Today I Met The Girl I'm Going To M... - Chapter 53: Chapter 53

Good morning.
Good morning.
It's fun to stay up late.
Good morning.
Good morning.
To you!
I am in the best mood ever!
Any guesses why?
I giggle at myself as I watch Jennie sleep.
She is too cute for words.
I just want to eat her up.
Oh wait, I did that already.
I have to cover my mouth or I'm going to wake Jennie because I can't stop giggling. It's safe to say that I'm giddy and it's also safe to say that Jennie is the cause for my newfound appreciation for mornings.
I doubt I'll ever have another foul start to my day if the first thing I see when I open my eyes is her.
She's got the covers all snuggly around her body and her mouth is open just a bit as she dreams of me.
No, I don't actually know if I'm in her dreams but I'm trying to be optimistic. She was in every one of mine last night.
Naked.
I peer under my duvet to sneak a peek at Jennie because I can.
Damn!
My dreams did not do her justice.
I wonder if it's normal to be this obsessed with someone?
Who cares!
I have Jennie in my bed and I'm not getting up for any reason.
It seems my bladder has other ideas though as it decides to pick this moment of all moments to send me a very urgent signal.
Despite the urgency I manage to get up without disturbing my sleeping beauty.
Once I'm done my business I decide to brush my teeth so I can give Jennie a minty fresh kiss when she decides to grace me with her presence.
Oh by the way, I'm naked too.
I didn't really see the logic in putting on any clothes when I plan to have my way with Jennie this morning like I did last night. That's not to say she didn't have her way with me, because she did.
Yeah she did!
I think it would be very nice of me to wake her up like she woke me up the other morning.
I catch sight of myself in the mirror while I'm brushing my teeth and I make a mental note to tell Jennie that my breasts bounce around for other reasons besides getting angry. I have a strong feeling she'd like to know that.
"Jisoo, are you in there?" Jennie asks as she knocks on the bathroom door.
Darn!
She ruined my plans!
But on the plus side, she's awake!
Yay!
"Just a minute," I reply before I rinse the toothpaste out of my mouth.
"Hurry up," Jennie says and her voice sounds kind of funny.
Aw!
She's excited to see me and doesn't want to wait one second longer to greet me this fine day.
How sweet is she?
I wipe around my mouth to remove any traces of toothpaste and then I open the door. "Good morning to you..."
I don't get a chance to finish what I was about to say or give Jennie a good morning kiss because she grabs my arm, flings me out the bathroom and then locks the door.
Well, I never!
"Sorry, nature's calling," Jennie says apologetically. "I'll meet you back in bed."
Oh, ok, I'll forgive her this time.
"Not a problem," I tell her as I happily follow her request. "I left the toothbrush you used the other day on the counter for you."
See, I can be a very thoughtful girlfriend.
"Thanks," Jennie replies.
"You're most welcome," I sing out, as my good mood only gets better.
I know what's about to happen next.
Woo!
"Mi casa es su casa," I shout as I slide under the covers.
Hey!
I speak Spanish as well as French!
I should put that on my resume.
Not that I'm thinking of getting another job or anything. I love working for my dad plus I have a certain hot brunette as my number one client.
Number one in my heart that is.
Aw!
I think I just made myself swoon.
My inner musings have reminded me of something important.
Morning sex with Jennie will have to wait.
I know!
I'm sad too!
But this is important and I allowed my always-burning-for-Jennie loins to guide our activities last night so now I have to be responsible.
You could talk to her after you ravage her senseless.
Whoa!
I can't believe the voice in my head just made that suggestion.
I'm in shock.
Hey!
I can have fun!
But usually you're such a downer.
That was before you worked most things out with Jennie. Now that you have I'm just as interested in seeing her naked as you are.
Now, now, voice, you back off, Jennie's mine!
Thankfully Jennie exits the bathroom before I can fight myself for her.
Yeah, that's a weird thing to have to admit.
Anyway.
I open my eyes just as she joins me in bed.
Boo!
Hiss!
