. I'm loving it."
"Ya! Jeon Jungkook!" He gives me a punch on my chest which I find so amusing and adorable at the same time.
"I love you so so much, Park Jimin."
"I love you, too, Jeon Jungkook."
"Now, this might be fast, given that you just came back. But, I'm more than prepared for this. Jimin, will you give me the greatest honor to love you, be with you, and be your husband? Will you marry me, Park Jimin?"
Six months later
April 26, 2026
(The day when they will finally tie the knot.)
Still Jungkook's POV
I feel so nervous right now. He's still not here and it's been 30 minutes. I don't feel good about this. Where is he now?
"Hey, relax. Maybe they're just caught in the traffic." I hear Jin hyung say but I still don't feel good.
"I just googled and it says, there's no traffic though." Taehyung whispered in which Jin hyung slaps him for.
"Aish...Can't you see what's happening?!" Jin hyung glared at him but I'm still feeling not okay about this. Love where are you now?
"He wouldn't ditch our wedding and leave me, right?" I didn't notice I'm crying now.
"No, of course. He loves you too much to do that. Let's just wait. Hmm?" I just smile at Jin hyung. He won't leave me. Jimin won't leave.
Few more minutes of which feels like forever and I'm sweating while hearing silent murmurs from the guests.
"The groom is here!" The organizer yells that pulls the big thorn out of my heart right away.
The entourage starts and I'm already in the verge of crying. The time when it's his turn to walk comes. When he starts to walk with that beautiful smile of his, everything is suddenly turned in slow motion. My heart skips a beat as I can't hold my tears anymore. Without furthermore, I break down in tears of happiness. Jin hyung rubs my back as he's crying, too. Seeing Jimin walks so beautifully on that aisle of flowers is the most beautiful sight I've ever seen in my entire life. Because, it only means he'll be officially mine and that I can finally call him my husband.
When he reaches me, we're both a crying mess. So, I can't help but hug him right away.
"You made me worried. Why were you so late? I thought you left me already."
"Of course not. I'm sorry. It's just, Jisoo talked to me."
"What?! What did she do to you?! Tell me."
"Relax, Jungkook. She just talked to me and asked for forgiveness. Don't worry, love. Nothing happened. She just wanted to say sorry. She also told me she's with Chanyeol hyung now. She's helping him recover. She also told me that Min Joon is starting to accept everything now. But please, try to keep the bond you had built with Min Joon. He still treats you as his dad. Hmm?"
"That's a relief. Of course, I'll do that. I have grown fond of that kid. He's one of the reasons how I got through the pain somehow so I won't stop seeing him like my own kid. I love you so much."
"I love you too. So much."
We are smiling to each other when someone clears his throat.
"Let's start, shall we? The guests are now all giggling at you both. Look." Jin hyung coughs a little, whispering to us, that makes us realize we still have a wedding to go on with. We suddenly both feel embarrassed while Jimin buries his face on my chest. Aish, this man is the most beautiful ever.
"Do you, Jeon Jungkook, take Park Jimin as your lawful husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish until death do you part?"
"I do." Tears of happiness run down my face, holding his hands. Seeing him cry beautifully infront of me is all bliss to me. I still can't believe we'll be married few minutes now. That finally I can shout to the world that Park Jimin is mine and only mine.
"Do you, Park Jimin, take Jeon Jungkook as your lawful husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish until death do you part?"
"I do, Father." I'm now a crying mess. Hearing him say I do is the best word I've ever received in my entire life. I feel him placing his hands on my cheeks and caressing it. I just feel so happy right now. It feels like a dream but this is reality. A beautiful reality where I can proudly say that I'm the luckiest guy in the world to have this beautiful man infront of me as my one and only. My partner for eternity.
Sealing our marriage with the rings makes me cry so much in happiness. This will be the sign of our love for each other and our vows, that no matter what happens, we will be each other's strength. We will treasure this forever.
"With all the power that has bestowed upon me from above, I now declare you as husbands. Let's all give a round of applause to Mr. and Mr. Jeon. You may now kiss your husband."
I must say that this day marks the journey of us as a married couple. Together we will face every trial and hardship that comes our marriage. We will overcome everything with our hands clasped together.
We will trust in our love because...
Our love is stronger than the storm.
Our love is bigger than the universe.
Our love is deeper than the oceans.
And, our love is wider than the seas are.
Now that he's officially mine and I'm officially his,
What more could I ask for?