Withered - Chapter 6: Chapter 6

Tomorrow is the graduation day. Finally! After years I survive high school. As the day be my stepping stone to the real world. This is what they've been preparing for. After twelve memorable years. Through the good, bad, idiotic, fun and change. It is  finally time to rest from studying every simgle minutes I wasn't earning or in class Time to step out into that bright light, shake the hand of an administrator and grab the ticket to freedom.
I'm a bit excited to start college life and kinda miss some of the teachers. I got second place on the final exam and I'm quite not satisfied with it, don't ask me who got first place.
Now, is 11.56 p.m few minutes before I officially end my high school life. Unnies already finished high school last year leaving me alone. Can't believe I'm nearly eighteen, I'm old. Arrghhh! I wanna be eight again I don't want to be adult. It's scary.
Since something is just wrong with me now, feeling a mix of sad, happy and excited that somehow preventing me to fall asleep, I go to Sana's unnie room and asks her if I can sleep with her, but nahh we ends up calling Momo unnie and gathering in my room talking, laughing, eating snack and just spend time telling each other our secret and everything.
"Sana unnie, are you and Tzuyu dating?" I asks Sana Unnie who's stretching her neck by hanging over the bed, but quickly sits straight facing me. I guess the question caught her off guard.
"Umm, kinda?" She hesistantly answer. Why does it sound like a question?
"What do you mean by 'kinda'?" Momo I unnie interrupts. She's lying on the mat with her head resting on my lap, while I'm feeding her snacks. If she's choking, not my fault I already warn her.
"I like him and he knows that but It feels like he is still unsure with his feelings and we just got into a fight last weeks, he hasn't reply any of my messages and I…….. just gives up already" Sana unnie sigh.
From what I observed, Tzuyu surely likes Sana unnie so what's the problem and clearly, everyone in this world can notice my sister feelings towards Tzuyu, it's cutely obvious.
"Fight? Why? What happened?" Asked the big eater
"Just some misunderstanding, I umm there's this one guy named Eunha and he confesses to me the other day when I'm waiting for Tzuyu outside his school, of course I reject him but I feel guilty because he treats me nicely and somehow we get close but for me it's no more than just a friendship" Sana unnie starts to cry and her voice cracked, I hurriedly go to her and hug her to comfort my older sister, she really a softhearted person.
"And he suddenly kissed me one time and because of that I kinda mad at him but he already apologize, I forgive him but the next day Tzuyu just ignored me and asked me to get away because seeing me makes him feels disgusted and mad" She sobs harder gripping my arms tightly until it hurts, momo unnie joins us and then it becomes a group hug with all of us crying. We muffled our voice, don't want fo be heard by our parents.
Why would he feels disgusted and mad if he doesn't share the same feelings, that just so stupid. I advise Sana unnie that Tzuyu might still need time that he just confused and it will be better if they separate for awhile giving him space to think it through and when the time comes he will definitely reach her first. Sometimes two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together.
After Sana unnie cried her heart out, we laugh at how funny our face looks like and how we cried like a child. The topic then switches to Momo unnie.
"So, how about you Momo-ya, is it okay between you and Dahyun?" Sana unnie asks, still sniffling then rest her head on my shoulder. Momo unnie sits on my study chair, hugging her knees.
"Honesty is the problem here" she answers while munching slowly the chips.
"He always lied to me. Although we're in a relationship I don't think he actually trusts me" she adds.
"Did he lied about anything?" I asks furrowing.
"I found a box in his drawer full with a picture of the same person with him smiling, and when I asked about it, he told me that it was his cousin and I believe him, but…………but……….I..I met the girl one day and stupid me I called her as Dahyun's cousin, she then laughs at me and said that she was Dahyun's ex-girlfriend. Of course that day, I met him and we got into a big fight until now we didn't talk to each other" Momo unnie says between her sob and quickly wipe her tears acting tough. I pull out my arms calling her to come over and here we are sitting beside each other with both of their head rest on my shoulder while I'm in the middle.
I sigh in defeat thinking that both of my beloved sisters having trouble with their relationship. Maybe it's better to stay single forever, like me. One heartbreak is enough two? I don't think so. I'm still in the process of gluing back my heart that broke because of a jerk who cheated on me.
"You know Momo unnie, I think there must be a reason why he lied to you, I mean a good reason. Do you listen to his excuses the day you fight?" I asks then shake my head when Momo unnie don't answer me.
"See, at least listen to him. Give him a chance to explain himself, and you need to trust him, your relationship won't go anywhere if you miss that aspect. As for now, I think both of you just use your time to think it through and do what the best you think for you and your partner. Don't be like me" They both nod at my advice.
I started to feel like a master of love, can't believe I say that. Wise words from someone who is cheated on. Haha.
"Well, Mina, How things for you and Chaeng?" Sana unnie starts.
"Humm" That's the only response I could give.
"I mean do you see him more than a friend, you know you can be honest with us" she adds, hinting something. I don't know where this conversation will lead bit one for sure, I'm not ready for it.
"I-I don't know" I answer.
"Really?" Momo unnie butt in.
"Yeah, I don't think we can be more than a mega best friend, I like how things between us right now," I state.
"But, next after a mega best friend is a boyfriend, I really want you guys to be together," Says momo unnie.
"Are you afraid Mina? I can sense it you know" Sana unnie lift her head and stare at me.
"I-I don't know" Do I, am I actually afraid to be more than a friend to Chaengie. Maybe I do. Love is much more complicated than it seems and I don't want those things called love, break something that I value the most, friendship. I'd seen and experienced what romantic love could do to you and I can come out with one conclusion; Friendship is better then relationship. It feels safer and less at stake, beautiful then demanding.
"Let's say, you don't like him, but what about Chaeng?" Momo unnie speak up. I woke up from my trains of thoughts and just sigh.
"No, I don't think he ever sees me in that kind of way" I answer.
"Seriously!?" They yells in unison startling me to death. I signal them to keep it quite because we don't want to wake our parents. They obligate and instantly cover their mouth. They divert their attention back on me, staring deeply. Momo unnie click her tongue while Sana unnie shakes her head.
"You're so hopeless and even dumber than Momo," Sana unnie says after a very awkward silence as I'm still wondering why are they shouting like that and worse, just behind my ear.
"Wha-why me" Momo unnie protest.
"Are you only acting or just a fool or just a very very oblivious girl?" Sana unnie faced me ignoring Momo unnie.
"Eh?" I tilt my head.
"It's not my place to say anything but just try to be more alert and understanding Mina-ya" she adds. I'm always aware of my surrounding. What does she mean by that? I tries to get answers by asking them but no one seems to tell me anything.
After another hour talking and gossiping, all of us drift to dreamland on my bed. I wake up again, checks the time that shows 3.56 a.m. I turn around seeing my sisters still asleep. While me, I just can't stop thinking about what Sana unnie says earlier.
Chaengie's feelings towards me. It can't be, he never sees me more than a friend right.
Or on second thought does he?