Today I Met The Girl I'm Going To M... - Chapter 62: Chapter 62

Nine and half months later....
I look around the nearly empty arena and it still amazes me that in a few hours it will be filled to capacity, with the audience chanting for just one person.
It's mind blowing really.
And something that never gets old.
Even though there aren't many people hanging around, I know she's here.
I always feel her presence even when she's not looking at me.
That's how strong our bond is and that's how much I love her.
When my eyes meet hers, my stomach flip-flops and my heart beats just a bit faster.
It doesn't matter that we've been together for months, it still feels like we just got together and I'm even more in love with her than I was yesterday.
Today is going to be a great day.
For a variety of reasons.
"You ready for your sound check, Jen?" George, the man in charge of every concert I've put on, asks.
"I'm ready," I tell him as I smile at Jisoo.
She's sitting in the front row like she always does when she has the time to attend one of my sound checks. Her eyes sparkle as she blows me a kiss.
I snatch the kiss out of the air and put it right over my heart.
I'm glad the guys in my band can't see what I just did.
They already think I'm the biggest sap around. I get teased relentlessly because of how I am around Jisoo, but you know, I don't really give a rats ass.
It's near impossible for me not tell her I love her every chance I get. Especially when the fact that I couldn't at first, almost cost me the biggest gift I've ever been given.
But that's in the past and I don't like to dwell there very often.
I hop up on stage after getting a real kiss from Jisoo and take my guitar out of its case.
My guitar that my dad used to record all of his albums with.
My guitar that Jisoo surprised me with on our six-month anniversary.
I found out from Rosé later, that she had to beg the owner of the guitar to sell it to her and paid three times the value for it. Jisoo acted so nonchalant when she presented the guitar to me. Like she didn't go through anything special to get it and that's one of countless reasons why I'm in love with her.
She has the biggest heart of anyone I know and the realization that I have such an important place in there makes me even more grateful she's in my life.
Oh man!
I am a sap!
But I'm also a rocker and that's the side of me that Jisoo's about to witness.
After I say a few things first.
"Is this thing on?" I ask as I tap the microphone in front of me a few times. I get a few laughs out of the crew but the guys behind me make their usual snarky remarks.
I ignore their boos as my eyes lock with Jisoo's chocolate orbs.
There's something about the way she looks at me that makes me think we could be in a crowd full of people and I'd be the only one she sees. Even when I'm in the middle of a show, if I happen to catch her gazing at me from the side of the stage, I nearly stop singing because of those eyes of hers.
They are so warm and the way they light up when I'm around is truly a sight to behold.
Ok, I really have to stop or I won't be able to get out what I want to say.
I've never been a huge fan of outwardly showing people what Jisoo gets to feel and hear from me, but there are times, like right now, when I put my own feelings aside for her.
She's worth any mild discomfort I get when I talk about her, and about us.
Because her reaction is so worth it.
I plug my guitar in before I speak. "I'd like to dedicate this number to the only girl for me." Jisoo smiles just like I knew she would and I smile right back at her. "But seeing as Angelina Jolie is not available, I'll have to settle for the next best thing."
I get an evil eye from the Jisoo but she's not really mad.
I hear my band snickering at the joke I just made as I adjust the strap around my neck.
"In about half an hour it's going to be exactly one year to the day that you and I met." I continue and I can tell Jisoo realizes I'm being serious now. "And even though we didn't have the most traditional courtship." That's putting it mildly. "I want you to know that the past year has been the best of my life." She nods along as if to say she feels the same. "So far." I add because I know we have a lot of good times ahead of us.
"Enough with the mushy crap," Johnny, the drummer, exclaims in frustration. "I'd like to get some sleep in before tonight so hurry up."
I whirl around to glare at him and the look on my face shuts him and the other three guys who play with me every night, up. "Go fuck yourself."
Honestly!
He can be such a wanker.
Don't mind me, we just finished a few shows in London and I picked up some new words to add to my ever growing vocabulary.
I do love Johnny though, and all the rest of the guys. I couldn't play without them and the countless hours we've spent together on tour have forged a strong bond between all of us.
We've been on the road for the better part of five months now. The first month I opened for another act until the demand for me grew to a point that I could headline my very own show.
I'll never forget Jisoo running into my dressing room to tell me the good news.
She nearly suffocated me with kisses but I didn't complain.
What would there be to complain about?
I never understood the expression, 'Home is where the heart is," until Jisoo came on tour with me. We lasted about two weeks without each other, two horrible weeks, before she quit her job.
I get to fall asleep with her every night and wake up with her most mornings. So even though we haven't had a fixed address for some time, being with her feels more like home than any structure could.
Tonight is actually the last stop of my tour.
And we're back in Los Angeles.
The very spot where I played my first solo show.
I think I might even miss the buggers who are like four loud, crass brothers I want to hug or hit depending on their moods and mine.
We're a family.
That's how much we fight, but we also have had countless great times as well.
Plus, they make me sound good so I can't get too mad at them.
"Thank you," I sarcastically say to the four Stooges that I love dearly. I turn back to Jisoo and roll my eyes.
She shakes her head in amusement and waits for me to get back on track.
Despite the ribbing I get from my band, they all love Jisoo as well. She mothers them a lot and it's funny to see them listen to her even when they're trying to act all tough and macho.
Boys!
"As I was saying before I was so rudely interrupted, Jisoo, this is for you." She has no idea what I'm going to play.