I missed the chance to watch her walk towards me in her birthday suit.
"Good morning," Jennie smirks as she slides over to me.
I smirk back and then I get a slow, sensual and long kiss from her.
Good morning indeed!
Jennie takes her time exploring my mouth before she pulls away from my missing her already lips. She tucks a few stray strands of my hair behind my ear as I get a couple more pecks.
Nothing too deep but pleasant just the same.
"Did you sleep well?" Jennie asks as she pulls my head onto her chest.
I love the sound of her steady heartbeat.
It's soothing.
It's comforting.
And it's beating fast for me.
Sigh.
I am so content.
"I had a great sleep," I reply once we're wrapped up in each other's arms. "How about you?"
"Best sleep I've had in a really long time," Jennie says and I can hear how relaxed she sounds.
We cuddle for a little while and as much as I'm enjoying this quiet time with Jennie, I don't want to get sidetracked like I've been known to do.
The way I look at it, the sooner we get through this issue, the sooner we can return to more pleasant activities.
I change positions so I'm facing Jennie and I give her a kiss before I begin. "We need to talk."
"That's not a great way to start a conversation," Jennie nervously replies.
"Nothing's wrong," I assure her with words and then with a kiss. "I promise."
Jennie smiles but I can tell she's still apprehensive. "Ok."
"What you did yesterday at your press conference was incredibly brave," I say as I link our fingers together. "And I can't even begin to tell you how proud of you I am."
I receive a cute as buttons blush from Jennie. "Why do I get the feeling that there's a but coming?"
"Because there is one," I reply making Jennie's smile go away. "But I should have been there with you."
Jennie shakes her head. "I understand why you weren't."
"No, Jennie, don't make excuses for me, I should have been there." This point is a very important one for me to make. "I made a promise to you that you weren't alone anymore and I broke that promise."
"You had every reason to," Jennie cuts in. "I lied to you and..."
"It doesn't matter," I say before she can go any further. "At the first sign of trouble I pushed you away. Yes, I was hurt and upset but that doesn't mean I should have turned my back on you."
I've learned an important lesson here.
One I vow to myself I will never forget.
"We're a team now, it's you and me together," I squeeze Jennie's hand to emphasize my point. "And what that means is even if you screw up, I'm here for you and I'd hope you'd feel the same way."
Jennie opens her mouth to speak but I keep going.
"I'm not giving you a free pass to do whatever you want or anything like that because the pain I felt the last couple of days is not something I ever want to feel again." I see the shame in Jennie's eyes but this is just as imperative a topic as anything else. "We've both made mistakes, Jen, both of us, but what matters is that we learn from them and move on."
"What do you mean?" Jennie asks.
"I mean that I'm willing to leave what happened behind us, if you are as well," I explain as I hold her close to me. "This is our fresh start and I don't think it will do either one of us any good to feel guilty for the past."
I watch Jennie process what I just said and I really hope she can let go.
If she thinks she always messes up, then she will.
If I let my fears dictate my actions, I'll run or push her away again.
It's not going to be easy, and I know we'll make mistakes because we're human.
But as long as we try and don't shut down the lines of communication, I am positive that the outlook for our future will be a bright one.
The reality is, when you're in a relationship, your own feelings can't always dictate your actions. There's another person to consider and that's the error in judgment I made with Jennie.
I wasn't wrong when I told her I couldn't go along with pretending that Hanbin was her boyfriend.
Lying is never a good thing.
Where I went wrong was leaving Jennie, who was obviously confused and full of self doubt, alone to figure out the right thing to do.
I'm lucky she's got a good head on her shoulders.
I'm lucky that Hanbin was there to give her advice.
I'm lucky Rosé was around to give her the support that I didn't.
And from now on, I won't have to rely on luck, because I'll be in Jennie's corner.
Always.
I may not agree with her, I might think she's making a huge mistake, I might fight her and argue to make her see things from another angle.
But I won't abandon her.
I won't leave her alone.
That is what I want her to believe with all her heart.