It would get boring if she had to hear me play one of my songs.
She's heard them all already.
No, this is a surprise.
I bet she's expecting a romantic number from me.
But that's not what she's getting.
I want to reach her in a different way.
One that ensures we will take advantage of our alone time later.
I love showing Jisoo the softer side of me, however, right now, it's the bad ass in me that I'm going to release.
I signal Johnny with my hand to let him know I'm ready and he counts off so we're all in sync.
I strike the strings on my guitar first, until my guys join in a few seconds later.
Jisoo leans forward as I give her a sexy smirk.
"Girl, you really got me now, you got me so I don't know what I'm doin'." She really does have me, all of me and it's comforting to know I have all of Jisoo as well. "Girl, you really got me now, you got me so I can't sleep at night."
That's exactly what it was like when we first met.
I thought about Jisoo all the time, still do actually, but in a different way.
She drove me crazy.
And I wanted to be around her as much as I could.
"Girl, you really got me now, you got me so I don't know where I'm goin'." Jisoo is my best audience and she cheers for me at every show with such enthusiasm.
It's hard for me to describe to other people how Jisoo makes everything better and I'm not sure I'll ever be able to.
I might have had a successful career if Jisoo and I didn't meet, but it wouldn't the same.
I wouldn't be the same.
She helped me change into someone I can look at in the mirror and not cringe.
She made me believe I was worth being loved when I didn't really get that message from my parents.
But I've made my peace with both of them, yet another thing Jisoo helped me with. I know my dad loved me as best as he could and I feel closer to him now than when he was alive. I've forgiven my mom and even though she isn't a part of my life, I still hold out hope that one day she can be.
And if that day doesn't come, I'll be ok.
I have so many people who care about me, that I've been able to close the door on my past.
For the most part.
It does open from time to time and when that happens, Jisoo is there, like she always is, to close it back up.
"Oh yeah, you really got me now, you got me so I can't sleep at night." I sling my guitar around my back as the guys sing the chorus.
I love performing for her.
And Jisoo loves it when I do.
"Please, don't ever let me be, I only wanna be by your side." I move over to the front of the stage and dangle my feet over the edge when I sit down. "Please, don't ever let me be, I only wanna be by your side."
That really is the only place I want to be.
By Jisoo's side.
"Girl, you really got me now, you got me so I don't know what I'm doin' yeah." I beckon Jisoo to me and the desire I see in her eyes, gives me the best kind of shivers.
She makes me hot just with a look.
Or her touch.
And don't even get me started on how that girl can kiss.
Jisoo stands right in front of me as I belt out the next part. "Oh yeah, you really got me now, got me so I can't sleep at night."
I drop the microphone because I don't have anything to sing for the next little bit.
Not to mention that it's been ages since I felt her lips on mine.
She was gone when I woke up this morning because of an early meeting and I've been missing her ever since.
I pull Jisoo towards me, not that she puts up any kind of resistance mind you, and wrap my legs around her waist.
I don't care that there are people around, I need to kiss her.
And the entire crew as well as my band is used to us being affectionate with one another.
No, not like that, some things are meant only to happen behind closed doors. But I never miss an opportunity to kiss her in my arms.
I'd be an idiot if I did.
I sigh into our kiss.
A sigh of pure contentment.
We get so caught up in our impromptu make out session that I don't get to finish my song.
Oh well.
I have Jisoo's tongue in my mouth so I really don't care. And I get the distinct feeling she doesn't either.
I'm about to drag her into my dressing room when her phone rings.
Damn that phone!
I shouldn't complain really.
Jisoo wouldn't be able to do her job as my publicist/manager/agent without it.
But still, we were about to go have some fun.
Jisoo links her fingers with mine as she talks with the person on the other end of the line. She always likes to be touching or holding my hand and that's fine by me.
Better than fine actually.
I swing our arms around as I hold back from hanging up the phone, throwing Jisoo over my shoulder and having my way with her.
Wait.
Why is that a bad idea again?
"Listen, you fucking jerk, because I'm not going to repeat myself again," Jisoo snaps, breaking my thought process. "Jennie's sexuality is not something you're going to exploit to get more viewers and if you can't get that message through your thick head, she won't be appearing on your show tomorrow night."
Damn.
She's being aggressive Jisoo.
That makes me want her even more.
Hotness factor aside, I love how protective she is of me.
All I have to worry about is playing my music and Jisoo handles the rest.
I'm her only client and even when I wasn't, she always made me feel that way.
Jisoo puts the phone on mute. "I'm really sorry, Jen, this is going to take a while." She looks as frustrated as I feel so I give her a tender kiss.
"Don't worry about it. Meet me in my dressing room when you're done," I reply before she goes back to her call. I kiss her hand before releasing it as I watch her continue to fight with whoever she's talking to.
Once I'm in my dressing room I collapse on the couch and wait for Jisoo to get back.
I hope she isn't too long.
But the time I have to myself makes me that much more excited about tonight.
No, not the concert but seeing her family.
My family.
Our family.
The Kims, plus Hanbin and Rosé.
It's been so long since we've all been in one place together.
And even though I won't be done until late, we're all going out to celebrate the end of my tour and the fact that Jisoo and I are home.
A smile creeps across my face as I think of the very important discussion I have to have with Mr. A. when I see him.
I hope he says yes.
And even more so, I hope Jisoo says yes when I ask her the question I've been dying to ask her for months.
Like I said, today is going to be a great day!