Falling in love is easy.
Relationships are hard work.
My mom always used to tell me that and I never really got what she meant until now. Fairy tales always end before the real story starts.
And I guess I got caught up in believing that if you were in love, everything would come easy. I'd know all the right answers, or the person I was in love with would.
I've had the veil lifted from my eyes and I'm confident that Jennie has as well.
"I'm willing to have a fresh start," Jennie whispers but she still looks unsure of herself.
I move in so I'm only inches from her face and then I hold her gaze. "You aren't alone anymore, Jennie, you have me." I see the tears forming in her eyes. "At the end of the day and when it matters, I'm going to be here for you."
Jennie's trembling but I don't let up because I'm finally convinced that I'm getting through to her.
"Always," I add for good measure before I reconnect our lips.
In this kiss I want her to feel the promise I've made to her.
The one I won't break this time.
The one that hopefully erases that lonely feeling that Jennie has had for so long.
Her tears hit my cheek as we continue to kiss.
Jennie never had a support system growing up like I did.
But she has one now.
Starting with me.
She already has Hanbin.
And soon enough, she'll have the whole Kim clan and Rosé behind her.
"I love you," I whisper once we pull apart. "And don't you ever forget that."
Jennie buries her head on my shoulder and I cradle her in my arms. "I love you too," she whispers back and I know I've made her believe my words and believe in me.
After a few minutes I move back so I can stare into those kind and loving chocolate brown eyes of hers. "There's one more thing."
Jennie nods her head because her emotions are still too fresh for her to talk.
"There's no way in hell you are giving up your music career for me," I half joke. I'm being serious but I keep my tone light. "You are way too talented and way too passionate about music to stop. I know how much you love it and I won't be the one responsible for you making that decision."
I have to be firm because even if she doesn't regret her decision now, one day she will.
And when that day comes, she'll start to resent me.
That resentment could very well tear us apart and I will not let that happen.
Not on my watch.
"I didn't give up my career for you," Jennie replies and I must admit I'm surprised. I refrain from peppering Jennie with questions and let her explain. "When I walked away from my record deal you did play a part in that decision but I felt bogged down by that contract for a while and I didn't think I had any options. I figured this was my one shot and I had to take it."
I nod my head in understanding as I bite my tongue.
"I came out because it was the right thing to do like you said, and ok, a part of me hoped you'd be impressed by my actions," Jennie continues.
"I was," I interject with a smile and I get a smile back for my efforts.
"I gave up my career for me," Jennie sighs and I can tell she's got more to say. "I hated the person I became as I chased my dream and I don't want to be that person anymore."
"But you love it, Jen, you can't deny that you do." I know I'm right by the way her entire face lights up when she's performing.
"I don't want to compromise my principals to be successful and fame is not what I'm after," Jennie counters. "All I want to do was share my music with people and if I have to sing on the street corner to do that, then so be it."
Not only is she hot, sweet, funny, charming and many other things, but she's noble too.
I'm such a goner.
In the best way possible.
"I told you that first night that this business can be a jungle and you've seen firsthand that it can be." I cup Jennie's face in my hand. "But when you made that decision you forgot all about your secret weapon."
Jennie raises an eyebrow. "Secret weapon?"
"Me," I playfully smirk. "You have too much talent not to share it with the world and with me helping you along, I'm going to make sure that your music is heard by millions."
You bet your ass I am!
Jennie isn't convinced. "Jisoo..."
"This point isn't up for discussion," I tell her with a stern look on my face. "You are going to have your dreams come true and that's final."
Oh, I like being tough with Jennie.
It's fun!
"I've already had my dreams come true," Jennie replies softly as she pushes me on my back. "I have you."
Aw!
She's melted my heart completely.
I'm the luckiest girl alive.
Really and truly lucky to have fallen in love with as amazing a person as the one tenderly kissing me right now.
I will get Jennie a new record deal.
That's not a promise, that's a guarantee.
And when she accepts her first award I'll be cheering my head off by her side.
Right where I belong.